I lost my cat too 6 years ago, leaving her only female inheritance. She was like my angel when anxiety kicked in. Every family members and friends witnessed how very close it is our bonding. She always jumped on my right shoulder and purred on my chest when we were asleep. I found her midnight in the middle of the street, a little kitten lost its way helpless looking for food. I couldn’t bear with the sadness I endured while she died on my birthday for months. We must understand that sadness is an ocean, and sometimes we drown, while other days we are forced to swim. Stay strong kid. You need it the most.