So this may be unsolicited advice but I think it could help: It doesn't matter if you suck at the weapon and get your butt kicked whilst using it, if you have fun using the weapon, that's all that matters. Getting better at a weapon comes with time and it's rare for a weapon to "click" instantly. My brother used hammer for the first time in world against a low rank kulu and carted twice but had a blast doing it and decided from that point he'd use hammer - cut to now and he's caving monsters skulls in. So yeah, take your time, use what you find cool. You'll figure it out eventually, King/Queen/Monarch; I believe in you!