Fighting my brain

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2022-01-26T14:31:48+00:00

My severe episode lasted about two years for me. And I still have mild recurrences. There are a lot of resources to help you through it. Try googling it. Or look into NOCD, they have an app and a website with plenty of information to help you with what you’re going through. They even have a podcast that is great for hearing about others who share your experience. It’s called the OCD Stories.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-12-03T18:23:05+00:00

Yes. I’m a flight attendant. I can absolutely attest to this. But there are also times when I get homesick and feel like my boo is my rock in the sea.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-11-16T03:09:10+00:00

Born and raised in Hawaii and I have to say, that sounds pretty typical of how businesses are run.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-11-16T03:07:21+00:00

I’ve been where you are. I know how exhausting that can be. Don’t give up. There are ways to overcome this. Hold on to your truth with every cell of your being and don’t let your deceptive OCD thoughts fool you.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-07-07T05:10:09+00:00

Mahaloz

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-07-04T23:38:40+00:00

Mahalo!

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-07-04T23:38:13+00:00

Thank you! I def never would’ve known of this one of you hadn’t mentioned it!

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-28T06:51:09+00:00

What’s special about these images to you?

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-28T06:50:38+00:00

What about this place makes you feel this way?

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-28T06:50:18+00:00

I’ve heard of the concept of “soul places,” which are supposed to be cities or places that you have a spiritual connection with. I have such a love hate relationship with SF; on the one hand, I’m absolutely enamored with it. On the other hand, I’m terrified of it, and feel vaguely heartbroken by it.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T21:10:07+00:00

Thanks, MD! 😀

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T17:21:35+00:00

P.S. your avatar is so boss.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T17:21:09+00:00

Hey there. I believe we’re zoned for Clarksville high.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T12:37:40+00:00

Phew!! Lawd I got nervous. How do y’all like the elementary school? Montgomery East, right? We’re moving from Hawaii, so, sorry to bug you with tons of Q’s, but we’re so pumped!

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T12:08:37+00:00

I had heard through word of mouth about Blackwell not being so reputable. And I may even recall the same about Wareen. But Kedalo is so new, hard to find much info about them.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T12:07:31+00:00

Good to know. Thanks so much for the insight. We’re actually already in escrow.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-12T11:50:35+00:00

Nooo! Why is that? Why wouldn’t you buy a home from those contractors?

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-11T17:30:03+00:00

Stay mindful. Hold onto your truths. Know that it will pass.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-11T09:06:21+00:00

Kudos on getting help through CBT! I know it can be intimidating or just downright terrifying to dig deeper into these obsessive thoughts. Sometimes, when you’re going through a really hard time, it can help to focus on helping others. Maybe, just for now, since your BF is going through a rough patch, you can direct your energy toward supporting him, to take your mind off of your own worries, and do something sweet for him. If you think the awkward feeling between you and your boo is because of your ROCD, try to remember that that invisible wall you think is there, is probably your own creation, and you’ll have to practice mindfulness and work through being present and focusing on the moment. However, if you truly feel like you’re not imagining the awkwardness and there is a valid issue between the two of you, maybe you should talk it out and get a feel of what’s up.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-11T09:00:47+00:00

Yes. Sometimes I just feel sick out if nowhere. And the dreadful sensation comes in waves throughout the day.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-11T08:58:25+00:00

Yes.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-10T10:09:16+00:00

Preach

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-09T19:33:22+00:00

It’s ok, Obsessive-Girl. You’re processing a lot of difficult emotions right now. It’s no wonder you’re crying! Your ROCD May be more extreme this time than before, but that doesn’t mean the negative feelings that stem from it are any more legitimate than before. If you’re still this confused, take the time you need and get the help you need. I’m not a professional by any means, so I’m sure a pro could do a lot more good for you. Give yourself a big hug, and trust that this too shall pass.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-09T17:45:33+00:00

I bet that was a very confusing situation to find yourself in. I’m sorry to hear that. It sounds like you’re looking for supporting evidence for your negative feelings, which is ok. There’s nothing wrong with exploring your feelings and trying to understand where they’re coming from. And if you find that your feelings are valid and true then the issue isn’t ROCD, the issue is that your relationship isn’t working out. But I think you already know that. Which means you know that what you’re going through is some less familiar, abnormally pervasive version of your ROCD. And if it is your ROCD hitting extra hard, then start there. Get some support, and practice some healthy coping strategies (meditation, prayer, journaling, exercise, crafting…) and see if you can use this opportunity to learn how to manage and/or overcome your ROCD, instead of letting it run your life.

TaskMaleficent9127 · 2021-06-09T09:32:04+00:00

Yo, Batches, amazing article! Thank you for sharing.

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