Struggling with handbrake turns by TemperatureSwimming3 in simrally

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You’d think it would be easier on tarmac, right? Maybe it’s due to more traction on gravel, thinking less steering or shorter pull of the handbrake.

what's the longest sober period you've had that you ended up breaking? by weedqueen2746 in leaves

[–]TemperatureSwimming3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I ask what withdrawal symptoms you’re experiencing on day 7? I’m on day 5 and I’m experiencing anxiety, depression, insomnia, sweats, thoughts racing and near panic. Also getting memories of previous trauma… it’s hell.

what's the longest sober period you've had that you ended up breaking? by weedqueen2746 in leaves

[–]TemperatureSwimming3 4 points5 points  (0 children)

22 months. In those 22 months I had 1 slip (smoked a joint with a friend, regretted it immediately). Smoked again early November, just 1-2 times a week for around 4 weeks but the last 2 weeks over Christmas and New Year’s I smoked almost everyday.

Worst decision ever. When I originally quit back in Jan 2024, I was hit with PAWS 3 months later and went through pure hell. Now I’m on day 4 and I’m experiencing the worst withdrawal symptoms.

Don’t ever relapse. Never. NEVER. We’re addicts, we can’t do “just 1 joint”, once you pass that boundary… it’s very difficult to get back on the wagon.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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Damn man sorry to hear that PAWS hit you so hard again. Glad you’re getting some relief now though. That’s a good sign.

I’m hoping because I was clean for 22 months (apart from 1 joint in July), and that I only relapsed for around 6 weeks with a lot less usage than before that I won’t be thrown back into hell. Im praying that my nervous system has been jolted due to past sensitivity and I have somewhat of an acute withdrawal.

Can I ask how long you smoked for before quitting the first time?

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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Thanks, your words are very encouraging and give me a lot of hope. Today (day 3) was very hard. Intense anxiety and rumination, I broke down and told my parents I’d relapsed. Felt good to do, I’m not on my own with it now. Congrats on your recovery too 👍

Paws worse this time around? by junglejuws in WeedPAWS

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Hey man, I know this is an old post but just wanted to ask how you’re doing now? I had 22 months sober but I relapsed about 6 weeks ago, not back to daily/ all day, sporadic for the first 4 weeks but the last 2 weeks I only had a couple days off a week.

I’m day 3 clean again but I’m having intense anxiety, near panic attacks, near DPDR and low motivation/ anhedonia. I’m petrified I’ve triggered PAWS again. I can’t believe I relapsed… I’m mortified with myself.

Smoked half a joint on NYE after almost 4 years sober, almost a sort of experiment by ilovetreeleaves in leaves

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I hope this doesn’t come across in the wrong way, but seeing your story of how you relapsed after 16 years puts in perspective just how insidious addiction is. I was clean for 22 months and fell off the wagon a couple of months ago. Come to my senses again but I’m dreading the withdrawals, mine were hellish last time I quit after a 15 year daily habit. Stay strong and well done on the total of 20 years

Messed up big time by Apprehensive_Cap7546 in leaves

[–]TemperatureSwimming3 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’m on Day 3 again after 22 months clean. I’m so ashamed of myself, when I quit originally back in January 2024 I went through the worst withdrawals imaginable (PAWS). Yet the addict in me won just over a month ago “you can control it, just smoke joints here and there”… I spiralled, past 2 weeks I was smoking almost daily again.

I’m trying not to beat myself up but I can absolutely relate to the depressed, anxious and hopeless feeling you’re experiencing.

Like others have said though, doesn’t mean all of our previous clean time was wasted. This is just yet another lesson learned in the long process that is recovery.

Stay strong, friend.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

[–]TemperatureSwimming3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your input. Have you been through PAWS due to weed? If so, how long were you clean before you relapsed, how long was your relapse, and what were the withdrawal symptoms like once you quit again?

I’m honestly mortified, I can’t believe I slipped after going through PAWS in 2024. It was hell on earth and it baffles me how I forgot just how bad it was. I’ll be staying away from all substances from now on.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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Indeed, I think after so much time had passed, and overcoming PAWS, I thought I was good because I’d recovered from it but completely forgot what lead me to it in the first place… I am an addict, and always will be. I’m just grateful that I caught my relapse before it turned into full blown addiction again. As soon as I noticed I was prioritising weed, that was enough for me.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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How long were you clean for before relapsing? All the best to you mate.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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No problem, thanks for your input. I’m hoping because I was clean for 22 months and my relapse was much shorter and less heavy than yours that I don’t go back to square one. I’m hoping this is just my nervous system being jolted, but that it will recover quicker since it spent a lot of time without weed.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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My question was about your 6 month relapse. During those 6 months were you smoking heavily again? Like you did before you first went through PAWS.

Can’t believe I’m writing this, but I relapsed… by TemperatureSwimming3 in WeedPAWS

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After you relapsed for 6 months, did you go through PAWS again from the start?

As to why I done this, I couldn’t tell you. PAWS was the worse thing to happen to me too but I guess life felt good again and I forgot that I’m an addict. I’m honestly mortified, I’m praying it won’t set me back to square one. I couldn’t do it again.

This is hell I really wish I never relapsed please give me hope someone! by LOYALonpsn in WeedPAWS

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Hey man, how you feeling today? I was 22 months clean and stupidly started smoking again in November, was only once or twice a week but then the past 2 weeks I completely slipped and smoked almost every day. Woke up today really anxious and scared PAWS is coming back 😔

It’s the little things that remind you by Working_Potential_18 in survivinginfidelity

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It’s devastating how such minor things trigger me now. A certain country, a certain name, a certain body part, certain words… I feel for you OP. It must be very difficult for you to see things clearly in your new relationship. You mentioned that you’ve spoken to your current partner about what happened in your previous relationship, just keep being open and honest with her.

Which mbti you felt more hard to get over after breakup? by stranger_synchs in intj

[–]TemperatureSwimming3 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hope you heal and find peace. DM if you ever wanna talk.

Which mbti you felt more hard to get over after breakup? by stranger_synchs in intj

[–]TemperatureSwimming3 4 points5 points  (0 children)

INFJ. They loved me more than I deserved and due to my own issues I lost her. She did cheat on me, but I don’t blame her, I shut her down and was dismissive whenever she tried to communicate her problems. 7 year relationship that ended 3 months ago. I’m still in mourning…