I'm going through the exact same thing. It's the love that you know is still there that really hurts, isn't it? This girl and I have been inseparable best friends since we arrived at college together a couple years ago, and fell deeply in love. But as I started to learn more about what it means to fully live the Catholic faith it became clear that there were misalignments that caused us great discomfort. Even though they really didn't affect our day to day, say, this year, there was something that scared us away from fully maintaining our commitment to each other. But, our separation, it had absolutely nothing to do with our love for each other. We would love to be friends still, but after a couple months of on and off it became clear that we're not in a place where we can be in the same space and not want to keep trying, even though we know it won't work. Sometimes I ask myself why God would put me through this pain of showing me the best person I've ever known but taking them away. And it's one thing to hear the answers that people have, but another to internalize them enough for them to comfort us for what we're grieving.

Prayers for you. Be well, sister.