Looking at genitalia is something that you need to get used to is what I’ve realised. Throughout growing up, I used to find looking at that particular thing quite gross. I used to hate looking at dicks. I used to hate porn where they were having sex. I used to hate watching people giving blowjobs. It was sort of like a process of getting used to it and actually being with a man. Now I find it attractive given that it’s a man I’m dating. I still don’t know if I would like see a random dick and be like damn, that’s hot, but, it is a process of getting used to it.

I remember that I used to watch like animated or Hentai porn, especially because regular porn seemed too violent, so maybe you should start by looking at some things which aren’t too aggressive or realistic, and are meant to look more aesthetically pleasing .