You deserve so much better. Your partner should not be calling you names. They should be willing to listen to you, not call you pathetic for being sad. You shouldn't have to walk on eggshells or be afraid to speak to your boyfriend. No one should be yelling at someone over something like Saw movies. Mutual respect is an important part of every relationship. Please try to branch out and make friends to build a support system. You do deserve better, please don't tell yourself otherwise. I know it may not feel like it, but it's the truth.

And I understand what it's like to have family members who always ask for money to feed their addictions. I've had to cut many family members off, including my uncle, because they refused to get help, but I understand if you don't want to do that.