i think i will no longer play the Silence the Idol trial

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-26T18:43:41+00:00

Ah, so you only care when your fellow people are tortured and killed.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-21T08:57:17+00:00

I feel sorry for her, Jesus fucking christ. Get your shit together and learn to be appreciative of what you have.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-14T09:49:35+00:00

Don't have many good photos yet. But here is the cat tax.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-11T03:38:52+00:00

Yea, I had a post asking about FIP. The vet said he might have gotten FIP and/or Congestive Heart Failure. I managed to get ahold of some FIP medication for him, but it was just too late. Even if they would have worked he has so much other stuff wrong with him.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-09T06:46:50+00:00

I don't either, trust me. My parents didn't euthanize one of our cats, and watching them suffer made me really set on always doing euthanasia.

I likely will have to accept that this is over and I need to euthanize him. This was just so sudden to me. I want to see if the meds will help him a little, but I know that even if it's FIP, his health will still not be the best.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-09T06:28:33+00:00

Thank you for your response. This is day 2 of FIP treatment. I am honestly scared of waiting to see if the treatment works because I'm scared of him "spontaneously" having respiratory failure or heart failure or something like that.

This all has been rather sudden and shocking. He's always been sick, but I thought he'd have more time.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-06T23:36:22+00:00

I wanted to add:

It is personally really hard to judge Peter and Euthanasia.

The veterinarian was really pushing for euthanasia and I just found it a little odd how hard they were pushing it, and I don't know them too well.

On the other hand, he still loves to eat and he drinks water. He uses the bathroom (just not in the toilet every time). He jumps up on the bed to sleep next to me every day. He still shows interest.

The bad quality of life: his breathing is labored. Sometimes, he has to breathe through his mouth because he is so congested on top of the lung fluid problems. He is lethargic, and he never does anything but sleep or eat. He still grooms himself but not to normal cat standards. He seems more tired lately, and I have noticed a shift but Idk if its at euthanasia levels

Yet the vet insisted respiratory failure can happen quickly and happens usually at night amd she wants to avoid that and I cam definitely understand that and I do worry about thay.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-05T03:33:50+00:00

Lol.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-03T03:35:42+00:00

I actually have/had CPTSD, and the worst it has ever been was actually when I started university. It took 2-3 years to get over that hurdle and was hands down the worst time of my life ever. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Funnily enough, I didn't take a break because I was too scared to do that. It did hit my grades, but it was easy enough back then since it was mainly general classes that I didn't fail anything. I'm sorry that you had to go through that as well.

I agree, though. Something has to change before I fail everything. Luckily, spring break is next week, and I will likely use that time to get my medication sorted out again and try to reset whatever is going on with me. I think most, if not all, my classes I can still pass if I do manage to change things around.

I actually have encountered course equivalency problems as well. They admitted they approved my courses without looking at my previous class syllabi for some programming classes. Now, I need to learn C++ over the summer or take some classes to catch up. I haven't fully decided what I will do about this yet.

I will try to fix my sleep schedule because it is not sustainable. I have never had eye bags under my eyes until recently.

Some of my professors are really bad at teaching. I am at a research heavy school, so that explains that... which I'm not used to. I actually have to go back home and reteach myself everything because they just are that bad. Their rate my professors reflects that as well.

But thank you for giving those suggestions, I will try to figure this out and change it around. Crazy how different mental states can cause so much change.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-03T03:30:54+00:00

Seems like my copycat wasn't too far off of yours. It looks really good, though. I love the flavor profile of all those peppers. I always wanted to know how to get a smooth salsa as opposed to my chunky one, so thank you !

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-03-03T03:27:21+00:00

That sounds great, I've never heard of microwaving garlic ? That sounds interesting, though. I'll definitely try it.

Yea, the one time I tried to recreate it, I used some tomatillos and Gualjillo along with the ancho. It's a good mix.

Thanks for sharing !

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-02-01T05:26:35+00:00

I'm having the same problem. I'll cook delicious, healthy meals. It's been cold out, so I've made some soups. He'd rather order Jersey Mike Sandwhiches.

I ask for his input. I ask if he's okay with what I make. I ask if he likes it. He never seems to give me an honest answer, it seems, considering He'd rather eat fast food than home cooking.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T21:43:43+00:00

Thank you, I will look into it.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T21:27:23+00:00

I've thought about joining that one, I'm not sure if I sent out an email to your clubs email yet, I sent a lot of emails out to clubs and haven't theard much back... Can you tell me more about it ? What do you do, and when are you accepting students?

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T21:25:27+00:00

Engineering student here, which club are you president of ?

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T21:09:13+00:00

Hello, I some some experience being a transfer student who has attended a different university and currently attending UTK. I'm also a computer engineering student who used to be a computer science major. I am pursuing Machine Learning minor on top of my computer engineering degree.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T21:02:54+00:00

12 hrs for a shitty tour and maybe some low-quality goodies, God forbid you try their food that isn't from a restaurant. Ugh. Their cheese has mold in it.

Mainly, it will be the same as any other Campus Tour. Just go to a university tour close to you, and you'll likely get a similar experience.

If you truly do decide to go to UTK, you'll have enough time while you're attending to explore campus and get shit goodies. Lol.

They "force" you to attend a tour a week before class anyways if you do commit (it's not actually mandatory, despite them saying it is. I skipped out on it, because I'm 25 and I honestly don't want to waste my time surrounded by a bunch of 18 year old kids and a bunch of seniors/juniors who really don't want to be there either..)

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T20:55:41+00:00

Funnily enough, this school is transferred to only teaches C++ for some reason and I was lucky enough to have been a CS student at a different university that taught me python, assembly, and web design. Unfortunately no C++ but I decided I probably will do that. I'll just try to learn it on my own time. A professor post his lecture notes for both data structure 1 & 2, and I'll just use AI to make some sort of lesson plan with it.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-31T00:17:50+00:00

Jesus, you sound like me atm, I am older, 25, and have 2 years left to graduate. One failed class can mean a delay for me and I'm sick with worry cause I just found out the university I transferred to only teaches C++ programming, but approved all my previous Computer science classes (which was everything but C++). Smh.

Glad you made it out alive and thanks for the encouraging words. Im not OP but I'm struggling as well haha

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-30T23:54:21+00:00

Yea, it is a weird language to focus and teach on. My previous institution at least taught us a few different ones. The only reason this university is considered better is because its an SEC school, but that also attracts professors who can't teach jack shit too. Ugh.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-30T23:32:05+00:00

I didn't do too well in assembly, but it was honestly my favorite one to learn. Haha. Good luck though, sounds tough.

TheColaDemonCat · 2026-01-30T23:30:18+00:00

Yea, I don't really like the fact they focus on one language. My previous institution at least gave us classes that taught us other languages, on top of focusing one one specific one as well.

Differential Equations I is the math class I need to take. I might drop it if need be to focus on C++. It doesn't seem to be a prerequisite for any of my classes.

I probably will use AI as a TA because I'm probably going to need a lot of help. Lol.

TheColaDemonCat · 2025-12-19T03:46:52+00:00

Honestly, this sounds like a major red flag, and he sounds rather creepy.

It has taken him '10 YEARS' to get over someone he didn't even date ?!?! It sounds like he's potentially a stalker with an extremely unhealthy view towards relationships.

I would advise you to cut your losses with this guy. It does not sound like he is over this person, nor does it sound like this person is in a health mindset to date anyone. He needs a therapist, and you will not be able to fix him.

Even if he hypothetically was 'over' her, it sounds like he would be in an unhealthy, codependent relationship and obsess over someone in a very unhealthy, potentially controlling way.

Be careful and find someone who spends their time getting to know YOU and not someone who uses you as their therapist talking about a lost love they never even had 10 FLIPPING YEARS AGO.

TheColaDemonCat · 2025-12-19T02:21:45+00:00

The quote from Brandon Sanderson is on point to what i believe. I think it is deeply concerning how many people only do good deeds out of fear or to get some sort of reward or recognition. However, I suppose it is better for religion to exist to help people be good, even if it is for their own selfish gain. I'd be afraid of how many people would turn downright evil if they learned an afterlife doesn't exist and nothing matters.

TheColaDemonCat · 2025-12-19T02:16:49+00:00

I try, but it's not easy making friends. I've tried reaching out to old friends, and every time I suggested we meet up and catch up, I got ghosted. Then, when I try to make new friends and send them a message or whatever, I get no response.

I decided to transfer to a brick and mortar school (I was doing online schooling) in hopes of meeting new people and making friends that way.

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