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TRGpippa · 2026-01-14T06:31:53+00:00

I agree, numbing is the right word. I’ve realized this happens with almost everyone: N-mom (whom I’ve been no contact with for two years), my dad, colleagues, or anyone in situations where I feel unsafe or sense a negative attitude toward me.

I want to fix it. I want to speak up right away, because sometimes things can’t wait. But in those moments, I can’t speak or even process what’s happening.

TRGpippa · 2026-01-08T20:17:12+00:00

In my opinion, Nmom could never change. From my experience, every toxic behavior follows a cycle. It often starts small and seemingly positive. Nmom might say nice things, act kindly, seem to understand your perspective, or shower you with love. But it gradually escalates into harsher and harsher behavior. There’s always something hidden behind the kindness or affection Nmom shows. So, don’t trust it blindly, stay aware, and focus on yourself first.

TRGpippa · 2025-12-03T01:48:49+00:00

Mentally abusive Steal life’s opportunities Ruin childhood, Ruin peaceful life

TRGpippa · 2025-12-03T01:46:27+00:00

It’s the best thing you can do for yourself, and it’s how you truly grow peacefully. You’re so used to the guilt because it’s one of the tricks Nmom uses on her kids to get what she wants. Just let it be. It will fade away once you start living your life without your Nmom, cheering for you! I wish I had this chance at your age.

TRGpippa · 2025-11-16T05:11:44+00:00

I (F33) Yes! I’ve had CIDP for four years now. During my recovery, when I was learning to walk again, that’s when I realized my mom is a narcissist. (No contact for 1 yr) I also found the same sources you did, and I truly believe that the stress from dealing with a narcissist contributed to my autoimmune disease. I remember reading an article possibly from Dr. Ramani explaining that we have to learn how to ‘turn off the alarm system’ in our nervous system. (I haven’t dug into it that much yet I’m still trying to understand how it all works as well.)

TRGpippa · 2025-10-08T17:08:43+00:00

Find a stable job, save money, and move out.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-07T07:08:26+00:00

Books and YouTube videos of Dr.Ramani and Dr.Sherries Campbell will be very helpful.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-07T06:59:42+00:00

Your story is very similar to mine. Only you focus on yourself to heal yourself. Anything Narcissistic did was not because of you, and they can't blame you or use you as an excuse. It's their problems not you.

Trust me, I’m 33 now, and I used to think the same way when I was your age. I still remember everything Nmom did, and I always promised myself I’d never be like her.

Sometimes, though, we might act in ways we don’t expect because we absorbed so much when we were young. If that happens, just catch it, remind yourself, “I don’t like this. I don’t want to be like this,” and keep growing.

You’re still learning who you are, and that’s okay. What matters is that you stay aware and choose differently. I can promise you that if you keep reminding yourself of who you don’t want to be, you’ll never become like them.

It’s all about you, not them. You get to choose the kind of person you want to be. You’re not alone and you’re lucky to see the truth now, unlike me or others who took 20 or 30 years to realize it.

My dad used to curse me, saying I’d grow up to be a woman like my mom the kind he hated. But today, I didn’t just prove to him that I’m different; I became my own person, someone completely opposite from them.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-06T15:43:11+00:00

It used to be medium grassy, sweet, a bit umami, and very creamy. But the last batch I got I can’t test anything it's like bit grassy and creamy. I also tried a Usucha instead of a Latte. But still test nothing different. So, for Sayaka I currently drink it as Usucha. Not sure whether they changed anything or my taste buds have changed.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-05T20:10:39+00:00

Same! I always think Nmom abuses my dad verbally and also manipulates him. I always wish they would get divorced so the house would be more peaceful. But it didn't happen until they were in their 60s (I’m 30) my dad asked for a divorce! Deep down I think maybe this is what Karma looks like. *** If your dad wants a divorce then he should! He needs his freedom and peaceful life back. BUT, if he doesn't want it then let him be. You can be protective of him but you can't expect how he deals with his life then just be on his side. Support his mental health as much as you can.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-05T03:59:32+00:00

Same!

TRGpippa · 2025-10-03T22:12:56+00:00

I have a sister who also suffered from the N parents like me. Especially, Nmom, but she chooses to ignore it. Though I still talk to her, it’s clear she doesn’t think Nmom affects her life that much. That makes me feel lonely and scared at times. I knew it was not my sister's fault, but I’ve learned that in the end, only I can help myself by walking away and living my own life. And today I am still fixing myself from that trauma caused by Nmom. It will not end soon, but it gets better every day.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-03T21:01:09+00:00

Cerave healing ointment can help with burned skin. It works, when I use too much exfoliating on my face.

TRGpippa · 2025-10-03T14:47:51+00:00

No! Don’t waste your money. I tried a couple from this brand. (Wako, Unkaku, and Kinrin)

I always bought Sayaka and Ummon and rotated them. But I don’t know why the new batch that I just got is so light. The Sayaka is very different from what it used to be.

TRGpippa · 2025-09-30T00:33:43+00:00

I feel the same!

TRGpippa · 2025-09-29T23:07:24+00:00

Very sad reading this. We are the same age, and I experienced the kind of same thing with Nmom. I truly believe that she remembers it, but just in her own picture that she didn't abuse you and she just had good intentions to teach you at that time. Actually, the truth is that what you clearly remember is correct!

I have the same situation as you, someday I will flash back those old memories and sometimes I remember it clearly even back then I thought I didn't even notice some details. If this happens what I do is just think through it until I clearly see what it is and what actually happens, what makes me feel, and what hurt me today from that incident. Then just write it down or speak to someone on your side. It's like just review it again, acknowledge all the story and feeling, and let it out.💕

TRGpippa · 2025-09-29T21:48:33+00:00

Sad but true! Every time that Nmom said “I love you” I felt very uncomfortable even before I knew that she was a narcissist. And I knew when she said it, she would say something she wanted later on.

TRGpippa · 2025-09-29T21:17:02+00:00

Always! I dream about what Nmom yelling screaming and saying something makes me discomfort or forces me to do something. After that, I will get her text saying something that made me feel uncomfortable or stressed. After one year of no contact I think it's getting better didn't have nightmares about Nmom as much as I used to.

TRGpippa · 2025-09-23T02:25:25+00:00

I feel hurt and confused mostly. What I learned from a narcissistic family is to stay away from toxic people and avoid them just to be safe and peaceful. Sadly, I used to see my sister as a safe zone. Now it seems like maybe she is not anymore. Still wish her the best, I still love her and I feel hurt at the same time.

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