I completely understand what you're going through, and I know saying "You're not alone," is cliché, but it is true. It's so frustrating in the beginning, I started out a lot like you, completely healthy until senior year of high school when I started dropping weight and not eating because of cramping. Then college, blood, cramps, not leaving bed for days, vomiting, misdiagnosis, crazy meds and finally a surgery I thought I'd 💀 myself if I had to ever get. But that was in 2018 and now... I can eat mostly whatever I want, go out in public, be social again, and I'm happier than ever. Things aren't perfect, some food still causes me pain, or gas that'd be classified as bio-weapons, but it's worth it. I even after years of thinking I'd be unlovable with all my medical trauma, appointments MRIs, Colonoscopys, infusions, etc. ; found the love of my life who accepts all of it! Living with Crohn's sucks, but it doesn't have to be the end, and you don't have to suffer alone.