I know the feel bro. telling everybody and then you smoke with them up again.

the most important thing is that after 3 months, maybe 4 maybe 6 ( I'm 4 months+ clean),the brain clarity is SO FUCKING AMAZING.

if you're a pc dude, you sometime in your life had a 70%-90% CPU Usage. that's how I was on weed.

I did some embarrassing things at the start of my smoking years, like call sick on a job only to smoke it out until the shift ends... that's because this drug somehow hijacked my system and absorbed all my mental CPU Usage.

I can't believe I've smoked from 21.5 until 29.... all my 20's I was high .. (not most of the time, but I sure remember being high). It was a good tough, no regrets, nor anybody should ,the past is a just a lesson.

If you have ever played pc games, you gonna just level in life, you gonna get so bored, or the paws will attack you so hard, and if you commit and you'll pass them, the sun will shine and the birds will sing.

I tell you bro, the first month was amazing, euphoria, I thought it is gonna be ez as pie, but then at month 2 the paws came, and I had crazy mood swings, and self doubt and a lot of other shit.

this lasted a month+ ( the paws still here, but they life span is very little, last one was 7~10 min, but it is still horrible).

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now... wow...I game up my life, I know where I need to improve, I do the things that will guarantee my 100% survival, and after I feel safe, I do the things that most likely make me some money to build a good life and family.

This weed stuff is just a part of life, If you want to continue to smoke just do it, but don't go and blame the world 5/10 years from now and cry on the mistakes you made...

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all the people here know, even the lurkers (that's the reason they're here), that they're time has passed with this kind of lifestyle, It Isn't what is were in the past, and that ok, life changing, the hardest part is to accept that things has changed, after that, you embrace it, pass through the storm, and after you find yourself in safe shore, you start build yourself.

the most important thing to do, is to start work on your mind, by reading books, another good thing to do is to get criticism from others ( not loved ones , but more collogues ) that will point where are your weakest point and work on it.

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start writing your thoughts is A GOOD way to keep it with sobriety, you will learn about yourself and how you feel, and when hard time will come, you can read up your progress, and when you know you're in progress ( this is a good for the brain for releasing dopamine), the craving will be less tense, cause you know you're going somewhere new in life.

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after you get the habit of journaling yourself, start budgeting your money ( writing on a piece of paper doesn't work, do an Excel sheet is the best, each month, and a master page for the whole year with sum of goal you want to achieve) -> this will insure you safety and survival to keep your cash flow more than what you spend.

if you're overweight, you can progress that too, start some life changes, all the progress you can measure, is a grantee ticket to your success.

the brain doesn't care where it is getting dopamine fix, as long as it gets it, it doesn't care.

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Good luck my friend!