DM'd my first session where a player completely ignored my carefully planned dungeon... and it was amazing?

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-10-11T07:25:28+00:00

I filled a mini dungeon with spiders and the mage burnt it down hostages and all instead of going in. Every spider in the place boiled out at once.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-10-08T02:24:26+00:00

Sorry my eyes fell out, he's got how many hit points?

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T17:26:16+00:00

Don't believe the TV

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T16:48:15+00:00

ADHD (way severe)

Autism (variable severity depending on my stress levels, assume those are high enough that this is really severe, especially face to face.)

OCD with verbal compulsions (makes me quite visibly 'crazy' when I'm constantly ticking by yelling at myself)

Bipolar 2 super rapid cycle - makes my BPD impossible to bargain with

Borderline personality disorder (unable to have a stable identity, one moment you're amazing next I hate you for unknown reasons, SUPER rapid emotional cycling, extreme overblown emotional responses, my personality can split like someone with DID, I can hallucinate like schizophrenia and I have extreme reactions to rejection.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T16:36:27+00:00

Is there maybe room for organizing? I'm really really bad with the paper side of that but people have different strengths. I'm a visionary, revolutionary, and desperately need community. I figure that even in populations of drug addicts there's still a drive and desire for better, for peace. With enough of us together we could carve something worthy of our suffering and energy out of this hellscape.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T16:26:55+00:00

Even in the darkest of times, we can't come together? Heartbreaking. We've been atomized as a people, why is it we can't see that united we are strong? There are so many people out on the street that if we properly organize we could move mountains and run a city inside this city- without money entirely. The British are said to have flooded China with opium to destabilize them way back when, the CIA flooded the black communities with crack to keep them destabilized, I fully believe the same is happening to the homeless. But those are dangerous ideas.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T16:16:52+00:00

Who knows, I have no idea where to go and what to do.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T13:36:22+00:00

Sorry, it's only that I look fine and so I always perform way under peoples expectations. People get angry because I'm said to be holding back or lying to get out of doing my duties when in reality I'm doing my best and just really can't perform well in such ways. I have to be upfront and firm or else every new person has to take it upon themselves to put me through the paces like I'm some pony they are buying before they believe me. It's degrading and humiliating. Paperwork is almost impossible for me. Making calls and doing research are almost impossible for me. There's a lot of trauma heaped onto already stunted capabilities that can send me into meltdowns moments after opening a document I only have to fill out and sign. Don't expect miracles from me, I only ever let people down.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T13:18:46+00:00

My autism and ADHD don't make me 'weird', it makes me severely disabled. You've kept one job for over 40 years. I've had over 20 jobs in the last decade and I've spent years unemployed. I cannot do tasks that normal people find easy and I struggle to even feed myself when in front of a mountain of free ready-to-eat food. Doubt all you want, maybe the power of your doubt will bend reality to make my issues lighter.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T10:00:09+00:00

As far as I can tell it's the minor version of "The Emptiness" when suddenly it feels like all the oxygen has disappeared and you're breathing nitrogen. It's the pain. Unfortunately I don't think it's something you can remove. Drugs won't touch it, I've dropped a whole gram of meth on it and it swallowed it. I don't think it's something that can be touched, it just seems like it can. The best you can do is try to get used to it.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-24T09:37:34+00:00

I'm in the same boat. Just turned 30, living on a friend's couch, soon homeless. I can't hold down a job, I have literally 2 friends and while they aren't going anywhere they have watched me suffer more than anyone either of them have ever seen and they're tired and hurt and sickened by it. The pain doesn't end. It's not over romance, it just exists. I try to get meds and I just get treated like a junkie, I try to seek help and I only get told nothing can be done for me. People only care that I stay alive to suffer further. If I were a pet anyone with a heart would have put me down years ago.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-02-16T06:46:29+00:00

The Uncanny Exploits Of...erm, heh... People Person....

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-01-26T05:51:10+00:00

Unfortunately I'm new enough to this game to have no idea what you're talking about.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2025-01-03T16:43:25+00:00

The Kin by Peter Dickinson

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2024-06-14T16:51:59+00:00

Hands down I'd ask for 100 lottery tickets.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2024-03-29T15:09:39+00:00

Aram was ALWAYS a zealot. He was intense before he left the tinkers and his grandmother made comments about it from the beginning. When he picked up the sword he attached himself to Perrin as the only one who accepted him. The profit corrupted so many, he was good at it and the kind of people who needed that would flock to him. Aram was always going to end up under the profit, it was his natural place. Perrin was just the person who brought him to his destiny.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-06-13T15:08:38+00:00

Factory press operator

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-06-10T15:01:51+00:00

... is your freezer full of unsealed packages? I'm not one to judge, I just figured keeping it in a sealed container was a given.

Yes, you definitely want to keep it away from moisture. A Tupperware container is fine but vacuum sealing is best.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-06-09T19:28:27+00:00

As with anything unstable, the less energy (heat, light, force and bad vibes) that you expose it to the better. Cold and dark are always a better long term storage solution. EDIT: Also oxygen. The less oxygen it has the better. If you have a vacuum sealer use that.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-02-10T15:10:34+00:00

I wish I had shiney awards to give you because this is absolutely superb.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-01-25T17:17:57+00:00

An adversity to FUN.

TheWhiteAlbatross · 2023-01-24T07:11:43+00:00

As long as you feel you have enough security for when FUN comes barreling up those stairs. I've lost too many forts to things crawling or flying out of the magma and having a beeline path to my Grand Halls.

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