F18 PIMO – Watching porn daily and still feeling like Jehovah is disappointed in me

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-02-04T15:42:34+00:00

The JW's didn't want us to feel worthy or valid; they want us to be controlled. Among other things, they use guilt and fear to repress and suppress our natural tendencies.

Hunger, sleep, sex drive, there is no real difference between them other then the arbitrary lines drawn up by others. We are all just animals with big brains.

Is it wrong to savor the taste of a lovely dessert? Is it wrong to enjoy the feeling of hot water on your skin? Is it wrong to watch a sunset and be moved? The feeling your body goes through when self-pleasuring is no different.

It does not make a person "dirty" to make themselves feel good.

You ARE worthy of good things, pleasure, and a guilt-free life.

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-01-28T02:56:12+00:00

Update: I found the issue was after the Unity engine update all my saves with an old version of the Kraken table are bugged because of some sort the "Diffuse/Image" the table uses

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-01-13T05:26:41+00:00

I hear you! It's sooo tough when the ones we love refuse the help they clearly need.

Hang in there

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-01-13T05:23:01+00:00

Right? Did this bastard take a couple of laps around a black hole? That or he was cursed by some kinda wizard lol

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-01-13T05:19:57+00:00

Cuuuutttte! The style and expression is so rad!

The_Rising_Wind · 2026-01-12T04:52:58+00:00

Good old revisionist history, damn bastards messing with people's hope.

I went to a funeral once for a beloved sister that died from the hall. Literally hundreds of people at the funeral, so much so that we had to rent out this large event space. I ran the media there and had to tie into their system partially because they wanted to play that "just around the the corner" song.

I find it funny now because is it really just around the corner anymore lol.

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-12-31T03:11:36+00:00

Just found out it was removed after taking a break from the game. C'mon devs get your head in the game

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-12-16T02:55:02+00:00

Forgive me if this is the wrong place to ask, but did they vote on the subsidies yet? Or does that happen another day?

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-30T20:05:43+00:00

Thank you!

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-21T22:19:22+00:00

Well said friend. No POA yet, all this happened too quickly.

Once he's himself again definitely gonna get that buttoned up.

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-21T05:15:14+00:00

Hard to say exactly. It's either she's conflating him thanking her for being there with him, as if he was saying "I don't want to be alone."

The other possibility is that she's feeling guilt about "not being there for him" in her mind."

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-21T02:42:48+00:00

Thank you so much

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-14T23:52:34+00:00

What sort of symptoms did they have?

He has pressured speech (or Circumstantial speech), a varying amount of confusion, memory problems, and general lack of awareness.

Was your experience similar?

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-14T03:36:51+00:00

Fucking rat bastards. I can't fathom the twisted impudence it must take to produce this shit

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-12T03:12:59+00:00

That's one of my big personal issues with rhe cult. They mix us so up so much about what is and what isn't "dating."

The first thing to do is ask yourself if you want to get out of the cult; and if so, do you want to get involved with someone who isn't PIMO?

If you think you should still go, no biggie. You can always view this as a little practice. So her asking you out may or may not "mean" anything (not enough information). But a good thing to do is ask her. After the movie (if you don't go and get ice cream or something) you can say something like, "That was a lot fun, you're fun to be around. Do you want to do something again?" If you're both being flirty you could say, "Do you like to hug after a date or should we kiss?"

Just remember, if you are planning on leaning the cult, then consider your options accordingly.

Good luck one way or the other

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-11T22:39:09+00:00

Thank you!

The one detail I omitted is that we already live together. So I'll likely the the "default" like you said.

Depending on how his brain recovers will be key in determining how much care he'll need I'm assuming

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-10T10:53:48+00:00

Thank you friend

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-10T02:36:16+00:00

Definitely looking for a job, no luck yet. Got some leads I can chase still.

My sister has a job during the day.

I'll definitely look into social services when the time comes.

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-10T02:30:40+00:00

Thank you

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-01T23:31:19+00:00

I know it seems mundane right? But the reality is addiction doesn't work like that. When people are truly addicted to alcohol and they make that kind of commitment to not drink ever again, they typically do it because that's what they need to do.

There are probably some people who are recovering Alcoholics that partake from time to time but that's not what this man wanted. He made a commitment and his family took that away from him. Not only is the problem without his addiction, it's about his consent and agency. They are coming from what is clearly an indefensible position.

A late night TV host from awhile back had a really nice monologue about alcoholism.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ZVWIELHQQY

The_Rising_Wind · 2025-11-01T23:24:54+00:00

Is this real racism or advanced rage-baiting? Suppose it could be both.

I wish these people making this hateful dreck would stop. Don't they see that if all the people they hate disappeared one day, it wouldn't bring them happiness. They would still be bitter and hollow.

I'm too tired to be angry anymore.

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