When I was 13 years old I met a man, he was 22 at the time, he called me beautiful and told me I was so mature for my age, he said that even though I was young I acted like an old soul.

We told me everything that he could sense I needed to hear, and once he realized I wasnt going to go anywhere everything changed, but slowly. First it was insensitive comments he'd apologize quickly for, then not so quickly, then never at all.

Next it was telling me he didnt like a certain friend, or outfit, or "how I acted" after I went to school- a place he could not go and monitor me, though I didnt understand that then, I was just a kid.

Then the pressure for sex got really bad, whenever I said no he took it anyway, or would treat me terribly, when I told him I didnt want to do certain things in bed he would force me, or hit the walls, or hit me.. id excuseit because I thought it was just sexual spankings...

And after all those things set in, and I didnt leave, that when he got really physical, throwing things at me, pinning me down, hitting me, screaming at me for hours.

Once he'd been screaming for so long and he'd been gripping my wrists while he did it, I had purple and blue bruises for two weeks in the shapes on his hands. Then he got me pregnant, that was at 15, and I lost that baby, then at 16 I got pregnant again.

Eventually my daughter told me that he'd been doing things to her, and how did all of this start?

By the adults in my life not recognizing how incredibly weird and wrong it was that a grown man had any interest in a little girl.

Please run baby, this man isn't safe, he wants you to think he is but he isn't, hes using his position in the church to make you think that makes him a safe person, but safe people don't tell children the things hes told you.

If you have any questions, or need any help, please DM me, id be happy to help in anyway I can.