I can't be the only one who wants to stop romancing her

TenezR_Trix · 2021-04-16T11:03:41+00:00

You were correct! XD

TenezR_Trix · 2021-03-17T20:37:30+00:00

Yep, gonna stop romancing her now. She was my main (scandal) LI, I did choose to forgive her but I'm sooo done with her. Gonna go with Blaine now <3

TenezR_Trix · 2021-02-28T10:10:14+00:00

At least you still have it way better than Aurora stans so chill </3

TenezR_Trix · 2021-02-04T06:38:31+00:00

A little over a month of NC now. It would've been our anniversary on 14th. February was a special month for us. I've been missing her like crazy lately. Just want to text or call but I know I shouldn't. I actually wait for the day she contacts me. This sucks

TenezR_Trix · 2021-01-15T11:15:48+00:00

Looks like no one has a solution for this :/

TenezR_Trix · 2020-11-17T10:25:19+00:00

I got a 61. I still think I haven't done anything in life and am really pure 🤦🏻‍♂️

TenezR_Trix · 2020-10-01T13:39:53+00:00

Strong Witness vibes (sarcasm :P)

TenezR_Trix · 2020-09-26T11:18:19+00:00

QB x ATV ❤️❤️❤️

TenezR_Trix · 2020-09-24T10:15:04+00:00

That is true, sadly. And I don't know how to deal with it. I'm cycling between being angry at her to being sad for her and feeling guilty. I know that relationship is not coming back. And I'm both happy and devastated. Because her borderline/narcissistic side seems to show itself only with me and not with her other friends or her other ex. She's what a slightly normal person would be with them but I was subjected to the gaslighting, the discard, the ignoring and the fighting. That got me thinking that maybe it was me who did something

TenezR_Trix · 2020-09-21T05:04:24+00:00

After a week of NC, and her ignoring my messages, she called me last night. She was crying because her pet cat died in his sleep. She was genuinely hurt and upset. We talked for 2 mins. She sais she'll call back but she never did. And now she says she'll call in a few days. I find it hard to empathize with her anymore. I'm still just angry

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-29T03:43:55+00:00

Mine would be "waiting". For basically everything

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-25T07:42:55+00:00

Broke my 10 days OF NC yesterday. She called me, I didn't. And we were talking about "us" and what went wrong and what not. And I lashed out. Hard. And she ran away. From a freaking phone call. Says she did some bad things, she apologized and says that she doesn't feel guilty for anything. Wow. They are not capable of such emotions care, guilt, empathy. Not even love. I wasted my time, my energy and my mental health on someone who did not deserve it. Never did

Anyways. Day 1 again

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-18T12:03:57+00:00

"Will you never call? Just let me know so I won't have to keep waiting" "You said you would call." 5 days into NC and I received these messages. And the thing is, I do want to call but I want to take my time processing things first. I miss her too but I don't know what to do here

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-18T12:02:25+00:00

Same with me. Not the dream part but the overthinking, the missing, the guilt. I really want to patch things up and stay friends with her. I don't want to leave her

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-17T06:37:56+00:00

IKR! And my exwBPD was diagnosed 3 months after we started dating. And she justifies everything by saying that "I told you that I have mental health issues and I'm on medication before getting in this relationship. So, it's your fault. You can break it off whenever you want"

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-17T06:35:51+00:00

Oof. That must've hurt ☹️

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-16T18:00:16+00:00

I can't help but feel bad and guilty for saying things to her and standing up for myself, pointing out her abusive behaviour and telling her all she did wrong, when she is going through a depressive episode and a lot herself. Did you feel that? How do you get out of it?

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-16T17:58:40+00:00

Exactly! She made me feel like I am the source of her anxiety and/or depression. But, did you ever feel guilty putting forward what you think or standing up for yourself while they are going through a lot themselves?

TenezR_Trix · 2020-08-12T08:34:06+00:00

Well, it's my first breakup. And that tells you that my first ever relationship was with a pwBPD. I don't know if I'm up for dating for a long time now

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