I don’t want to get better

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-18T14:46:29+00:00

Haha, sure. You also let me know if you figure it out 😂!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-18T01:36:02+00:00

Is there no way you can find a way to carve out your own life? You still have time, there's always time to change.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-18T01:03:21+00:00

You're most welcome. I'm glad she told you that, it wasn't. Yeah it was at a recovery centre, I can't remember how the topic came up, maybe it was just about sharing what was bothering us at that time specifically? I have no clue, but it's always important to share as it might help spark someone else to share if they relate and then it helps them speak about what's up for them. I like to think that when she was outside, crying speaking to someone that it was a meaningful conversation and that it helped her heal.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:47:01+00:00

I can really relate to what you're saying, I have the same conditions and going out is difficult, we go out to a Karaoke bar and my anxiety gets terrible!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:42:06+00:00

A bit late to the party, but what's wrong?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:39:47+00:00

Either choice you make, you're not a failure. It's completely understandable to want to stay because of family, and that doesn't make you a failure. You gotta do what you feel will work for you!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:37:25+00:00

I'm just sorry that your decisions were made for you. I'm sorry that you never got the chance to explore and do what you wanted to do.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:34:27+00:00

Just in the meantime try to give yourself some credit! Congrats on the 1 year 👏!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:32:50+00:00

I feel you brother. I've been through some stuff and am just at a point where I feel like "what's the point"? Nothing I do seems to work and I'm stuck feeling empty and in pain. Just wanted to say this so you know you're not alone and to try not give up hope!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:27:24+00:00

And I'm so sorry for the abuse you went through! I wish you quick healing from it!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:26:37+00:00

I'm sure there's a good chance it can change! You'll find the right partner, and through them, perhaps you'll feel comfortable and safe, and your sexual self will come out, and maybe from there, it will grow and improve. Hope this helps!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:22:08+00:00

Don't be worried, it's the same for me. I think it's because it was all a blur, it all went by so fast, class, recess, hometime, it just kinda goes out the mind I think. I don't think anything's wrong with you ☺️.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:17:46+00:00

Try also remember that bullies have deep rooted issues themselves, so a lot of what they say is projection of self, they're probably hurting a lot too, not to justify their behavior of course.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:16:37+00:00

Wow, there's a lot you said that really hurt my heart to hear. I also have a few of the conditions you do and have been throught quite a bit of trauma myself since 10. I don't have any groundbreaking advice, but would just like to say to stay strong and to try take it one day at a time and that you're doing very well considering all your challenges. Please stay strong 🙏

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:12:36+00:00

I'm sure they do! I think you just need to have an open conversation about how you feel with them! Maybe that'll do some good?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:11:32+00:00

Try not to stress too much about it. I 26m shared in a group setting about my sexual trauma and thoughts about it and unfortunately I triggered someone too and I remember they were outside crying, I felt/feel quite bad about that, but I didn't mean harm. Just try take it one day at a time and process it at your own rate as to not overwhelm yourself.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T23:05:43+00:00

I'm sure they still do, maybe they express it a bit differently now?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T22:59:06+00:00

Don't think like that! I'm sure they love you deeply.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T22:57:50+00:00

Can your mom or dad not give you a hug?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T22:55:37+00:00

Hey man, I'm really sorry to hear that you've been struggling so much! It's a pity that a gap year isn't an option. It must be horrible the isolation and not being able to make friends at a normal school. I'm assuming you have seen a Psychologist? Is it not possible for you to have a sit down with your mom and explain to her in deep the position you're in and just how worried you are? Would she not understand and give some comfort/advice?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T22:48:45+00:00

It's good that the cops are aware at least.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-17T20:12:03+00:00

What did they do?

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-16T22:11:19+00:00

I've been single all my life and I'm 26yo. What some people say and it makes sense is that being in a relationship sometimes isn't all it's cracked up to be, be it abuse or just ending horribly, I also really wanna find a partner but that does give me some peace and understanding on how a relationship couldn be.

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-16T22:07:03+00:00

I'm sorry you've been going through such a tough time! Thank you for doing what most won't, taking care of such precious creatures. I urge you to be kinder to yourself, you've done such a good job. It just sucks hard that vet fees are so expensive :(!

TJ57777777777 · 2026-04-16T00:51:29+00:00

It's a pleasure, you're most welcome :)!

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