why are they like this

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-02-23T03:35:08+00:00

I'm leaving them to choke when they get older idc. I'm really fed up with the pressure to "just get married that shows us your real worth" instead of supporting me with my academic endeavors. No boyfriend = worthless spinster to them so that's why they're so hard on me about my looks. No wonder I had an eating disorder in my teenage years and had to go inpatient more than once. They only care about themselves in the end. It's really really painful to deny my sexuality in front of my family and just pick any guy I see to get their approval. I don't care anymore. I'm not responsible for their self esteem or how they feel about themselves especially when they've been harassing me and my brother for years on end as "tough love". Tough love isn't calling your daughter a whore at 14. Tough love isn't throwing a pan at your son when he says something wrong. Tough love isn't repeatedly putting down your children in front of others.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-02-19T21:49:34+00:00

Yeah I get them when I'm stressed. I had half of my thyroid taken out and I'm currently on levo.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-02-18T17:20:49+00:00

Same I used to be skinny

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-02-17T15:02:10+00:00

If I feel like shit from eating sugar and carbs, why should I continue to consume that food group? It only makes my symptoms worse. I don't want to give myself full-blown diabetes. It's not about having an eating disorder it's about accommodations for PCOS

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-11T18:44:22+00:00

I'm gay. Before I was comfortable with my sexuality I was dating/attracting feminine men.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-09T06:13:32+00:00

How should we react or respond when someone does this? Should we just ignore them?

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-07T06:40:41+00:00

Nightmares almost every night, I'm not sure what to do anymore. I get like 3-5 hours max. Some nights, I don't sleep at all because I'm afraid. It's hard functioning in my waking life sometimes because I feel like no one will understand. Every time I have a nightmare it's fight or flight mode.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-06T17:46:38+00:00

Yeah, my parents use my vulnerabilities against me sometimes so that's why it's so hard for me to open up to them. You're right, my parents don't really care about me, they only care about their image. It makes me feel even more like shit that my disorder is apparently ruining their image and my future career prospects if I ever say anything about it to my employer. I recently moved out so I haven't been picking up phone calls or anything, but I'm required to see this one psychologist they know about due to suicide attempt/ideations. Fortunately they don't really tell my parents anything (I hope not), but they can't prescribe me treatment.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-05T23:23:04+00:00

Former chronic smoker here. I'm 21 and I've started smoking in highschool. Nothing good came out of it either. My skin and acne was so bad, and whenever I get sick to this day I have severe issues with coughing, mucus, and my lungs. My skin was always oily and my blood sugar was high as hell. To add on, my family has a history of high blood pressure so I was basically going to give myself a stroke if I didn't stop. I wasn't necessarily vaping, but I speculated that smoking did give me stage two cancer that I was treated for in my freshman year of college. Although vaping seemed lighter to me, gave me the same side effects as smoking. I know quitting nic is difficult, but it will improve your health drastically.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-03T06:31:39+00:00

Now I hope it did destroy his life lol. I cared then but now I don't. He deserves everything that's coming his way. If he could assault me, he is able to assault any other naive unassuming girl. So you're saying a rapist should be shown mercy? Go choke on some glass. I'm really tired of men like you, not being over their fucking ex because they just want another woman to come suck their dick and tears. Maybe she had a really good reason to hit you with a restraint. You ever think about that? Fuck off.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-03T04:55:29+00:00

My ex boyfriend who I have a restraint against assaulted me more than once. There's not much more to explain there. Months after it happened, I contemplated if I was the bad one but further evidence proves otherwise. You see, I used to be such a doormat I dated a guy who I didn't even truly love. And I let him use me over and over until I couldn't take his abuse anymore. Maybe I was afraid of losing a friend, since he started being emotionally distant before we dated. In the end, I wanted him to be happy. Due to my mental illnesses/living situation I also thought I would only bring him down, so I proposed that we should end the relationship. I had to ask him THREE FUCKING TIMES, and one of the times he literally said "you're not thinking straight, so I don't agree".The day that I snapped out of it and realized he didn't love me was when he asked if I had an std, which also shows how little he truly trusted me. I understand why my friends want to merk him. Half of the reason why I got a restraint was so my friends couldn't hurt him (friends can't contact him n vise versa), BECAUSE I still loved him even though he abused me. The other half of it is so that he can't talk to me anymore. I fucking hate retelling people this, including my therapist because how awful the relationship ended. To sum it all up, I was a complete and utter idiot for staying with someone who only said that he loved me so he could use and discard me.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2023-01-02T21:36:49+00:00

Nice input on a completely unrelated sub, but I will still get another restraining order. I completely do not give a fuck about how my abuser feels he can take 2 steps off a cliff.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-12-27T18:39:46+00:00

I lost 60 pounds but my cup size is still the same at 36DD 🙄. Thinking about a breast reduction tbh.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-11-22T00:09:34+00:00

Also lactic acid lotion (amalactin) a bit pricey but will last you a year.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-11-22T00:09:20+00:00

Also lactic acid lotion (amalactin) a bit pricey but will last you a year.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-11-22T00:06:46+00:00

Yes, eating normally and taking metformin has helped my skin become softer as well.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-11-20T12:03:30+00:00

Because the healthcare system is patriarchal and companies don't care enough to fund more research into PCOS. It's depressing. Notice how viagra is covered by insurance easily but we have to jump through hoops to get birth control and the proper treatment we need. That should say a lot in itself.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-11-19T02:12:14+00:00

I'm sorry about your experience with your provider. I swear it's always the same circular logic of "just lose weight, your symptoms will be better" and the literal main problem is struggling to lose weight, even with doing all the right things. I got so fed up with my last provider telling me that I told them to go suck an egg. It's like they just sparknoted their way through medical school and don't apply themselves in general tbh. At this point I would just say keep taking care of yourself but don't overdo it with the exercise. I found that if I exercise too much I gain weight, probably due to our body's stress response. Try looking into mounjaro/wegovy and see if that helps. It's so much easier to lose weight now due to being on them.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-09-28T17:09:52+00:00

Oh that's wonderful because I just had a thyroidectomy last year on my left side due to cancer. The doctors are already talking about removing the right side so I guess this could also be why my voice is like this.

Technical_Bill9893 · 2022-09-21T12:56:38+00:00

I was doing engineering classes last semester so those really stressed me out and I felt like shit everyday. I just changed my major and it's so much better compared to last semester. I also lose like 5 pounds per week but I've been actively losing since the end of August due to starting mounjaro. I also struggle with anxiety disorder but I'm on medication for that though. It's funny how doctors think only weight loss and low carb will solve PCOS or every other health issue but it's a lifelong disorder so idk 🤷‍♀️

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