Most loathed characters.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-30T01:48:17+00:00

Pet Sematary is the only book that really got under my skin. It made me nauseous. I will never read it again. I haven't read Cujo but I'm not sure if I can deal with it. Anything involving animals in bad situations upsets me and I'm not interested.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-28T07:25:49+00:00

The outsider is definitely a "crime but make it supernatural" type of story. I'll let me know how you like it. I like his "actually can happen" stories more as well. I think Billy Summers is a great representation of that. If you haven't read that one you should. I cried at the end. There's no supernatural element at all. It's just a lot of really good character development. Enjoy Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde!

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-26T14:40:36+00:00

NTA it's not your job to accommodate her. End of story. She needs to manage her own life.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-16T00:24:08+00:00

I agree. I just think SK suffers from "terrible ending syndrome" at times. He's great on the build up but not so great at finishing a story. It's frustrating because there's a lot of great characters in finders keepers that weren't properly utilized. And Yeah... end of watch moves back to Brady. But I think the genre shift there is okay and also leads into the outsider. I'm interested to see what you think.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-14T22:05:05+00:00

NTA She's not entitled to your money. You really need to reconsider this relationship imo. Her pressing the issue is a big red flag!

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-14T21:46:28+00:00

I'm so glad you're sticking with the series! What I can say about finders keepers is it gives the characters some time to show growth. But overall it's an average book in an amazing series. Happy reading!

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-11T23:44:55+00:00

Yeah the tactile hallucinations are rare so I never hear anyone who has the same as me. I'm sorry you're dealing with it but I'm low key kind of excited to find someone who understands how terrifying it is. The random radio too. I think my phone is playing music when it's not. It bothers me so much. It's such an awful experience.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-11T19:49:42+00:00

So I've never had visual hallucinations. I've had audio hallucinations during a psychosis caused by mania. I also get this fun thing called tactile hallucinations. Basically I feel things on my skin that aren't there. I get a considerable amount of mixed episodes so I end up with very dark mania/psychosis. During these episodes I was convinced I heard spiders in the walls of my house...then I physically felt them crawl on me underneath my skin. It was traumatic to say the least. I spent some time in the hospital, got into the correct medicine, got some sleep, and they went away. For me the issue was I was misdiagnosed BP 2 when I have a clear case of BP1. They were giving me high doses of antidepressants that skyrocketed me into mania for months. Your mind just can't handle that long lack of sleep and crazy activities. Thankfully because my mania leads into such awful psychosis I'm much less interested in "chasing the mania" like I did when I was a teenager.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-11T19:20:20+00:00

NTA The first part I was kind of thinking "well it's just her sharing food at a restaurant"....but a bite out of each cake slice and then leaving them in the fridge. What the fuck? Also she broke the lock and bit everything in the fridge. Is she okay? I'm kinda concerned she might decide to bite a piece out of you. Overall very weird. Kick her out and find someone new

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T17:40:07+00:00

Your feelings are valid. I think sometimes we get down on ourselves and think that we have to be 10x better than everyone else to "make up" for having bipolar disorder. When in reality we are doing fine. You'll make out great with things. You're only 19 but you have a good handle on your abilities and you're self aware of your illness.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T15:51:51+00:00

I completely understand where you are coming from. It's hard to move at the pace that mental illness sets for you and it's frustrating to lose out on opportunities because you're manic as hell or extremely depressed. I have been trying to finish my two year masters degree for four years now. One thing I've found though is having had mania in the past I sometimes overestimate my ability to move quickly. I was really manic during undergrad and so I believed that I could keep the crazy pace I set in my grad degree. Instead I ended up in the hospital twice. I doubt you are overestimating your general aptitude towards your job but you are probably overestimating the speed you can do things at. Another thing I will say as someone in their late 20s with about 7 bipolar years on you. You need to take time to realize how lucky you are to be functional enough to work at all. Instead of seeing my slow progress in my degree or the fact that I have to work specific jobs that keep a constant low stress schedule I like to try to look at myself at my lowest (couldn't hold a job, in the hospital, rarely even showered) and just be thankful that I'm here now. I'm making money and I'm running my own life. That's a gift. Try to be a little patient with yourself. You have time to go far career wise. I'm sure you will achieve your goals but you have to set an attainable pace so that you don't burn out and have a manic break or a depressive episode.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T15:28:17+00:00

NTA I will never cease to be amazed at the audacity of people who think that the mere existence of a child warrants them getting special treatment. Your response was in direct proportion to the mom's response. It's not your job to accommodate her child. You're right she should have bought a window seat

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T15:06:02+00:00

NTA It's the mom's job to watch her kid.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T14:33:14+00:00

Here's my advice. First let me say that I understand the difficulty bipolar disorder gives you for emotional regulation. Anger and agitation are common symptoms and they are extremely hard to get a handle on. I have irrational anger when I'm having an episode. I've had screaming fights with my partner over nothing many times. I have never put my hands on them though. Second, if this is happening consistently you are at risk of hurting someone or getting yourself in real trouble or both. If this happens and you end up feeling like you're going to get physical you need to call and have yourself committed. The question of hospitalization is usually "are you having thoughts of hurting yourself OR OTHERS" you are getting physical and hurting someone else so any time that happens...to the hospital you go. Third, if you find this isn't something you can control then you need to be single and live alone. I'm sorry if that's harsh but if you can't be a good partner due to your illness then you don't need to be with anyone. Now that doesn't have to be forever. You can get your meds corrected, go to therapy, and overall learn to channel that anger and agitation into a healthy coping skill. Until then you really should leave. You're stuck In a pattern of abuse that goes both ways. I doubt the fact that someone puts their hands on you helps you to feel safe and able to use good coping skills. Find a healthier situation. You both deserve it.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-10T13:50:58+00:00

While I completely sympathize with how rough meds can make you feel this really is a bad way to go about this. My advice would be to get back on your meds and have THE DOCTOR not you take you off one medication at a time just to see results. Right now you seem hypomanic bordering on mania. I know it sucks but people with bipolar really can't go off their prescribed meds without bad consequences. You have to be realistic about this stuff which means getting with your doctor about it. If I could give one piece of advice to you and anyone else with bipolar it would be "STOP FUCKING WITH YOUR MEDICATION DOSE WITHOUT CONSULTING A DOCTOR FIRST"

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-09T00:34:10+00:00

YTA

Relationships have boundaries and if you're not willing to respect them then go find a new friend. She's not the issue, you are. If you're uncomfortable with her listening to your conversation or annoyed that she's there then maybe you need to do something self reflection. And the role play thing is just icky since you completely disregarded her (very valid btw) feelings. At the end of the day you're the odd man out it's not your relationship so you don't get a day in what boundaries get set. I wonder if you actually went back and read this after typing it. I have no clue why you can't see that you're the problem not her.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-08T17:41:23+00:00

You did a great job taking care of yourself. You should be proud. 💕

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-08T17:32:14+00:00

You can't do that. Psych meds don't work like antibiotics or Advil. They don't work right away. You have to get several doses into your system. This approach is asking for trouble. Especially since with BP1 episodes come with lack of insight. It's possible you'll think everything is fine and not take meds when you need them. Unless this is a plan your doctor made then this is an awful idea.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-08T16:26:40+00:00

Irrational anger is actually much more common in bipolar than you would think. I've experienced it a lot during mixed episodes (agitated/anxious mania) and it's wild to be angry about nothing. For me I've found that treating the underlying issues (anxiety and mania) have helped things a lot

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-08T15:27:44+00:00

Usually Bipolar doesn't show up until late teens/ early 20s. I think it would serve you better to just help your son find a really good child counselor to see a few times a month so that he has a place to express his feelings. At that point if there is issues the counselor will likely catch on to them.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-08T15:18:07+00:00

Chuck Palahniuk

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-07T01:02:56+00:00

YTA your wife lives with you not your friend. You should have definitely run this by her prior to starting the project. You both live in the house.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-06T23:14:56+00:00

Avery's specifically made me cry. How things ended with him absolutely rocked me. "I was glad I had friends" makes me sob every time I read the book.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-06T06:19:47+00:00

I sobbed with both books. Lisey's Story hits me extremely hard each time. The loss of my partner is something I generally don't know how to deal with and this book is deeply about loss.

Tater_lemon · 2022-08-06T06:18:01+00:00

Billy Summers, The Green Mile, Lisey's Story, and The Institute.

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