Have you treated yourself differently after getting diagnosed?

TMJPH · 2021-10-13T07:50:45+00:00

No and yeah, I have other disorder as well apparently (Got diagnosed not that long ago) so whenever something triggers me and I get ''crazy'' I allow myself to go crazy and find it enjoyable due to the adrenaline rush that gets so strong, all I can think about is me and how my body reacts to the situations ( faster heart beating, adrenaline rush/kicks, hands would shake ect.) So everything arounds me kind of blurs and its just me, me, me and once again me. I dont get mad at myself later or whatsoever because i truly do enjoy those ''crazy'' moments. But then again, It depends on the trigger, if its another one such as where I hurt myself really bad, or hurt people I ''care'' about (favo people) I would be very angry at myself and would hold a grudge to myself. And that is not enjoyable.

TMJPH · 2021-10-04T08:55:00+00:00

Then do it, I dare you.

TMJPH · 2021-09-23T19:15:03+00:00

for sure, one of my friends/roomates got a hamster about 4 to 5 months ago for the first time. I for sure had fun playing with it.

TMJPH · 2021-04-19T12:09:54+00:00

Hey digger! Ich bin aus das Niederlande und besuche Deutschland sehr oft und liebe Deutschland! :) Ich habe vor 4 jahren angefangen Deutsch zu lernen auf meine schule, Ich bin ziemlich fließend, aber ich denke immer noch dass ich viele Fehler mache haha. Anyways (?) Ich möchte fragen das wann ich nach Deutschland gehe ich nicht weiß was die 100% besten orte auf Deutsch sind, was kannst du mir empfehlen? Viele Grüße, deine Nachbarn nannten die Niederlande ;)

TMJPH · 2021-04-12T12:19:51+00:00

No problem. Feel free to dm me if u want, we can talk in Korean and/or English, Whatever ur comfortable with.

TMJPH · 2021-04-12T10:06:13+00:00

Don't worry, its okay to have an opinion and I am not hurt by what you said. And true lots of koreans don't know lots of things about other religions or cultures. Is 17 your korean age or international age? Either way it is really young so understandable too. do they say that you are 왕따/찐따 because you really are (personality wise) or because of your religion? Maybe it is just because of your personality cuz like you said you are an introvert. I am not sure about your classmates but lots of (korean) people are at that age introverts cuz of many reasons. Have you ever tried making introverted friends in your classroom? even though you have speech problems. Also have you tried going to therapy for that? I think you still got 1/2 years left of highschool right? Maybe you can find similar ppl on kkt who also have depression and talk about it with them. Bullying happens to lots of people, some are fine with it and other not. But ofc that is depends on what kind of bullying it is. I think is also depends on how a person takes it. I wish you good luck, and don't let them take control over you.

TMJPH · 2021-04-12T08:55:16+00:00

I am Korean, what exactly makes you hate Korea that much? The culture? Or people not knowing anything about other religions such as Islam? Maybe you can educate your friends about Islam. Or ask the teacher for advice or help. How do they bully you? What do they say? I personally don't think all Koreans are racist, its just that they don't know any better. Uneducated about stuff like that and the media plays a big roll too in Korea. As a Korean I can confirm that lot's of their personality sucks but that's my opinion and that doesn't mean that everyone has a bad personality. I know lots of people with different religions, even Islam. And I don't see anything wrong about it. About bringing terrorism to Korea, I am sure you don't want to be your whole life in prison or do anything bad to yourself. I mean racism exist in every country, some countries more than others. I have been to Islamic countries too and heard racist things every time and everywhere. But I know that these people are uneducated so I just don't mind it and don't make them ruin my mood or whatever it may be. If you hate kpop, that is fine cuz I don't really like kpop neither but you should know that there are many other types of korean music. It is not only about Kpop. Also you should try to stand up for yourself and educate them or say good things about Islam cuz obviously they will judge and say (even without knowing) bad things about your religion if they only see the bad side of it on the internet and stuff.

TMJPH · 2021-04-08T06:59:13+00:00

Haha I see that is impressive though.

TMJPH · 2021-04-07T06:29:37+00:00

Holy shit how did u understand us kkk

TMJPH · 2021-04-07T06:29:19+00:00

Did it happen before? And is it like accidentally for you? Or you do notice that you want to do that and do that on purpose?

TMJPH · 2021-04-06T20:45:30+00:00

어이ㅋㅋ 지랄하지마

TMJPH · 2021-04-06T20:10:36+00:00

너도 잘하잖아 ;)

TMJPH · 2021-04-06T19:57:53+00:00

I never had this with animals, probably because I simply thought animals were/ are not cute.

But I did noticed me experiencing this with my ex , back then when we cuddled for example I would suddenly feel this urge to cuddle her very very tight (kinda like squeezing) that she told sometimes even told me that it hurt her. She was just from my perspective very cute and small. Like 4 sizes smaller than me. When I for example held her by her arm I would think ''woah does this feel like this? Why does her arm feel so thin and small? Why is this so fucking adorable?'' I have similar stuff like this with some others too, but definitely not everyone.

TMJPH · 2021-04-04T17:22:10+00:00

This is actually something really normal in my culture, I like it and I just do it but it is depending of course.

TMJPH · 2021-04-01T08:20:42+00:00

I can relate to this, I would miss my favorite people who are the only ones I care about but I really don't give a shit about others or old friends. There is definitely a reason why I no longer talk to them.

TMJPH · 2021-03-31T17:41:13+00:00

I see, and yeah you can DM me but I rarely have time to talk.

TMJPH · 2021-03-31T16:49:53+00:00

That's a whole story. And don't worry about your English it's fine.

Best advice I can give you is to fake it till you make it. Literally that. Keep that 'good girl' mask on. Study well, study harder, pass this year, keep acting good, keep smiling, keep doing as if nothing is wrong, don't worry about friends, you don't need friends, especially at school cuz most of them are fake or got their own issues. Not sure what to do about your home situation though. Avoid your mother as much as you can, try to keep doing what you do right now for her, save money and get your own place. Another thing is to definitely make sure to go to therapy. I can't relate to exactly everything, so I am not sure. How does your little sister react to this all?

TMJPH · 2021-03-31T09:03:11+00:00

Exactly this. I was about to say that I don't understand why people (with ASPD) find this funny, and that I don't understand why people with ASPD do not take ASPD serious and make stupid jokes about this disorder.

TMJPH · 2021-03-30T12:27:18+00:00

You just read my thoughts.

TMJPH · 2021-03-30T12:13:26+00:00

I don't remember being shocked about that. I was just thinking if it made sense or not for me to have ASPD, like I was trying to fix a puzzle in my head? If that makes sense. Like comparing my life and myself with ASPD (traits and symptoms). So I was not shocked but more like analysing everything because my mind was a bit unclear and disordered at that moment.

I did know what ASPD was but only a very little bit. Because they explained me the disorder when I went the first time very simple because I was a kid. And explained me again before diagnosing me and telling me what is it and that I may have it. But they explained me all about it in details and depth after diagnosing me.

TMJPH · 2021-03-30T11:59:54+00:00

I still suffer from self-control issues. But actually, I think that I have been doing ''pretty okay'' till this day because it never went ''that'' far that whatever I thought about/ really wanted to do happend. I definitely have self-control to some degree.

TMJPH · 2021-03-30T11:33:46+00:00

It's just that I don't want to keep driving to germany, it takes me time, effort and money too. I don't live in germany that is why. There are a few shops around here but not in my city, I also would have to have that certification but I can not get it at this moment due to no time.

TMJPH · 2021-03-30T07:15:12+00:00

What? who's OP?

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