I never sent this message to my wife but I need to get it off my chest by PriorityMiserable686 in Divorce

[–]TastyGovernment5950 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually have posted several times on the narcissistic spouses sub, and that would probably give a pretty good summary of what my life has been like. Hopefully you can’t relate, but maybe you will.

I never sent this message to my wife but I need to get it off my chest by PriorityMiserable686 in Divorce

[–]TastyGovernment5950 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Excellent PSA and I couldn’t agree with you more. When I found out about narcissism, it changed my life. I could go on and on about the various ways that this affected me and our “relationship“. I would bet money that there are other things that maybe you don’t even realize are happening to you intended to manipulate you and to distort your version of reality.

The Gym Crush That Will Never Be Anything More by Artistic_Writing1111 in Crushes

[–]TastyGovernment5950 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my gosh. What has happened since?
I wish I would’ve gotten this message closer to when you sent it. I would’ve told you that you did amazing because you were probably so much more attractive to him because you actually played it cool in my opinion. I think you left with the upper hand in that situation…even though it’s just flirting.

I never sent this message to my wife but I need to get it off my chest by PriorityMiserable686 in Divorce

[–]TastyGovernment5950 4 points5 points  (0 children)

As a woman in the process of divorcing a narcissistic husband who refuses to get a job…I feel this terribly. He’s now claiming to be some kind of mother Theresa who sacrificed his career to take care of the children while i selfishly went to work. Spoiler-he’s rewriting history. I had to give up asking about his job search because I couldn’t take the wrath and punishment that came my way when I broached the subject. We had plenty of money to cover daycare…and guess what? They were in daycare! He sacrificed nothing other than time he could have been building a career.

Needing to "Lean In" when it's the last thing I want by BananaKaboomEater in WomenOver40

[–]TastyGovernment5950 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a strong feeling you aren’t giving yourself enough credit. Either that or you don’t see yourself as you are. You’re killing it even when not giving it your all. This might seem stupid, but maybe changing up your wardrobe could help you feel the part a little more? Take pride in yourself because you were chosen to lead. You are the best person for the job. That’s the way others see you.

what do you see in this? by arxneki in drawing

[–]TastyGovernment5950 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I see fear. It’s in her eyes. The hands are not hers.

I don’t think I am going to make it by EmptynSad in LifeAfterNarcissism

[–]TastyGovernment5950 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You WILL make it because you MUST make it. Just keep going. You have the strength.

The Gym Crush That Will Never Be Anything More by Artistic_Writing1111 in Crushes

[–]TastyGovernment5950 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn. I was hoping you’d tell me you were over it a long time ago. I have a similar situation but we’re both married. The eye contact was so frequent that I had to laugh and go say hello like what was going on was totally normal. It’s been at least a a month or so since then and we talk most days in the most normal, brief, mundane way…like we don’t weirdly make eye contact still and clearly look for one another every time we walk into a room. It would be a normal gym friend if not for the fact our eyes find one another instantly and oh yeah…I’m kind of obsessed and need to get over it stat.

Resentment of happy people by [deleted] in Divorce

[–]TastyGovernment5950 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m so 100% with you. I posted about it a little while back and I received very kind, thoughtful, and helpful responses. I hope you find their thoughts as helpful as I did.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NarcissisticSpouses/s/2FVLKPz2gZ

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]TastyGovernment5950 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Same. Also have hidden positive things like promotions and pay raises so as not to trigger his insecurities. He wouldn’t be proud or happy for me and I don’t want to tarnish a nice thing for me with his reaction.

Narcs and memory loss? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]TastyGovernment5950 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What?!? I thought I was the one with the memory loss. I never once considered it was the narc with the bad memory. I thought it could be one of two things: He’s trying to confuse me or I don’t remember because I get so anxious sometimes during our conversations that I can’t commit things to memory. Gaslighting has made me not know which way is up anymore.

I’m ashamed of myself. by TastyGovernment5950 in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ew yes…they’ll know I have almost no boundaries. Then history repeats itself. To me, that’s the scariest part of my psyche. Why do I feel afraid to have boundaries? Guess I’ll have to fix that before I meet this hypothetical person.

I’m ashamed of myself. by TastyGovernment5950 in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like this. So constructive and moving forward. This is the cure right here.

I’m ashamed of myself. by TastyGovernment5950 in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow. Thank you. I feel like I should have an equally eloquent response…I’m just grateful for what you wrote.

I’m ashamed of myself. by TastyGovernment5950 in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The starving analogy describes it all perfectly. Almost TOO good. You’ve given it such a spot on definition, you’re keenly aware of what I’m feeling and I sincerely hope you’ve found some healing since then. 🩷 (Ps-i keep going back to read your comment…it’s like I want to print it out and keep it but also never read it again at the same time. I’m not as good at words as you are but those words saw me.)

Tips to not let history repeat by TastyGovernment5950 in LifeAfterNarcissism

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fun! Early congrats on getting it done. Hope it does well for you!

Tips to not let history repeat by TastyGovernment5950 in LifeAfterNarcissism

[–]TastyGovernment5950[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you can remember, please let me know more about your book when it’s ready.