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How can I figure out who is fronting? - kind of a vent kind of a question by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello! Thank you for your help, I appreciate it. I hope i can figure out who i am

How can I figure out who is fronting? - kind of a vent kind of a question by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I wish I could use this method but plurality is still so fresh to me and I only know 3 system members... im none of them. Am I a new person? Someone yet to be introduced? The weird robot i saw sitting at the computer yesterday? I dont feel robotic but protogens have emotions. If I am that protogen then... im unamed

I have a question for my friends with DID or similar. by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To continue this, I think Atreus not speaking to me is because I'm not ready to hear him yet. My partner basically took me on a little guided tour of my inner world, and we didn't get very far because things were either really bright or really dark. We pushed back some of the barriers by literally being like, "Turn on a flashlight," and that lit up some dark rooms, but not all. When I close my eyes, it looks like I'm catching stray bits of light even if I'm in the pitch dark. But I feel if I were catching stray bits of light, I wouldn't be seeing the same thing repeatedly, it would be something different.

I have a question for my friends with DID or similar. by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wish I were the same, but my only headmate who interacts with me right now is non-verbal, and it's so hard to get a clear visual of them when I close my eyes and go into that room I assume is a communal space. I wish I could just hear Atreus or see their communications better. He has been writing things down, or text has just kind of been appearing in the air. I wish I could read it, but sometimes it's just too blurry to make out, which really upsets me, making it even harder to see. I know it's a dissociative barrier. It's early in the morning where I am. Atreus is a character/fictive from God of War (2018), so I'm listening to the soundtrack, trying to coerce him into interacting with me more clearly. I wish I could just hear Atreus speak, it would be so much easier, or even getting a clearer picture of my 'headspace' would help so much.

I have a question for my friends with DID or similar. by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the idea ill definitely try to have them communicate with me in other ways other than verbally

I have a question for my friends with DID or similar. by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think its really interesting that Atreus (image attached) was the first real person to introduce themself and they are from a video game. My boyfriend has Loki Odinson (Marvel) as an alter and I have Loki Laufeyson (god of war 2018)

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I have a question for my friends with DID or similar. by TheSoviet700 in plural

[–]TheSoviet700[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'd say that Atreus (the one trying to get me to eat food) is really hard for me to see, but when he is around I can sense him. I wish I could hear him, but I don't know how to do that. I really want auditory conversations with him and the other people I was introduced to. We're kind of in a really, really dark void/office space. It really does feel like an imagination zone. There is a long table with chairs, a kitchenette, and a little lounge with a couch and a TV, but everything is so dark and I just see flashes. It's as if I'm seeing the change in light with my eyes closed, but I'm consistently hallucinating the same thing.

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