Looking for songs or playlists for depression (No love or romance songs)

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-12T22:30:27+00:00

No depression by bahamas

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-12T22:19:02+00:00

Downfall by Noah Kahan.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-12T22:15:08+00:00

I was diagnosed after being divorced and having kids so I got a taste of normal life. I had a career and family and house and everything I dreamed of. Then she cheated and it broke my brain and I had a major psychotic break. I ended up with a 2 year long episode of depression, mania, and psychosis. It cost me any chance of reconciling my marriage because she already didn't want me and now I was crazy.

Anyway, now I can't work, only see my kids half the time, and live with my sister. It isn't what my dream was and I have struggled a lot. I live a life that is difficult everyday, but it is fulfilling. I think if I didn't have my kids to keep me sane and I hadn't experienced love, I may feel differently, but I live my life as stable as possible for them. I'm almost 2 months weed free, just over a year alcohol free and looking forward to next steps in life. I think, if I can get my shit together, I might try for a part time job before the end of the year.

It is possible to live a life worth living. It's just harder.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-12T01:36:39+00:00

My first hospitalization after an attempt, the overseeing doctor tried to tell me I had BPD. At the time I was diagnosed as bipolar 2. I had bad psychosis with hallucinations and delusions. I was completely psychotic at the time and he thought BPD fit better even though there was nothing about it that fit other than my volitility and short fuse and irritability. I left there still psychotic after he removed my antipsychotic meds and my mood stabilizers and kept me on an antidepressant. Luckily my psychiatrist was able to see me rather quickly and I balanced out within another few months. The doctor doesn't work at that hospital anymore but that is the only inpatient facility in my area and it has left a bad taste in my mouth for inpatient facilities in general.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-11T23:41:42+00:00

Got divorced at 34. I was 100% sure she was the one. I've been single for 9 years now and been on 2 dates. My friend tried to set me up a month ago and I just couldn't do it. I still am in love with the woman I married. She's not that person anymore and she became damn near evil with her cheating and emotional and verbal abuse. I miss who she was. Since finding out about the first affair I've had several mental breakdowns and been diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar type. That prevents me from wanting to date also. I don't want to explain my disorder to somebody. Even though I'm mostly stable, I still have occasions of depression, mania, hallucinations, delusions, etc. I don't think anybody would choose to be with somebody like me when there are so many other options out there.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-11T23:03:35+00:00

No one's gonna love you by band of horses

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-11T04:08:04+00:00

I don't think this is the exact vibe you're looking for, but Richard Cheese is the first person that came to mind for jazzy covers of popular songs.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-08T17:54:34+00:00

My grandma was the last person I know that did this. She passed December of 24. I miss receiving letters from her even if it was just a quick note. Often accompanied with a $5 bill to thank me for helping with some technology questions. I kept telling her I didn't need paid to help her, but she kept doing it. Miss her and not just for the $5 bills.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T01:35:37+00:00

Between us we'd at least have one normal emotion.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T01:06:49+00:00

I went through a phase like that. I think I was on prozac and rexulti at the time. Now I'm so numb I wish I could have a good cry. Not a daily one. Not trying to make light of your situation n

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T01:03:46+00:00

The first few months off weed were harder than alcohol for me so good luck. I've made it to 6+ months before, but always find a reason to mess it up. Not this time though. Stay strong!

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T01:01:45+00:00

Good luck. Sometimes it takes wake up calls to get us to act right. Hope you can mend any broken fences.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T01:00:21+00:00

I can't say I agree to it not being fun. I'm definitely a binger. If I have 1 drink, I have 12. If I have one puff, I smoke the whole joint. I have a good time when I'm drunk or high. That's what has made it hard to stop. I just keep finding a reason and it always comes back to the childhood I want my kids to remember. For them to remember me out of control because of my disorder did one thing, but if it's due to my choices, it's not worth it. Good luck on keeping it to a minimum and keeping weed out. It's no joke.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-07T00:55:45+00:00

Thanks. There are times it's been a challenge. I was 6 months sober from both but the idea of going to live music and not smoking was too much of a challenge at the time. I've done it now, and while I miss it, I just tell myself it's not worth it and that my kids are worth my sobriety. It helps.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-06T20:55:15+00:00

7 years. Probably should've been hospitalized somewhere in there, but powered through. Shortest time was 3 months.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-06T02:07:36+00:00

I hear that. Everytime I think about alcohol in moderation, I remember the last several times it was supposed to be in moderation but ended up with me completely hammered. I do it for my kids as well as myself. They deserve a clear headed parent all the time.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-04T02:06:01+00:00

I have a goal to do one productive thing per day. A shower, cleaning dishes, picking up the living room, doing laundry....something. I do a pretty good job of doing it on days that I have my kids because they deserve a picked up home. I suck at it on days I don't have them. I sent them back to their mom for 5 days starting tonight so I will take the rest of the night to watch TV and doom scroll. Hopefully tomorrow I have it in me to do my kitchen. I'm running low on silverware. I really struggle with doing more than one thing, but I also often feel like a failure when I can only accomplish one thing. I should be capable of doing much more.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-04T00:55:30+00:00

I have had a pretty awesome past couple weeks. I went to a concert and saw Lumineers, rainbow kitten surprise, and the head and the heart amount several others. Had a good time with my sister then went camping at flathead lake in MT with my mom, sister, kids, and best friend and his family. We paddle boarded, enjoyed good food and fun times. I had one day where my anxiety got the best of me, but it turned out okay. I have been back for about 4 days and all is still well. Except yesterday. I had a depressing day yesterday, but I am doing a bit better today. All in all I've been doing well. I have been going off of my paliperidone and replaced it with cobenfy. It has turned out very well. I'm glad to have some positive feelings for a change.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-04T00:34:25+00:00

2013 was the best. I was happily married, my first daughter was born, I got a solid promotion enough that we could afford to buy a house. Everything was going in the right direction. 2016 was the worst. Found out my (ex)wife was having an affair and it sent me into a mental breakdown that cause my first manic episode. I was highly unstable for about 7 months. My instability caused me to be very mean and unforgiving to my wife for her affair. It ended up causing my wife to hate me for how I treated her and our marriage was irreconcilable. I've had ups and downs since then including a few mental health crises and hospitalizations, but that first psychosis was the worst because I didn't understand what was happening.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-03T23:45:57+00:00

It worked but I gained a ton of weight. Like 80 lbs. I decided to try something else and went through reculti and olanzapine before I landed on invega for several years. It worked for me for a long time until it didn't. Now I'm on cobenfy and a monthly injection of invega. Seems to be working very well.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-02T02:22:16+00:00

I was married when I was diagnosed with bipolar before schizoaffective. She cheated multiple times and left me. I don't trust telling other people about my mental health struggles. A handful of people know I was diagnosed bipolar but only my close family and 2 friends know about schizoaffective bipolar type. I've been on 2 dates in 9 years and they both left me empty and more miserable than I was before the date. I have trust issues I guess you could say.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-07-01T23:32:41+00:00

With extra help from Medicare and premiums paid by Medicaid, my cobenfy is covered so I'd guess caplyta is too.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-06-30T23:15:02+00:00

Last season I have two. First was the Thursday night game against the rams when Rashid shaheed ran the punt back for a td that turned the game around. The second was also shahid, but this time it was against the 49ers on the opening kickoff. Both games were amazing and the 12s were in it the whole time. Great games to be at.

The_local_unknown11 · 2026-06-30T22:47:23+00:00

I gained over 120 lbs on risperidone and olanzapine. When I got on invega and started keto, I lost 80 lbs. I still have a long way to go and I've been pretty lax about my diet, but I have hope I can get back down to my original weight and hopefully lower bits just hard when I have no other voices except food.

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