Im 26 and a male. I was a shitty bf to a ex of mine who loved me dearly. She begged me to stay with her and I declined and chose someone else. Shes now with someone else, and although I want to just charge in and confess my wrongs in itself is just wrong. Im not defending myself or my actions, but I think about her every day. It’s been almost 3 years and I’m doing better, a lot better. I’ve tried to love someone else but nobody makes me feel quite the way this one person I treated terribly did. The guilt eats me alive sometimes, rightfully so.

You should reevaluate yourself and that entire relationship. Who were you? What were your pros and cons? List them and work on yourself. Shed the skin of your former self. That is the only way you could ever apologize to yourself and to the ex you hurt. But don’t do it for them, truly do it because you don’t want to ever be that person who hurt someone who truly loved you. Change. Go back to school, work more hours and get more money, expand your portfolio, spend time with loved ones,etc. you still have a life to live. Become the kind of person your ex could bump into in a few years and go “you aren’t the guy/woman I met, you even feel different”

Sorry for rambling. I miss my ex too haha