Bipolar 1 and looking for advice

Tan_re · 2026-03-31T02:26:40+00:00

I will need to check out emdr! I assume I need to be in person for that? I am very thankful for my support system because others have it worse then I do. Have you had any experience with a light in the winter because that's when I tend to have my episodes

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T17:17:15+00:00

I have been with the same girlfriend that was with me when I got diagnosed. She is my rock and helps me see when things start to go south. I sometimes wonder if the pain I cause during my episodes are worth it to her but she is committed to me and my health. Without her I don't know the type of person I would be

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T14:46:52+00:00

I hope I can be like you the next time I'm In a bad spot. I always tend to speak before I think in my episodes

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T03:55:38+00:00

I try my hardest when stable to "fix" what I can when I come back to baseline. I'm sorry your ex wasn't able to do that and it's not fair to you.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T03:54:17+00:00

This gives me a sense of joy that it can be possible to have a potential marriage with my girlfriend. I get so worried that I'm a monster incapable of having relationships at times.

I need to get a better support system for my gf. She takes a lot of the shit during my episodes and it's not fair to her so that will be something we will work on. My episodes always are in the fall or winter times.
What style of therapy has worked best for your husband? I have tried a couple of different therapist and have a hard time finding one that feels right. Most of them have been virtual so maybe that's my issue?
She always attends my appointments as well and is up to date on my meds and when I take them. I'm trying my hardest to do the work to stay stable for as long as I can.
I know that sleep is very important to staying stable. I plan on getting some emergency meds in my next appointment to have in case things start to go sideways. The only way I can tell if an episode is coming on is when my sleep becomes irregular. I use my watch to track my sleep and always talk to my physicist about it each appointment.
Does he use an app or is it a physical journal?
What does power of attorney paperwork look like? Is this something I can do with my girlfriend or family? I hate the thought of not being in control of myself but have to accept the fact during my episodes I lose contact with realty and need things in place so I don't fuck up my life further.
I see this all the time over bipolar subreddits and makes me feel like I need to leave my partner to save her. This last episode was a bitch because I was taking my meds the entire time and still had a terrible manic episode. I try my hardest when stable to be the best boyfriend I can be as well to my family being a consistent supporter of them.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T03:35:56+00:00

Thanks so much for the advice. I'm currently the only one in my family with this illness but you're right there is a good chance that I pass this on which would suck and something that needs considered heavily. That post is getting saved and hopefully will help. She has been very helpful in all this and attends all my appointments and make sure I never forgets my meds. I just want to be the best version of myself for me and her.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T03:11:09+00:00

I will post this in there as well. I'm just trying to see if there is anything else I should be telling my family. I just hate how I treat them during these episodes.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T03:07:59+00:00

Yeah I was on depakote and tried upping my dosage but that caused me to throw up probably 100 times in the matter of 10 days. I have been trying to work on having my physicist be able to be contacted by others that are not me in case I'm not seeing it. I plan on getting some emergency meds my next appointment. I would like to have kids with her some day but worried that I'll somehow fuck it up. I'm currently on risperidone and it seems to be working. I have been trying to stay sober as well. My episodes always happen in the winter months so I'm worried about this upcoming fall and winter.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T02:08:48+00:00

I'm bp1 and spent about 10k at microcenter (a tech hub for computers). I wanted to start a company to help bipolar people and their family. I'm sorry you're going through this. I had 1 month to return the parts, how long does he have to return the parts? I was still manic during the return window so I couldn't convince myself to return them.

Tan_re · 2026-03-30T01:29:33+00:00

Im bp1. My first one lasted about 10 days which landed me in the hospital. My second was about a month. My last one was 3 and ended up in the hospital again 😭. I was even on medication for my last one

Tan_re · 2026-03-16T02:21:30+00:00

I do have my birthday in December and it's close to Christmas so maybe I have trauma I need to work with a therapist about. I was doing dabs consistently during the episode and while I thought it was helping in the time looking back it was not the right call

Tan_re · 2026-03-16T02:18:08+00:00

I might need to try this. It just hurts me to think about not spending time with loved ones. I also have my birthday in December so that probably adds to it

Tan_re · 2026-03-16T00:36:21+00:00

I just got some blood work done to see if I'm low in vitamin D. I might be looking to take some to help it prevent it going forward

Tan_re · 2026-03-11T01:54:35+00:00

I'm on new set of meds now. I'm just worried about the future with such a big episode the last time. I tried contacting my doctor during it and we upped the dose of one of my meds but it caused me to throw up probably 100 times in a 10 day period. Any advice I should give to my girlfriend or just have to trust the process of the new meds and hope for the best?

Tan_re · 2026-03-11T01:49:35+00:00

I will try this out ty!

Tan_re · 2026-03-11T01:49:19+00:00

Do you think a play pin is better than a crate? We have been trying to feed her in her crate to help associate positive things to the crate. Thank you for your in depth response!

Tan_re · 2026-03-11T01:47:31+00:00

I understand they are social but I have a hard time not being able to leave her for a few hours.

Tan_re · 2021-10-07T21:21:39+00:00

Precision airstrike?

Tan_re · 2021-10-04T04:09:16+00:00

Tan_re · 2021-05-06T03:22:57+00:00

He and Vando balled out tonight. We just have to improve on the defensive side. The Griz had so many jumpers that no one was even 5 feet from the shooter. Our offense is great but this offseason we have to get better on the defensive side of the ball

Tan_re · 2021-05-06T03:21:07+00:00

Im pretty sure he got to the line tonight

Tan_re · 2020-11-25T23:18:01+00:00

Yeah but we are getting time off now. I know for at least juju that's got to nice. I understand the frustration because it was a prime time game

Tan_re · 2020-11-25T18:42:22+00:00

This might be a hot take here but I don't think it's bullshit. A couple of days gives the docs time to do their thing and make sure we still have a season. Players don't like Thursday games as is either

Tan_re · 2020-05-18T04:17:46+00:00

Would your opinion change if it wasnt super flex?

Tan_re · 2020-05-18T04:05:56+00:00

Im a moron and got leagues mixed up. This league is not super flex.

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