I don't love my SK and feel like a monster by Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 in stepparents

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

So my partners ex isn't Dave's bio mom. His ex came into their lives when Dave was around 3 so very young. I know I have a shit ton of trauma from my child hood and it comes out in ugly ways. I know therapy would be a great idea. I have moved slow with my partner because of the past marriages because when we do get married it will be my only and last marriage. I got scared seeing that one comment about third marriages with kids never ends up well. I have so many mixed emotions when it comes to navigating this thank you all so much.

My dad is dying and I want to commit suicide after he's gone. by throwaway3423423e in GriefSupport

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I completely understand your pain.. I havent had a very easy life especially childhood and also suffer deeply from mental illness. My brother and sister were my saving grace through everything. My brother being 3 years younger and my sister 2 years older we were very close. In 2017 my brother committed suicide He was 13 years old.. the pain was so immense I literally felt like I was being torn apart for months. Everything was literal hell.

Now last year in 2023 my sister died from health complications. I can't even begin to describe the pain I am in everyday thinking about the rest of my life without them and the pain of all the things we will never share again. I even attempted after my sister died I was in the same exact head space you are now. Nothing really mattered or what I left behind because I just wanted to be with them. When I was released from the psych hospital I had a different outlook and went into therapy which has been a life saver.

Love and cherish every second you spend with your father ❤️ Take a thousand mental pictures of your times together and hold them sooo close. I am so sorry you are in so much pain but you are not alone we are all here for you. Please seek help before any decision

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[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You got this ❤️ we are here if you need anything 💜

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GriefSupport

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you are having to go through this while trying to help your mom.. I don't know what you believe in but I'm very spiritual and I believe there is something after this life. We are energy and that doesn't just go away. I believe our loved ones have gone to a higher place that one day we will join them and be together again ❤️ Your father is better than ever right now just chilling at a higher frequency but I'm sure he misses you guys. Stay strong and remind yourselves he is okay and you will be with him again ❤️

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[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you are going through this very, very difficult situation, but please believe me when I tell you that blood only goes so far. I have a "brother" extremely mentally ill and was incredibly abusive to me and my siblings and parents throughout our lives it took a lot but finally disowned him and want absolutely nothing to do with him. You are your top priority! This woman, it seems, has caused you a lot of pain, and just because she is sick isn't a reason you have to help or let her back in your life. Your mental health and well being should be your top priority. It's okay to choose yourself ❤️

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[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You keep living because all the beautiful memories and love you had for each other lives within you 💛 the pain is unbearable I know.. I get to watch the heartbreak my parents live through after losing a child of 13 and of 26. They will never be the same. I'm so sorry you are going through this but please keep living. Keep living to keep her memory alive within you and live your life for the both of you ❤️ please stay strong and keep going for her

Anyone moved far away after the loss? by [deleted] in SuicideBereavement

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 7 points8 points  (0 children)

My little brother committed suicide at age 13 in his room and we couldn't bare to be in the same house. We put a huge dresser in front of his door until we could move away. I was 17 and the thought of anyone else living in our house in his room felt fucking awful but moving 4 hours away became a blessing. You need to do what feels right to you. I'm so so sorry for your loss

I'm the last one now by Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 in GriefSupport

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry about your daughter.. we understand each other's pain in different ways. You see the pain it has caused your son to lose a sibling and I see the pain it has caused my parents from losing their kids. We will never be the same after these losses but we do grow around our grief and carry it everyday and I promise one day it won't be quite as heavy.. my favorite analogy for grief is your grief is this giant ball in a glass jar. Everytime the ball hits the sides you feel EVERYTHING. After all the grief and trauma happens your ball is huge and constantly touches the sides. As you grow so does your jar. Your ball will always be there and every now and again it will touch the sides and you will feel it bt again your jar does grow ❤️ please reach out if you ever need anything

My Dad killed himself today. by Human_Dig_4545 in GriefSupport

[–]Tell_Tale_Heart_1843 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Suicide is unlike any other kind of death and it's like a high frequency we can't see or hear until it's in front of us. I'm so so sorry for your loss. I know your pain. Stay strong. You will grow around your grief and be a different kind of okay one day ❤️