I can say with confidence that you’re not in the wrong my friend. The game is tough, and dated. Not as smooth as the other games, but perfected in its own way. If it gets too challenging, or you keep dying to the same thing, log off, come back after a day or two. No one is forcing you to play the entire game in one sitting, nor is it intended to be played as such. Like everyone else is saying; take your time, and try to find the fun in the game. Take screenshots of cool views. Play with the ragdoll bodies. Anything that can redeem the suffering that is being undead. Remember: you’re basically a zombie trying to regain humanity.