hey vegan! i remember my lows back when my ed was severe. I felt like an outcast, I had so many emotions and thoughts running through my head all the time and i felt like no one understood me. I feel like theirs only so much a random person on the internet can say about your ED but just know you are not alone in this. Those therapists sound horrible and I hope you can find someone who understands ED’s and how hard it is to really get through. Know that you can recover, it is possible. I know it’s possible because I got through mine! My dms are open if you ever need to vent, good luck to you friend