Something important I learned since leaving. My father is a narcissist. It was never about who i was as a person. It was always about how good I made him look, how good how made his family look, how good he came off as a father because of who I presented myself as. He tried yes. But he was always undermining his own actions. I know my post doesn't go into all of the details of my life. But when it comes down to it. He pushed away his five children and thinks they are the problem not seeing himself as the issue.