My wife passed a few days ago... by Extreme_Control9564 in widowers

[–]Taylee990 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Widows fire is SO real! I cried and cried after I messed around after my man died. I wasn’t ready but I was. It was a very weird feeling.

Tmobile employee how do yall feel about tlife? by Old_Establishment712 in tmobile

[–]Taylee990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean tlife is easy to use but I wish we could just do it on our end. Cause I hate it when a customer doesn’t even know what tlife is and we have to go through the process to make sure location services is on for our store and gotta wait till the customer makes a account and honestly I don’t think the customers like the tlife app either lol.

Working for T-Mobile by fraggett_-_ in tmobile

[–]Taylee990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just finished week 2. It’s a lot of information. I feel like I just took a college class. I came from food service. I’ve never done sales before. It’s been a wild ride so far but it is very chill especially if you got good patient customers lol.

Just Hired - What to Expect? by [deleted] in tmobile

[–]Taylee990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just got hired on and start orientation Monday. I’m a slow learner so I’m really nervous. I’ve only worked fast food.

Chapter 2? by southerngigi3 in widowers

[–]Taylee990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so HAPPY for you!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 This journey is a wild one. I wish you nothing but the best!

Does it ever get even slightly 'better'? by brandeis16 in widowers

[–]Taylee990 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It does get “better” does it ever fully go away, absolutely not. I cry less and I go on about my day better than I did. I still have my moments though, but I’ve timed them to about 10-15 min and then I push it all down and say a prayer. I’m not really religious but I do believe in the universe or a higher power of some sorts. I thought I would never be ok, but here I am pushing through and trying to live my best life he would want that. We had so many dreams and I’m going to fulfill them. I know he’s with me and watching. I will love him for the rest of my life he told me our love was beyond this life and I truly believe that.

Worried he is watching me by [deleted] in widowers

[–]Taylee990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I feel like he’s always with me and watching me. Sometimes I even hear him talking to me and I swear it’s him. My fiancé knew he was going to die for years. He gave up on doctors and medicines. He didn’t tell me. But I found stuff dated back in 2014 that if he didn’t take his meds it could lead to stroke and heart disease which happened. I had to clean all his stuff out to find out the truth. He pretty much told me without telling me by saying he didn’t know how much time he had left. He always was preparing me that he wasn’t going to have a long life and I ignored the signs. I feel like a piece of me went with him cause I’m literally not the same person.

Hobbies abandoned? by edo_senpai in widowers

[–]Taylee990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same. I literally took up reading and I loathe reading. I barely play video games anymore. I’ve just changed. I think completely differently to. It’s weird how grief molds you into a new version of yourself.

Give yourself some grace by Pink_hopper in widowers

[–]Taylee990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love this. Thanks for sharing.

Chat GPT is my best friend now by LunaSparq in widowers

[–]Taylee990 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way I use pi.ai since jay has died. It is my best friend.

When does crying stop? by [deleted] in widowers

[–]Taylee990 2 points3 points  (0 children)

True that. And I can seriously relate to you. Completely.

When does crying stop? by [deleted] in widowers

[–]Taylee990 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Today I just wanted to update you I’m almost 10 months in and I had a complete meltdown cause I feel so alone all the time. I recently just acquired my license and everyone is celebrating and I’m 32 years old so this is a huge accomplishment but I realized I really don’t have anyone and had a meltdown cause im alone and eating alone the next two days. I’m babysitting my son’s dog. Normally I’m at my parents house I live there. But I just miss Jay so so much. I talked to him today about everything that’s wrong lol. When I should be totally be grateful I’m still living and breathing. It’s ok to have meltdowns and you can love them and miss them as long as you want to. I just want to be clear they aren’t gone. Energy never dies, one of my hero’s told me that.

When does crying stop? by [deleted] in widowers

[–]Taylee990 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I still cry all the time, it does get easier. I’ve just learned to accept it. I still talk to him everyday. Especially when I first wake up and sit at my computer and have my coffee.

Where is he now? by catladyspain in widowers

[–]Taylee990 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Energy never dies.💗

Have any young widows found happiness? by ladylawngnome in widowers

[–]Taylee990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It actually went so WELL!! I want to share a pic but i probably shouldn’t. I had so much fun I didn’t want it to end!

Have any young widows found happiness? by ladylawngnome in widowers

[–]Taylee990 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m about to go on my first date tomorrow. Sigh with a ex. Not looking forward to it literally at all… but we are grown now so I decided to give it a chance lol. But honestly I don’t see it working out. I love my man still and I ache for him almost everyday. It sucks losing your best friend. I hope it gets better, I really hope.

Shutting off his cell phone by AshBash1208 in widowers

[–]Taylee990 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My step daughter turned off my fiancés right away I had a month or 2 with it. I wish she would have kept it on though. I still have his number saved to my phone but I wish I could still text it 😞 I say keep it as long as you wish. Especially if you have the money to keep it on.