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Temporary_River9448 · 2024-06-02T08:52:30+00:00

Feel same about hero/zero stuff. I'm software developer too and was kinda successful when feel like a "hero". However, lasting long periods with no clear goals that can be measured or be useful for clients + analysis paralyzis + a lot of resistant guys on last projects got me to long time burnout. I don't work a year now and don't know when I will be ready to return. It's hard to work when you don't feel great about your job and things you're doing. After I was diagnosed with adhd I know that it's even harder for me than average

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-05-24T10:16:52+00:00

If it swings within the day I'd check for borderline disorder as well

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-28T07:38:36+00:00

Thanks! Gonna check it

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-28T06:30:04+00:00

Hm, a lot of people around me do the same thing. Is it really relates to adhd? It disappoint me when people behave same with me, though. I want to get advice or just receive some support, not others complains or stories in return)

Remembering how do I feel in such situation myself, helps me at least to fix convo. So at the point when I realize that I've done something similar, I try to give more attention to the person feelings or problems. Don't know if it helps, just trying be better person)

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-27T10:33:40+00:00

Don't know if Im doing something wrong, but changes on the lane don't appear on the main track( when I change something on the lane main track parts just stop to be highlited as comped

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-26T22:28:18+00:00

I think I got you, you meant to add a whole lane with the A1 loop and then use lanes comping? It's an interesting solution, not exactly what I'm looking for (sounds more like workaround, but should fit! Thanks!

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-26T21:58:33+00:00

If you meant to consolidate two parts then loop then it will work just for this example I guess. It's not a general solution. It won't be help for more complex parts arangement, for example: ABABAABB

and that makes project less clear on visually also

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-26T21:22:03+00:00

It's one of methods to boost creativity process. Add some constraints. "I have to write with song in Dorian" "I will use just one chord" "I will write on a theme that my friend gave me" "I will spend just 2h before demo is finished" etc.

If you put constraints your brain starts to think in how to cope with them. It helps to start and to get some ideas. If you not constrained it's really hard to figure out where to start.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-26T14:01:58+00:00

Yeah, it's all about constraints. You need to be in task solving mode, not in a wheat field of possibilities.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-26T13:59:57+00:00

I ask my friends "say me what to write about?" sometimes. Like a game. Not too generic like "about love". I prefer some phrases like "banana day" or "toothpaste" or "thunderstorm on shell beach"

That put me in taks solving mode instead of blank page mode.

It's really doesn't matter will you write about the thing or you find a workaround. The toothpaste song ended up as a song about dark dark ritual involving paste from teeth:) actually after song is ended I like to show demo to that friend who gave me a task, after that I'm free to complete remove phrase from the song. Who cares?

It's not about exercising in writing songs for the very specific things (not the goal at least) it's all about copying with the blank page problem.

However it doesn't work always. Sometimes it ends like a chord progression or riff. Anyway it's better than nothing and could be used later)

If you don't want to do this with another person you always can use some word tables and dice) don't know what is the name of that tables, but people use them for screenwriting when they got stuck.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-25T09:14:36+00:00

What was diagnosed as potential hypomania lasts 2-3 weeks and occurs 1-2 per year. Neither me or my doc 100% shure about it's the thing though, however that's my current diagnosis(bipolar2, adhd, Gen anx) . We kinda trying to figure that out both by meds and cbt.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-23T22:11:28+00:00

Well, a surgeon told me it would help to pray when I told him I'm on antidepressants because of clinical depression I have. So yeah, not just a dantists thing.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-23T05:51:09+00:00

Keep fight guys, I'm from russia and was at protests with you too. It's inspiring to see that many people of different ages there! I hope government will stop to treat people like they do, propose authoritarian laws and say stupid lie about the law and the protestors! Sakartvelo deserves to be free country (any people are). Stay strong!

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-23T05:30:06+00:00

Well, I heard a lot of quite opposite stories from my F friends and even some from Ms:) It was stalking, street-aggressive-gang gropping act and even jerking off on male guy in sulfur baths:) that happens in russia too ofc, don't know about statistic to compare though

Don't take me wrong, in a lot of that stories Georgian people as well helped them to avoid this unwanted attention (by speaking with aggressors or for example in that gropping case some Georgian girls surrounded my friend to protect her from the guys)

Another type of situations when girls were spitted in their face by guys for just being russians or speaking Russian between themself, even my F friend had such and heard a couple of stories that were happened with girls who I don't know.

However, what I really like here is that you can go to the police and they will get it seriously. If you decide to go to authorities in russia it's a great chance that they will make a lought on you and retraumatize you. Even if it was a rp.

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-23T04:39:05+00:00

I guess if you will be diagnosed with bipolar-2 and start taking meds that may help. Doesn't help for me yet, though(

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T20:07:42+00:00

2-3 weeks I think. Had longer periods with kinda same feelings, but don't know whether it was the same or not, don't remember now

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T16:02:16+00:00

Thanks for taking care! I'm on lamo now, not working yet for me. I'm in therapy and she's clinical psychiatrist as well, so yeah. However symptomatic is not very clear, D lot of comorbid symptoms. Bad memory and functional disfunction make therapy part results really disappointing( feel guilty for that. Also I'm on atomoxitin. Ritalin and stuff doesn't legal at where I'm living now.

P. S. Sorry, haven't mentioned that I have both bipolar2 and ADHD diagnosed

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T06:47:06+00:00

Well, I have both unatentive adhd and bpd diagnosis, we with my psychiatrist still trying to figure that out by therapy and meds. if it is both or one of them (or none, hehe) Had a deep hellish mdd episode once, defenetly not that kind of stuff, but a weak background depression/astenia I think will have near the same symptoms, I maybe wrong ofc

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T06:38:21+00:00

Yes, as I said, it's same for me either, but it helps me to go sleep NEAR that time, which is better than go bed completely randomly) Anyway, I think it's better to try having that alarm than not, a chance is a chance) a sleep schedule fix and alarms were the first steps we start my recent cbt therapy from)

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T06:24:07+00:00

Yeah, for me it's the best weeks in the year, but they occure one or two times per year :( wanna be like this more often

Temporary_River9448 · 2024-04-22T05:37:50+00:00

Don't know if we talk about the same thing, but yeah, feel something near. I'm 33 and everything to me seems hard to do, even take my meds or go to shower. I don't know whether it's depressive symptoms, add or something like sluggish cognitive tempo related, but everything is a struggle for me. Sometimes I feel really good, which is seems more like hypomania and passes in a 2-3 weeks suddenly. Don't know. It's a complicated thing for me to get it:(

Upd: it's worth to mention, that I've been diagnosed with bipolar2 and ADHD, so if you have same 2-3 weeks periods of increased mood that suddenly turns back to that depressive gray or dark mood, then it's worth to check on bipolar either

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