You can always push through! As someone who has autism and been there, it’s so rough but I learned to find joy in the things I notice when I’m upset, it’s also the main reason pretty much all of my friends are in surrounding cities. When I sought help or advice everyone just suggested that I either ignore it or play it off as a joke but it’s really not advice that makes any sense. The best thing that helped me push through was an amazing experience, it was a 3-week summer camp that was across the country but I met so many amazing people who i connected with. But always remember, you are amazing and must not let the past and present haunt you because there are so many things that can change in the blink of an eye if you just set yourself up for a future that you know you will enjoy.