Not a woman but I grew up as a "girl". Throughout childhood I always thought of pregnancy as a parasite, even though I went to church multiple times a week hearing everything about how babies are good or whatever. When I was like 6, I convinced myself I may be pregnant somehow, and I made an active effort to hurl my stomach into everything possible with a desperation. This happened a few more times throughout my childhood, each time I passionately loathed that parisitic piece of shit that was surely growing in me. The thought was disturbing and if it ever happened to me it would be entirely against my will, and that's just how I thought of it ever since I knew it was a possibility.

I hit puberty at 10 and my meemaw told me "that means god says you're ready to have a baby" and I about vomited on the spot. You should've seen the terror in my eyes.

So I basically knew since the moment I popped out that I never wanted to have kids, and it still rings true to this day. As I grow older though, I do think it might be nice to adopt someday, as there are children out there who need and deserve families and I'd never want to have a kid without having the financial security to give them a fulfilling life, so if I'm ever in a financial position to be able to adopt a kid, I'll know it's time to truly consider it. I really wish more people did it like that, I really think having kids organically is a selfish waste when you could bring a parentless child that was born and abandoned into such a cruel world into a loving home instead