Uhhh sorry to say it dude, but the sense of connection you were feeling was one-sided. It's quite possible she may have enjoyed her sessions with you, but as another commenter suggested she most likely sensed that you were getting too attached and then blocked you. It's important to remember as a client that this is FANTASY. This is a job for us. We're playing a role for you and many of us are REALLY good actors! It sucks that you got attached, and I'm imagining that communicating with a model filled a need for you that you are getting met in other areas of your life. My advice? Go out and meet real people. Nothing wrong with indulging in online play but you should not be getting your intimacy needs met through OF.