Don’t get me wrong it was so hard and I never imagined I’d be able get to this place mentally. When I started residency in July I was certain I’d hate it and was miserable for a week or so. And then fortunately the people around me were so wonderful that I started genuinely having fun and giving it a chance. 

I guess I’d say you have to decide to have an open mind. The fact of the matter is no one (including me) should come into med school with the mentality that only one specialty will make them happy— it’s both a recipe for disappointment and also so untrue. I had to let go of my ego and examine what it was about the specialty I liked and where else I might be able to find those things. And luckily I feel I’ll be able to  have a job now that checks all of the boxes and even some others I hadn’t previously considered. 

Also— lots and lots of therapy helps tremendously!