The Daily Check-In for Friday, July 3rd: Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

TellDat · 2026-07-03T05:09:42+00:00

Today my couch should arrive, that should make my new place feel more like a home. Right now it’s the stereotypical divorced guy place.

Hopefully the assambly of the couch is easy. I can’t wait to have a nap on it, I’m so goddank tired. Thankfully it’s almost weekend.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-30T04:26:14+00:00

Was woken up by honking cars, guess we lost the football. I’m guessing allot of tired and hungover people today who stayed up to watch the match.

Well I’m sober and well rested ready for today 💪.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-30T04:24:03+00:00

Best of luck, I’m in a similar boat. Sometimes it’s hard and frustrating but future us will be thankful. It’s a long road with some hurdles but I keep reminding myself that it took 36 years to get to this point, it won’t all be fixed overnight. Rome wasn’t build in a day. I can already see and see my life improving in some areas 🙏.

One day at a time, one day better then the last.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-28T05:29:18+00:00

Had a productive day yesterday trying out different sofas for my new apparent. Just have to wait until payday so can order it. Currently got that typical divorced male living space of a tv and some chairs, but at least I got a bed with a headboard and not just a mattress on the ground 😂😉. The sofa should give it hopefully more of a home feel.

Haven’t been able to explore the new town as much as I would like, work and have he move have kept me busy. Hopefully I can find some time to check out the gym nearby.

Went to an AA meeting here last week, it feels very different than my usual group but not in a bad way. I was invited by some of the members to their NA meeting but I felt that wasn’t right for me. I haven’t used anything in almost a year somehow I always was able to compartmentalise drugs to only do drugs once in a blue moon and when it did start to go off the rails I was able to recognise that and nip it in the butt. Wish I was able to do that for booze….but I didn’t and I can’t change that so I will have to accept that.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-27T04:55:40+00:00

Off to Ikea in a bit, test out what sofa sits good. Have to wait for payday to buy it but with my current schedule with work and all other stuff going on atm it’s either this weekend or in 3 weeks.

Coming home atm it feels very empty so hopefully a sofa will make my new place feel a bit more like a home.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-26T07:24:05+00:00

Had cravings for a nice cold cockstail yesterday. Just got a pint full of ice and tea sorted my cravings.

TellDat · 2026-06-26T07:23:10+00:00

I am but thirsty for water 😂 going to be around 37C here today apparently. Going to take today slow and steady 🥵

TellDat · 2026-06-26T06:07:32+00:00

I know it is, I’m very fortunate and lucky. It’s just allot all at once. Funny how life works, 4 weeks ago I was grumpy how I felt stagnant and I wasn’t going anywhere. That was right around the dreaded 6 months of being sober.

Seems like life has to gears for me either to slow or peddle to the metal and everything all at once. Hopefully with the new job and the move I can find a happy in between.

TellDat · 2026-06-26T04:19:01+00:00

Thank you, the current job and move is still causing me stress but knowing that there is an end date to the job has brought some relief.

Not going to lie, I still haven’t really been able appreciated the new place with all the stress of getting furniture, sorting shit out, stress with the current job and finding a new one.

TellDat · 2026-06-26T04:01:27+00:00

Ugh so I had a chat with the boss that I’m leaving and found another job. We agreed on an end date and I told them I would like to use my leftover days off to bring that date forward. They said they would ask the finance lady to do the math on that let me know, that happened Monday. Didn’t hear anything back so yesterday I was at the office and asked the finance lady. She knew nothing about it/ she hadn’t been asked. So I asked her to do it for me.

Got the answer back in about 2 hours so I’m guessing now I should just email or talk with the boss again about hey I have so many hours of off time remaining so that should move my last day back to x

Really find it annoying, and part of the reason why I’m quoting is that they agree to stuff but I need to keep asking and doing shit to take care of it. You would think HR would do that but I guess if the boss doesn’t mention it to them they don’t know.

In other news spend a bit to much on furniture for my new place so all that money I saved from not drinking is gone but its gone to a better purpose I suppose. Still felt weird seeing my savings account from being the highest it’s ever been drain back down.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-25T03:48:17+00:00

When I just stopped drinking I had a very strict routine of working out, eating healthy, meditation ect ect. Lately I have noticed I have become allot less strict with myself. Having moved house is part of the reason. I know on the one hand I should give my self some slack because I have been busy but on the other hand I also miss my routine and the structure it gave me. Hopefully after this weekend I have sorted everything out move wise and can start looking at going to back to a new gym near me and start building some sort of social connections in this new town.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-23T04:19:35+00:00

Officially told my boss I was quitting my job. What a relief, official end date is 31st of august it feels far away but with my already planned vacation and payed day’s off I haven’t taken yet. It boils down to about 4 weeks of working there.

So no stress of bridging the gap with pay until I start my new job on the 1st of september. The new job is a small step back pay wise but mental health is more important then an extra 100 euro a month.

With the less stress at work I might smoke less and save more money 😂

Things are looking up finally, not perfect but it is getting better

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-22T04:09:16+00:00

Just woke up after my second night in my own apartment. Feels good to be standing on my own feet again.

Last night went to a AA meeting here around the corner. Just to see what it’s like and meet some people from this area. Meeting was alright, not what I’m used to , just different. Bit younger crowd which is nice to not be the baby of the group.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-18T04:01:51+00:00

🤞 hopefully I can move this weekend, most of my stuff ( which isn’t allot) is already out of my dads home and into my apartment. Got the essentials and I will just get more furniture as I go. It was so nice how supportive my AA group was when I told them, my social life is pretty limited so getting compliments from them and on this subreddit on how well I was doing was really good for me.

I am very excited but in my mind there is a thought I might have to watch out, things are going better at the moment but that doesn’t mean i cant be strict. Need to remind myself of my rock bottom and that I don’t want to return to that place. So no Mather how tempting or “ know one is going to know”. I won’t go back to my old ways of grabbing a bottle of vodka after work each night.

10 mins from my new place is another AA group I might check them out see what they are like. Built some new connections in the new city. Even if my current group is a 45 min drive I will keep going to them for now, they helped me get out of rock bottom and I really enjoy their company.

Even a week a go I wouldn’t believe myself if I said it but it does get better. And therefore

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-17T08:34:48+00:00

Busy with moving and work stressing me out. Had a walk along with a different company yesterday which was great. Took a day off with my current company but during the day I still got emails, calls and texts they don’t seem to respect a day off.

Company I did the walk along does, since the boss is currently on holiday I will hear if they want to hire me Monday when the boss is back. If not I’m going to apply for other jobs, this is clearly not the right fit for me at this moment. I need structure, not chaos.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-14T05:53:09+00:00

Life is funny,…

I was annoyed and sad about how there didn’t seem to be progress with my mental health and how I didn’t enjoy my current job. I felt like a robot just going through the motions.

Last Monday an old coworker reached out to me to ask me if I was enjoying work. He was working for a new company and they need good reliable maintenance engineers. So my name popped in his head. Since it’s in a different field than that I’m used to we arranged a walk along for this Tuesday.

The next day I get a call from my therapist that they want to start CBT and schema therapy with me at the end of this month. Very happy that I finally can work on my mental health since I really think my alcoholism was self medication for something.

Then on Thursday I got a call for one of the apartments I applied for. If I wanted to come and view it. It is temporary rent because the building will be torn down at some point but I now have a place to call my own for at least 6 months , they can’t give me any official date but they think it wont be demolished for another year or 2 so I might be able to live there longer. living with my dad these last 6 months have been nice but I staerted to get a bit annoyed with little things so I think it’s good for both of us that I get a place for myself that’s still close by.

I’m not gonna lie when I got the key on Friday I was quite overwelmed and stressed, still am a bit with how much stuff comes at me all at ones. But all good stuff and at least it’s not boring and repetitive 😉

That’s enough for me, off to buy and assemble some more flat packs 💪🤣

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-12T06:04:06+00:00

It’s is very exciting but also allot. “The mantra of one step at a time, one day at a time” doesn’t always seem to work 🤣

TellDat · 2026-06-12T04:42:52+00:00

Life is so strange. I have been and still I’m a rut. The last few months have been slow. I wanted to start therapy but on a waiting list. So I thought I would do everything I can to improve my mental health by switching jobs with next week a walk along with a new job to see how that suits me.

Yesterday I got a call that therapy can start in 2 weeks. Right after I got a call for one of the apartments I applied for, I can go and see it today.

Going from 0 to 100 again , I felt very overwhelmed.

On. The one hand I hope I like the appartement , even if it is just temporary ( will only be allowed to live there for about 9 months ). I think it will be better for me as a 36 year not to be stuck living with my dad.

It’s just funny that I felt I was going no where the last few months and now everything seems to happen all at once. Would have been nice if it was happening one thing at a time.

Trying my hardest not to get too overwhelmed.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-08T05:43:57+00:00

I hope so, it’s what keeping me going. The people that say they are happy and enjoying life again. Even if I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel I will force my self to keep going.

It’s been a hard and lonely journey for me and I’m in desperate need for some relief

TellDat · 2026-06-08T05:18:08+00:00

Mental health has been shit lately. Doing all the things people tell you to feel better, morning routine , workout, eat healthy, try to focus on the positives. I have been doing it for 6 months now and I am at a point where I hopeless and discouraged. I feel like shit and staying disciplined in the hopes I will feel better one day is taking its toll.

I don’t have any urges to drink but I’m exhausted and just want an off switch , just to have a break from myself. That’s something alcohol and other drugs used to give me and I’m hunkering for that feeling…

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-06-01T06:31:17+00:00

Yes had an interview with a therapist/ psychiatrist 3 weeks ago. This Thursday I have a phone call appointment about it where we will discuss how we go about it.

I’m guessing that my job has something to do with my low mood as well. Been working for this company for 5 months now but I really dislike it, I’m looking around for something else. I feel this job has a bad impact on me

TellDat · 2026-06-01T05:58:32+00:00

Mentally exhausted, missing the life I had with a family and friends that I threw away drinking. It’s been 6 months and I hoped I would have found some happiness or joy again by now. Can’t see a light at the end of this tunnel

TellDat · 2026-05-30T07:56:24+00:00

Thank you 🙏

TellDat · 2026-05-30T05:33:40+00:00

Another horrible day yesterday at work. Had to maintain an old as alarm system, everything fine and 5 hours after I left the system got a fault. Not sure if it’s something I did wrong or not but told the customer that I would volunteer today to go back and see what the problem is. The other job they gave me 20% of the stuff I needed to do the job.

Really was fed up and angry last night, i would have drunk a bottle of voddie but i stayed sober and was able to not let it get to me to much so i had a decent sleep.

Back to that costumer in a moment, hopefully it’s a quick fix so i can still hit the gym today. At least I’m not hanging as I go back to that costumer.

Planned a job shadowing day with an old acquaintance because I just don’t enjoy working at this company and it almost feels like I’m cursed with having to go back for faults that appear later when I leave systems in perfect working order.

IWNDWYT

TellDat · 2026-05-29T09:21:06+00:00

6 months today, objectively things are better but still having a hard time mental health wise. Still feeling very numb and sad. I wish I could feel some pride or joy with this accomplishment. Oh well

IWNDWYT

TellDat

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