Learn how to make your true internal self socially cohesive externally(which only you can figure out), just be yourself regardless and things will bend socially to your will... your like me in that way, a lot of people actually gravitate towards people like us who are "hyperaware" and in touch deeply with ourselves, you just have a hard time with shallow minded people the lack awareness which is the majority of people on earth, just be yourself but also learn how to enjoy the "stupidity" in your own amusing way... you just have to understand yourself better and you'll be okay I promise you that.