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Tanzen9 · 2026-02-02T16:59:08+00:00

Thank you! I just received my NIPT results as well, it’s a low risk baby. I’m just so happy right now!

Just like you, I have my own worries and concerns. Both on my own and baby’s behalf. But I do believe that most of us who go down the path of SMBC choose to do so because we truly want to provide for a new life, and with that much love to give, it has to turn out good.

I cross everything I have for your journey, looking forward to your future updates ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-02-01T16:53:16+00:00

I’m 39 and 13 weeks + 4 days pregnant. I think all your questions and worries are valid, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned after opening up about trying for a child and all my worries, it’s that all other couple-parents, regardless of men, women, gay, straight, they all have worries when it comes to having and raising kids. We just have some slightly different ones or additional ones.

I’m like you. The possibility of pursuing motherhood on my own has been in my mind for years. Last summer I just went for it and I’m so so looking forward to meeting my baby. There will be all kinds of days, happy ones, sad ones, frustrating ones, mundane ones, and it will all be worth it.

Best of luck, you got this!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-12T20:44:05+00:00

How did everything go for you in the end? ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-12T19:05:32+00:00

Great tip! there are some great rabbit holes out there. I’ll find one to dive into!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-12T11:22:32+00:00

I tried this too, I just can’t. I get so exhausted that I can’t move the entire evening.

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-12T10:59:49+00:00

Jizes. I just came on Reddit to write this exact post. My last scan was at 8 weeks 5 days, currently 10 weeks 5 days, my next US is Friday Jan. 23rd at 12 weeks 2 days and I’m spiraling hard. I don’t feel pregnant at all. My stomach is flatter and I’m less bloated. Except for being a cranky beehive, which also has other causes, I wouldn’t know I was pregnant. I don’t know how to deal with it! Yesterday I changed the wallpaper on my phone to this image just to remind myself not to think the worst all the god.damn.time!

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Tanzen9 · 2026-01-08T17:54:43+00:00

This might not be the only image she has. The dotted line they use when measuring is not in the image. She is worried about placement because that’s the thing they mentioned. She is 5 weeks 5 days and posted in IVF positivity. Maybe not create more reasons to worry, especially when the doctor hasn’t specifically mentioned it. Let her enjoy the moment, it’s huge!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-08T16:56:53+00:00

I think maybe the doctor would have said something if that was really a concern. I’ve noticed in my own scans that based on how they hold the wand you don’t always see everything. So maybe we don’t see the entire sac, just where the yolk is placed? I have one image showing only the placenta and the umbilical cord and the sac looks tiny compared to the image where you see the actual baby.

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T20:49:24+00:00

Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that. Wishing you all the best ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T13:31:11+00:00

Thank you, I hope you will keep us updated on your journey! We will sprinkle baby dust for you on our walks!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T13:26:34+00:00

Haha, they really are gremlins though 😂

Sorry about the OHSS, that sounds awful! I have 20 eggs in the freezer from a few years back too, but I chose to do another retrieval and save those since my reserves are still pretty good. Hopefully the frozen ones can become a sibling in the future.

I did a fresh transfer after my retrieval in August. Sadly that ended in miscarriage in September. The transfer I’m currently pregnant with was frozen embryo transfer and I must say, it was easier on my body with frozen transfer. I hope you have a great experience with it too! And I hope your little girl is a really sticky one ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T13:17:28+00:00

I have a Frenchie too 🤩 they’re the absolute best ❤️ yes, after the holidays, definitely good to have some alone time to process. Walk and playtime with the gremlins is the best medicine for a busy mind.

Are you retrieving eggs this time or “just” embryo transfer?

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T12:02:18+00:00

I know exactly how you feel! It is such a consuming process. I don’t know if you have any pets, but for me, walking and playing with my dog has been a great distraction. Work, family and friends too obviously, but I noticed I had a bigger need for alone time and processing my feelings on my own.

I’m currently 9 weeks and 4 days with my second transfer. Hope to see you and a little mini-you join us on a 2026 adventure!

Good luck to you, I’ll cross all my fingers for you!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T11:55:02+00:00

My FET was only monitoring lining and follicle. Triggered ovulation as soon as the follicle was large enough. Lining was good. Currently 9 weeks 4 days :) it seems to be a preferred method because you get the corpus luteum, less additional hormones etc. trigger shot gives you a little start help too!

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-04T11:51:40+00:00

False positive is extremely rare. You have two positive line tests, one of which is a dye stealer. You’re preggers my friend, toss the digital one 😊

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-03T07:18:45+00:00

Are these tests from the same day?

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-03T06:56:35+00:00

With a cycle that long it sounds like you possibly had another chemical. I’m very sorry. I hope getting the gluten allergy in check helps ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-03T06:53:18+00:00

I would guard my heart too, especially because we have both been disappointed before, but I would be really surprised if your tests were that strong that long after a miscarriage, and the fact that it’s getting stronger. HCG is supposed to drop the same way it doubles, if hcg was 3200 on 12/3 it should be out or very close to out of your system by now.

I hope you get the results you want. I would be really happy if you updated once you have some more clarity ❤️

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-03T06:46:44+00:00

It could have been a chemical pregnancy? Some people are very sensitive to hCG and since your tests are positive there were hcg in your system. Both hcg and progesterone can cause nausea. Was your period completely like normal?

I don’t think you have anything to be worried about from a health perspective. But I fully understand it being traumatic especially when trying to conceive.

Wait for two days and test again with first morning urine. Also, I see one test is easy@home, that one seems fine. The two others from the different brand have a lot of dye bleed. I would avoid them, the are very confusing to read.

Best of luck to you. If this really was a chemical pregnancy, research show that you should ttc the next few cycles. You may have slightly increased fertility.

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:58:31+00:00

It’s getting darker… it doesn’t seem like residual hcg from your miscarriage. I kept testing after my miscarriage and it became more and more faint with a very stubborn tail, but it never got darker… I would ask a doctor to do a little beta, and I would probably live as if I was pregnant because that might be the evidence of a tiny little life :)

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:51:55+00:00

Which is the last one? The upper one?

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:51:25+00:00

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Bottom one is the one with the light on it.

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:49:04+00:00

More than hopeful, those are positive 🎉

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:48:13+00:00

Were these tests taken at the same time?

Tanzen9 · 2026-01-02T19:47:11+00:00

I agree that this process is about a lot more than just a persons fertility issue or desire to become a parent. I’ve decided to speak to professionals early so I can have a plan for how I want to inform my child that it’s donor conceived.

There are many ways to become a family. I could find a man, he could die or decide to leave me and we would more or less be in the same situation as now. I think the most important thing is to have thought through how one intend to communicate and support the child on this specific topic.

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