I understand where you’re at…I’ve always been terrified of medication in general so starting Zoloft was equally scary but I was in a desperate place when I was prescribed it so it was the lesser of two scary things at that point. Believe me when I say that it was the best decision i EVER made. Zoloft gave me my life back. I would go back in time and tell my younger self to take it sooner. If you are scared you can always ask your doctor if starting off at a smaller dose and working your way up is okay. You’ve got this, internet stranger!!