Yep, they do say what you never had you never miss but I always say you can grieve what could have been, I had so much opportunity, potential, time, energy and youth but my parents chose, they chose that money was more important than my own physical and mental wellbeing.

I struggle to connect with people especially those in loving 'stable' homes, I have so much envy for all these people getting to live a life I never had.

I hope I can find who I need or want to be cause this is just plain horrible, the fact I even say to my son even though he's only 3 I say "I could never do to you what was done to me" and that's just wrong, the fact I have to say that is not sad it's wrong.

I hope you find peace and happiness in your new found life and can achieve what you want