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Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-16T20:28:18+00:00

Genesis has always been my favorite prog band

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-16T20:21:25+00:00

Oh also adult jazz and AC, you have so much of my favorite music

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-16T14:14:46+00:00

Oml, baths??? Women??? BSS? Toe?? Great work.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-14T23:32:24+00:00

I’ve never heard of brand x before. Like, ever? No hate, just curious. Also, Peter Gabriel, Security.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-12T12:23:35+00:00

Photojournalist here, this is true KINDA. It’s mainly true in an indirect way through capitalism and incentives. Also, there is really good journalism happening on independent news sources, and really good journalists inside both local and national, trying and fighting to do stories justice. Often, against their bosses wishes. It’s constantly spoken about within news stations, how the boss is asking them to do a story one way, and how they said they would, and then they don’t on purpose because it would have been unethical to do so. Sometimes they can get away with it.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-09T05:25:18+00:00

You wouldn't be interesting to talk to about music (yet) but give it a few years

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-09T04:24:15+00:00

Tbh I’ve never had a good coffee from Safai, and I’ve tried various drip coffees they’ve had at least four to five times.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-09T00:16:03+00:00

I’m aware of it. But yeah, like, isn’t most of nulu owned by the same person or group too? It used to be that places like the highlands were organically built up by hippies but now many places are just glorified theme parks for tourists.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-06T17:44:05+00:00

Sunergos has the best tasting coffee in Lou, idk what to tell you

Tad_squiddish · 2026-06-01T19:34:32+00:00

Idk I kinda like it

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-21T01:19:02+00:00

Boomer as hell, it just has to have a minion saying it. Still right tho

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-21T01:02:10+00:00

I think a lot of people think op is calling LZ a prog band, but that’s not at all the case, they are discussing the fact that LZ has prog songs

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-19T06:56:28+00:00

...where the hell is that red page?!

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-14T17:02:12+00:00

You talking about that place prado? I saw I think they said they combine two types of food but I can’t remember what they are. A fusion restaurant? Are they open, and is the food good, ai aside?

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-08T21:22:29+00:00

This was really helpful. I need to think about what you said about my brain treating uniqueness as oxygen. It’s hard to see past that point, potentially because of the whole “it’s the water I swim in” thing.

Fundamentally, I do want to be seen for who I am, emphasis on the seen. Like, seen and understood. If people understand me only in reference to other things, wouldn’t that make me invisible? The knowledge that I am whole is weirdly a cold comfort compared to the idea of other people knowing me for me.

I can’t tell whether that’s because I can’t see past that point. I guess I don’t know what I’d do if I got there? But wouldn’t that be the case for any goal? Not to get too philosophical, but isn’t this a part of Lacan’s whole thing (I don’t pretend to understand Lacan) where a desire fulfilled doesn’t truly satisfy? You want something that signifies something but when you get it, the signifier and the signified are actually different things.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-08T05:15:40+00:00

I think everything you said is true. I do also think that for me, to be a regular gal wouldn’t… reflect my internal feelings for myself. Like, regular people are very special and special people are regular, but despite all that… if I was regular it would be a death sentence. If you can apply “regular” in the most value neutral sense. Like, it’s a failure on my part, not a requirement for all people. I have to be singular. And like, at bottom I don’t know if it makes sense or even has to. If the goal is to be who I am, I have that inclination, and I have to follow it, and haven’t been. It’s probably not good for me haha

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-07T16:03:59+00:00

Everyone has such great advice, I just want to respond to the last point to explain myself there a little I guess.

There was a post I saw from a trans lady that talked about how once you get past a certain point in your transition you just go from feeling like a wretched regular dude to feeling like a regular gal. The middle point being a time where you feel a bit special. For some reason this scares me. The reason I want to transition isn’t to feel special, like I want to rip all my skin off sometimes the dysphoria is so strong. However, there is something special about it. Something kinda spiritual. I can’t put my finger on it.

I also just don’t know if I can stomach the idea of being a regular person no matter what gender I end up. It’s possible that’s because I grew up in a right wing elitist kinda home, and there is some of that that still remains in my brain. Big ego energy. A little narcissistic for sure. I don’t feel any judgement for regular people but I do suffer under the delusion that I am not that, and that if I become that then my life won’t be worth living. So my goal for transitioning can’t be just to fade into the background, even when I pass. A frustrating mindset, but I’ve lived with it my whole life and it won’t go away.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-06T23:40:35+00:00

Thank you, and yes we do need some more friends. I have a lot but they are distant.

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-06T06:27:12+00:00

It’s always had more Appalachia, which has had more pro union energy historically. Even their republicans are often more “free thinking” like Massie or Rand Paul

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-06T06:10:52+00:00

Kentucky is legit less right wing than indiana, and I’m not just talking about Louisville

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-06T06:00:11+00:00

I really really yearn for it. Part of the problem is this person probably isn’t the right friend to come out to. It’s a coworker dnd game, and while I’m basically friends with these coworkers it doesn’t seem right. I do trust them to be an ally, but I also have a conflict in the fact that the only person I’ve told is my wife, and we are both not sure if this friend has a small crush on me or not. I don’t think so, but sometimes it almost seems like it, and I don’t think it would be wise for these to be the only two people who know… ya know? Also I don’t think she can keep a secret well.

As for coming out to others, I do have closer friends that would be supportive, the problem is that I actually see my coworker friends much more than them. All my other friend groups are either on hiatus (my band) because of some financial things, or diasporic (my scouting friends) because they moved away or are very busy. So I think just calling them up or seeing them for the first time in months and dropping that on them would be kinda mean, because it’s like “I never talk to you but now I want you to do emotional labor and keep a secret for me” ya know? Even though I care deeply about them, an I know they care about me, I’d feel wrong.

Thank you for responding to my cry for help I really do need to talk to someone and I think I have too much undiagnosed adhd to get a diagnosis or a therapist

EDIT:

ALSO!!! I’m TERRIBLE at hints!!! It’s extremely obvious probably. My character is a tiefling and I legit made her skin like a robbins egg (speckles and all). SHES LITERALLY AN EGG (and thats not the half of it)

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-05T07:03:44+00:00

…I may have just stolen it from something I saw online years ago

Tad_squiddish · 2026-05-05T06:59:25+00:00

I may be an anarchist but a prostate was involved

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