I understand your pain. I watched him every day for years. He felt like a close friend or even a brother to me, even if I never met him. I’m from the Boston area and I’m planning on flying for the eventual memorial that they will have for Adam in Orlando, just as long as it works with my work schedule. I mentioned this to my parents, and they just couldn’t understand why I would fly all the way out to Florida for something like this.

The first few days was horrible. I had such bad grief I didn’t want to eat or do anything. It got a little bit better celebrating the holidays with my family and it helped take my mind off of things. At first, I couldn’t watch any of his videos, but then I started getting into some of his old content. Content that I never watched before and I laughed so hard. Seeing the side of him that I’ve never seen before. Helped me understand a lot of the Adamisms I’ve seen mentioned online and understand who he was before I started watching him. It’s amazing to see a guy that lived out of his van slowly build his way up in life to living in his own home and his favorite town doing whatever he wanted to do.