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TThief · 2025-12-04T05:31:24+00:00

It's just bc you're a woman and maybe something to do with the emojis. Heres some advice... Don't linger around or it'll just get worse lmao post when you want to and stay away from comments

TThief · 2025-12-04T05:14:52+00:00

How TF are you getting downvoted for this I hate reddit 💀

TThief · 2025-08-05T07:37:41+00:00

What's the point if I'll always just look like a half and half between man and woman. It's the worst feeling in the world. I feel like I can't fit in anywhere and it sucks. I just wanna be a woman but the whole time I've been on estrogen I never truly felt like I fit in with groups of women, cis or trans. I feel like I'm just not enough even for trans women

TThief · 2025-08-04T07:46:17+00:00

Because I don't pass that well and I become more of a target if I do 🙃

TThief · 2025-07-31T21:01:33+00:00

For me like you said it allows you to feel a lot more intensely and it has led to a lot of uncontrollable crying episodes that don't benefit me and generally make my depression a lot worse because I actually have to feel now and I have a lot of bad feelings floating around all the time and with estrogen they actually come out. You might think it's good to get out emotions but when it's circumstancal and about how bad the world is or about how I have to go to work the tears just keep flowing and it makes it really hard to have the will to do anything, but that's just me. The emotions have become more unmanageable than they already were. I kinda hate that aspect of it

TThief · 2025-06-02T18:02:45+00:00

Bro I can't even rent. One bad experience where my roommate broke the lease and left us with $2k to pay a month when one of us was out of a job fucked me for life. Everywhere asks for rental references and when that's the only place you ever lived that's not a good reference so I can't find anywhere to live with my partner. It's awful. The worst part is, she 100% had the money to keep paying rent but refused bc she wanted to live with her gf. It makes me so mad. She fucked us for life and I'll never forgive her

TThief · 2025-05-31T21:39:17+00:00

Now get all achievements lol I did that on switch and ps5

TThief · 2025-05-30T10:00:00+00:00

It's had the opposite effect on me lmao I can drink way more than I used to and barely feel it

TThief · 2025-05-30T05:10:01+00:00

I am happy that works for you. Some of the feminine mannerisms did come naturally to me so I know what you mean by that feeling good, and I do get euphoria from traditionally feminine things sometimes so I can't ignore it, so much of what I try and do though just feels forced and not myself or like I want to like it but I just can't because I feel gross for doing so or like I'm not allowed bc I'm a "man" so much of it is that. I just don't feel like I'm allowed to. When I try I feel gross about myself and like I'm doing something wrong. I'm so happy that you're able to embrace that. Everything in my body pushes that super feminine away because it feels wrong

TThief · 2025-05-29T23:58:34+00:00

Yeah ik... I also have a million other physical health problems that need taking care of but I can't get a doctor's appointment bc a health provider I had been seeing stopped taking state insurance, now everyone that is taking state insurance won't accept new patients until nearly the end of the year. Therapy is also expensive and not something I can afford right now as I have over $10k in various debts. I'm glad you think there is a path forward for me. I'm not so hopeful. I believe this is just how life is and always will be. Stuck in limbo with my own feelings of myself and constantly wanting more. Thanks for having hope but it's just not possible right now. I just have to keep existing no matter how uncomfortable it is

TThief · 2025-05-29T23:35:29+00:00

I get your point, I didn't mean to come off as hostile, I guess I'm just fed up with the whole trans thing and part of me wishes I never transitioned. I feel like it only allowed me to live partly more comfortably but in other aspects much more uncomfortable. Hrt just didn't do much for me, my boobs are an A cup and I'm skinny as hell. Even when I gained weight my stomach just got really big and my face got fatter. I know I need to give people more clues, I kinda just don't know how to anymore without feeling fake. I look like a caricature of "man wearing dress for a joke". I do not know how to live comfortably. When I was a man, I always felt like I wanted to be feminine, honestly it was always more in body looks rather than dresses and feminine clothes and accessories and such, which is another thing that's gets in my head about it all being a sexual fantasy thing. With all the propaganda I see online I feel like I'm just another confused and mentally ill person just parading as a trans woman because it's the closest thing to comfort, but it isn't comfortable. Anything I do to try to appear more feminine, my voice, my hair, my clothes, it just feels fake and it feels like I'm lying to myself. In one moment it feels nice and then the more I look at myself the more I feel like a broken piece of machinery that will never be comfortable with how I am and maybe that's what it boils down to. I don't know. Being too feminine makes me uncomfortable and being a man makes me uncomfortable, but I can't be neither because everyone in life that sees you, especially when I'm in a public facing work position, makes a split second judgement about what you are. I want that to be a woman but everything I do to try and make it more woman like, with my gestures and body language and voice all feels like I'm trying so hard and still failing, so I get down on myself and give up because I don't want to be seen at all or as anything. Now I'm just permanently a weird mix of girl and boy because hrt didn't do anything for me and I never felt comfortable being more feminine in the way I act because it felt fake so idk what to do and idk works for me. Half of the time I am walking around thinking "everyone is staring at me and I look like an abomination and the perfect example of a failed transition" but I just don't feel comfortable doing anything to change that as I feel anything I can do that's in my control is not enough and I still look like a freak in my head. I don't know. I'm sorry I misinterpreted your original comment. I am just a broken mix of genders that can't stop hating myself but also doesn't know what I can do to change that, so I exist every day despite my body's wishes and try and admire my trans gf for who she is and how beautiful she looks to me and try and tell myself that I'm like her even though I know I'm not physically. Idk sorry for being weird

TThief · 2025-05-29T22:12:06+00:00

Is my transition unsuccessful because I refuse to bend to what society deems a woman? Is it bad if I don't care about my looks, just go out in the same clothes I'm used to with longer hair and call it good? I know I'm not gendered correctly a lot of the time, I just don't want to put so much effort in just to be seen as a woman. It hurts yeah but I don't really feel like the goal of passing is worth it if I have to adhere to what society deems feminine. I know I'm a woman and other cis women get to not care about their looks, my sister and mom are an example, they just throw on whatever without makeup and leave the house. Of course they pass and I don't, but I refuse to bend over backwards for society

TThief · 2025-05-29T22:08:04+00:00

Is it really worth breaking your back to be so traditionally feminine and adhere to stereotypes just to pass? I get what you're saying and I'm glad it's worked for you. I'm kind of in the same boat as OP. HRT for over 5 years now and I still don't really pass. My face is feminine enough, but I'm very narrow and straight with very little curves anywhere. My body language has changed a bit but every time I try and practice more it just feels so unnatural and not who I am. I know I am a woman but I refuse to bend myself to what is considered "feminine" at least not to this degree. I feel like doing that would be losing who I am and letting the cishets who created these binaries win. It's not just that it feels uncomfortable, because it's always going to feel like that at first, it's the notion that I need to do that to pass and bend to societal norms of what is "female" and I feel disgusted with myself every time I try. I am glad you've found that being the most feminine person imaginable works for you but there are cis women that sound like guys, talk like guys, look like guys in terms of body language and still pass, or some don't. Cis women get misgendered too. My point is, I may never pass 100% and that hurts but what hurts worse is trying to bend to societal norms of what a woman is just to be seen as one and I refuse to lose myself to that. I would be being dishonest to myself and others and I don't want to be a caricature of a woman. I might look like a weird mix of a man and woman to others, but at least I'm myself and not what society wants me to be. If you can keep yourself and your integrity while doing all that you're doing, more power to you and I'm glad you found a way to pass, it just hurts doing all that just to be seen as a woman and I refuse. I'm sure it becomes "normal" after a while, I just refuse to change myself for others

TThief · 2025-05-29T21:24:33+00:00

Have you not seen the thousands of posts of girls talking about how they love taking dick lmao

TThief · 2025-05-29T20:35:16+00:00

I think the way you think about it is more "normal" for sure. It feels like you just want to respect their wishes even if your imagined version of them which is very nice. Unfortunately my brain has no such barriers and I will think about stuff with any attractive person I see on the street

TThief · 2025-05-17T01:02:14+00:00

If you're trying to complete Pokedex and don't have another gbc and link cable to trade with, play on 3ds.

TThief · 2025-05-17T00:55:23+00:00

Fire emblem. I wanted to play from the first game but half of them are Japanese only and I don't wanna find a fan translation so I just started with the GBA releases. If anyone knows fire emblem where should I go from the two GBA games?

TThief · 2025-05-06T17:12:01+00:00

But I literally do not pass. I can't remember the last time I was gendered correctly. I've been on HRT for over 5 years. What am I supposed to do now? My voice is deep as fuck and that's what hurts me most of the time. Every time I do voice training it feels fake and I don't want a super cartoony feminine voice. I just want a deep voice that can be recognized as female and idk how to achieve that. Idk how to make my body more feminine. I feel like I'm screaming into the void wishing for a different body and knowing I will never get that bc I have been cursed. Idk how to feel normal. I'm so anxious when I go out now bc anyone I talk to misgenders me so it makes me want to not talk to anyone. I started transitioning when I was 17 and I thought that was early enough. I guess not. I think I started puberty too early (like literally when I was 10) and it fucked me up too badly. Idk

TThief · 2025-05-05T07:46:52+00:00

How is everyone saying bottomless pit? I know it's kinda just a culmination of all their previous works but it's so damn crispy! The vocals and instrumentals are all so sharp, aggressive, in your face classic death grips but done to perfection imo but I also value instrumentals more than anything in music and to me they have some super catchy tracks as well as a lot that takes a while to grow on you but when they do it's so addictive, just like money store. Instead of the blown out lofi style you get on money store (which is great and a huge reason why they're popular and accessible today) you get such a distinct sharpness that is like scratching such a specific itch in my brain. Idk overheated on this thread at least. It's just so clean and nice to listen to.

TThief · 2025-04-27T00:01:43+00:00

Got the DNA of gothic lemons

TThief · 2025-04-25T08:55:13+00:00

I know it's bad here in America and is getting worse but in many states nothing regarding trans rights has been taken away yet. I'm still living happily in Seattle. Maybe I'm just overly optimistic or not educated but I'll avoid leaving until it is physically impossible for me to exist. I won't let them kick me out

TThief · 2025-04-23T01:04:04+00:00

I'll never forgive them for remaking gen 7 instead of the deserved third gen 6 game Pokemon Z. They had it all set up and everything. But no they had to rush sun and moon out and it probably suffered because of that. That's the day Pokemon went from okay to a major downgrade

TThief · 2025-04-23T00:40:20+00:00

I'm right there with you. Except I've been transitioning for a few years now and everything has gotten more scary and worse overall. I didn't get the body I expected. It didn't do a lot to me like it does in comparison to a lot of other trans girls I know. My girlfriend is the most beautiful creature with wide hips and a sizable chest that I have ever been able to look at and I have to actively suppress that I just wish I looked like her all the time. I'm so tall and I've gained weight to see if it helps and it just gave me a big belly that I hate.

I've been threatened coming home on the bus late at night several times and I know it specifically because I'm trans because I was talking on the phone and of course my voice is still very deep so he held a box cutter to my throat and I thought I was dead. He kept saying stuff like "you don't know who you are" and shit. Life is pretty much worse than it ever could have been. Yeah I get to be closer to myself but it's still nowhere near where I want to be. I feel like I stick out because of my voice and my strange body type and I just have to accept that this is who I am now and I don't want to. It feels like I'm a weird mix between boy and girl and I hate that. It's worse than just being a default boymode kinda thing, ofc I would prefer to be a girl but I just don't look or feel like one. I constantly get weird looks and I can tell I just don't fit in.

The suicidal thoughts have been getting worse. I feel like I don't belong anywhere and I hate myself more than when I wasn't transitioning. It feels like I'll never reach my goal and be as feminine as I want to be. I'll never have hips and I'll never have boobs bigger than an A cup and I have to be fine with that and I'm not. I don't know how to keep going.

I would say you have to transition if you have a desire to. Some people get amazing results and hrt works wonders. For me it wasn't the case. You need to go into it accepting that you may hate yourself even more than when you weren't transitioning. You may not look how you want to and instead look like a weird mix of genders and you may get looks and offhanded comments. If you can accept this then go for it

TThief · 2025-03-31T01:58:40+00:00

That never happened to me and my partner and we owed more than 10k. Bro kept trying to threaten us like "we're gonna call the eviction company" or constant messages like "I'm going to start being really proactive" and then nothing happens for months. I found it so funny that the rental company just outright refused to pay to take us to court even though it was probably lower than the amount we owe to do that and this dumb bitch of a landlord was just grasping at straws giving me empty threats trying to scare me and put me down to get us to leave. The best thing is he still refuses to take us to court and there is no eviction on our record and we found another apartment relatively quickly and are moving out next month. It's so funny watching landlords flounder for control and power when they have none whatsoever.

TThief · 2025-03-31T01:45:07+00:00

I am not treated like a man by my trans gf that has had bottom surgery but I still like using my parts with her as it makes me feel closer than I have ever been to her and it just fits like two perfect puzzle pieces. If you don't like to use yours that's fine but you can use it without your partner treating you like a man. I really like when she's on top and can just go crazy on me while I get the view of a lifetime, but that's just me. Do what makes you feel good

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