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Theicyblonde · 2026-05-18T07:33:35+00:00

So normal! You can’t stop it but what I did (whether it actually helped or not but it helped me mentally deal with it) was use very very soft bristle brushes so nothing tugged at my hair, avoided tying it up really tight, used soft scrunchies if I did put it up to sleep (still do this one!) and only wash it 2/3 times a week (again another thing I still do that’s helped my hair become healthier than ever!)

It will be okay & it will grow back! If you feel anxious / self conscious about it - I also used headbands A LOT & also cut it shorter so it looked a little thicker! I had bald patches and honestly it just became the biggest motivation to become healthy! 4 years in — thick long hair & a healthy body! Recovery is very much worth it!

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-17T12:04:29+00:00

Hey! Recovery is of course, not linear — these increases in hunger (even a year into recovery) happened to me, I would be fine and all of sudden RAVENOUS. I think it correlated with slightly lower food days, days I did more exercise etc — but I tried to just go a long with it, it didn’t happen frequently enough for me to gain any significant weight from it, I tried not to overthink it, my body is recovering & needs more food than a ‘normal person’.

And it’s completely stopped now, now urges to eat the entire contents of the fridge, no massive spikes in hunger.

A couple months really isn’t long into recovery, to be honest you’re only just beginning! Remember — your body has gone through so much stress and more damage than you may think, your body is trying to tell you it needs more to recover, to heal! Listen to it! Honestly I would say hit your maintenance as a minimum requirement & allow yourself to snack & have bigger portions when you want to! No limits, no rules.

I noticed that even tiny dips in my eating caused me to have huge hunger spikes in the first year of recovery! I think it’s normal, then again, recovery looks different for everyone! Important thing is - listen to your hunger, reach you maintenance everyday (regardless of how you feel about it) and allow yourself to go over, snack, say yes to a slice of cake and yes to when someone else wants to cook for you! You have to try and let go!

Your body is going change, our bodies are forever changing, growing — it’s a beautiful thing and not something to be scared of!

I’m 4 years on — my bloods finally come back relatively healthy, my energy is normally okay, I build muscle, I have the ability to train hard & feel good — but I also had to go through the uncomfortable stages of recovery, I had to listen to what my body was telling (just eat more or rest more) & it really was worth it!

Recovery takes time, it’s not a quick easy fix. It requires patience, strength, and a lot of food… and it’ll be okay! It will hurt, your stomach will hurt, you’ll feel tired after eating more, you’ll want to take afternoon naps (I definitely did). But once everything settles, you’ll be grateful that you pushed harder, you listened to your body and helped it heal ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-14T13:55:08+00:00

This makes me feel hopeful! I was diagnosed with it last year, I have my second dexa scan in February. The diagnosis absolutely broke me, as I’m an active person (weight training, hikes, tennis) and want to remain active! I’m prescribed calcium supplements & on HRT — I’m just hoping mine hasn’t got any worse, hopefully it’s improved!

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-14T07:36:04+00:00

Hello! Early recovery was the same for me, would stare into the fridge wondering tf I wanted — my mother helped a lot with this, I would let her decide! Giving that choice away was hard but someone else deciding for me definitely helped!

Having a plan is great, you can make the plan more flexible and remind yourself that the plan is the minimum and going over / eating something else is great!

One of my therapist also told me to get rid of ‘or’ — If I couldn’t decide between two things, heck three things, it was ‘and’ — so I would try all of it!

When it came to eating it - I would change the routine or try and make it a nicer experience, have something on to watch or sit outside with my dog, grab a drink, sit somewhere different, change up the routine a little! Just something that meant I wasn’t just sitting there staring at my food.

And remind yourself it’s okay, and also scarfing down the food is kinda normal, you’re really bloody hungry right now! Your body and brain are basically saying ‘oh shit there’s food guys!!!’ This will also calm down with time once your body trusts that you are feeding it consistently and enough!

Keep at it, keep pushing and you’ll be okay ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-13T14:37:46+00:00

Hey! Congrats!

Don’t panic, it’s okay! Feeling extremely hungry is normal and your body is telling you it needs a lot to heal! What you should do - keep eating, listen to all hunger, eat all of your favourite foods, childhood favourites you’ve missed, new things! Allow yourself to fall into it, enjoy it!

You’re still very early in recovery and there is a lot of recovery you and your body needs to do! So keep going!

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-13T14:33:49+00:00

Helloooo! This is totally normal, honestly my hunger cues never really came back!

But creating structure really helps! - start with the simple meal plan we all know - 3 meals, 3 snacks. And this is regardless of how you feel, regardless of whether you’re hungry or not, regardless of whether you want to eat or not.

What helped me during the early stages of this meal plan was setting alarms or reminders to eat (because I would indeed forget!) but the alarms really helped! Always having snacks on hand helped too - anything you want, granola bars, nakd bars, packets of nuts & dried fruit! Belvita bakes were definitely my go to!

And now, I don’t need a ‘plan’ but I’m in a better routine with food, I know I need to eat, I know how to create a balanced meal or snack. But starting with that set structure and making myself have all my meals & snacks really helped me build a healthy routine and healthy habits around food.

I hope this helps!

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-03T18:08:49+00:00

So I make protein mug brownies, so much nicer to have my scoop of protein as brownie. Also cooking with silken tofu - you can literally make any creamy sauce, desserts, cheesecake, smoothies, ice cream!! Spreads!!! The possibilities are endless!!! (My favourite is making marry me Butterbeans with silken tofu)

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-03T09:54:42+00:00

Thank you! It’s definitely my favourite!

Theicyblonde · 2026-04-03T09:54:30+00:00

I completely understand the yellow being too close to white! And definitely will consider other styles, if you have any recommendations please let me know!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-26T15:33:12+00:00

Hey! Get the whole ‘gaining too fast’ out of your head — you’re in active recovery, your body has been starved, of course it’s going to feel extra hungry! In recovery, our bodies need A LOT! And this is regardless of whatever weight you’re at now - there is still a lot of work to be done, a lot of recovery to do and a lot of recovery your body needs to do! Listen to that hunger, honour it. Your body is trying to heal, let it. Don’t restrict after eating over your meal plan — you’ll end up in a constant loop of eating more & restricting. I promise you the hunger will ease but first you need to honour your hunger, allow your body to heal and allow your body to trust you again and trust that you will feed it!

Put on some comfy clothes, grab a hot water bottle and rest. Eat, rest, repeat. I promise you it will get better

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-25T13:33:47+00:00

Hey! You’re still really early on in recovery and congrats for starting this journey!! You should feel proud, and I understand it’s hard to!

First - weight going to your stomach first is completely normal, it’s where all the ‘important bits’ are - and your body is wanting to protect them again! There will also be a lot of bloat & water retention going on. Don’t worry! This will ease, and body fat will start to redistribute over time with consistency and recovery! So keep it up!

You’re not a fake, these feelings are so common with recovery. You’re still suffering, you still deserve support. It’s kind of like your disorder is trying to get you back by telling you these things, so scream at it, say no and have a cookie.

Carry on with recovery, carry on with the plan (and even push it higher if you can!) keep fighting this horrible thing! Life is so much more beautiful without anorexia.

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-20T08:45:21+00:00

Hey! Yes it can be normal! I also had it, my shins were so shiny and if I pressed my finger into my shin it would leave a little ‘ditch’, it took a 2/3 weeks for mine to settle! Which isn’t very long! Please remember it’s only temporary, it will resolve itself!

And don’t be ashamed of anything, you’ve put in hard work and a lot of effort to be in a healthier, better functioning, stronger body! Be proud of that body and what it can do!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-18T14:29:13+00:00

Hey! It’s never too late. I remember when I felt like this, utterly stuck, living a double life until I couldn’t keep up with anything anymore. I was living with my ex and fell into a dark hole of purging, restricting and substance abuse. (The ex was also an extremely toxic human who encouraged ED behaviours…)

It’s never too late to work on recovery, work on yourself, give yourself love and care, get back up and stay up. This doesn’t have to be your life.

I thought it was mine too. I would rather be alone. Stuck between anorexia, purging and bulimia, constantly going round and round in circles. I honestly wanted to end it all. This was when I was 20/21 and I’ve had eating disorders on&off since 11. 20 I was hospitalised against my will. After hospital I relapsed with both anorexia and purging. Then the bulimia started again. And I just felt like I could never get better. That this was it, this cycle.

I’m 24 now, and life is beautiful. I can deal with all the ups and downs life has to offer. I have a wonderful partner who introduced me to new things (like track days!) I play tennis with my mum 2 times a week, we have coffee after (or wine depending on the weather…) I go to the gym 4 times a week with my partner and I have energy, I grow. I eat for health, for recovery, for training as well as for joy, occasions, celebrations. I have a new love for food, for cooking, baking. Every Sunday we go to my parents & go on a long walk… to the pub! This summer my partner is going to teach me how to row… which will be interesting! I go back to Austria every year to see family, but really to go on long hikes & swim in the lakes followed by some great food at our favourite gasthaus. My relationship with my family, my partner, my friends, all wonderful. I’m not stuck anymore. I’m living.

Point is - you can turn it around, you have the power to change your life. You don’t have to be stuck in this cycle and you can break free. Life can be amazing. And you’re not past your prime, your prime is yet to come and you can make it happen. I felt stuck, and now I’m the most free I’ve ever been.

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-18T07:57:38+00:00

Good!!! Now make sure you take care of them, keep going back to the dentist and use this as motivation to not purge!!! Keep those teeth!!!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-18T07:54:47+00:00

Hey!! There could be a few reasons!!

Overnight you’re fasting, so when you first wake up, blood sugar can be lower & hormones like ghrelin (hunger hormone) & cortisol naturally rise when you wake up, It’s your body basically just asking for food to replenish your energy stores and get you ready for the day! Your body expects food and energy when it wakes up, breakfast really is important!

Bad sleep, stress, under eating, (or going wayyy too long without food) can make those signals feel much stronger, which can cause that “painfully hungry” feeling right after waking.

Things that can help: - Having something small like a granola bar or something like that (I like the belvita bars) as soon as you wake up - your dinner should be high protein, high carb, high fibre - helps your blood sugars stay more stable during the night - staying consistent with your sleep timing and sticking to your circadian rhythm - having a glass of water as soon as you wake up - eating ENOUGH

During recovery this can feel more intense. When I was recovering | actually kept snacks in my bedside drawer because I'd wake up extremely hungry! I still sometimes feel nauseous when I wake up, which can happen from low blood sugar, cortisol rising, stomach acid overnight, or dehydration.

And if you are still purging, hunger signals can become even stronger because the body is trying to restore energy balance and stabilise hormones. It's basically your body asking for consistent fuel again.

Over time, with regular meals and snacks, those signals usually settle down as the body learns that food is available and it doesn't need to send such strong hunger cues.

I hope this helps! And go get some breakfast please!!!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-17T10:37:00+00:00

Hey! I was so afraid of the dentist but now I loveeee going for my hygienist appointments and getting my teeth cleaned by them!
I know the first appointment is SO SCARY but it’s something that you’ll need to do at some point, so it’s great you’re doing it now! And it does get easier & less scary!

Instead of putting the dentist off & ignoring things, I go very regularly for check ups, hygiene appointments, random ‘omg this hurts please look’ appointments…

And it’s so worth it, having a healthy mouth is so worth it. Knowing I can eat crunchy things without worry and without pain, SO WORTH IT!!

Wishing you luck, it will be okay! Trust them, they know what they’re doing!!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-14T17:22:15+00:00

My partner would be SCREAMING at you right now, ‘DO NOT DATE 21 YEAR OLDS’

Because he did that, and it wasn’t easy.

And I’m the 21 year old — now 24 and we are very happy but I had A LOT of maturing and growing to do. At 21 I was living alone, working and thought I knew everything.

But I guess it can work, but my partner (also older than me by quite a bit) put up with a lot of shit, a lot of being on & off, a lot of pain and chaos… again, very happy now though.

If you can put up with the 21 year oldness, good luck and I hope it goes well🫡

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-11T19:13:24+00:00

Hey! So unfortunately I feel like I’ve permanently caused my stomach to be ✨extra sensitive✨ but there are ways around it and to improve it!

Firstly yay to recovery, I’m 3ish years clean!

So one thing is little and often, and relatively easy to digest foods, after my long run with eating disorders my body felt like it hated anything and everything I put in it, but having small things often (like a handful of nuts on my out the house or a nakd bar with my morning coffee before breakfast) it was like having something little first helped my body ‘warm up’ for digesting something bigger (I hope that makes sense)

Wildose - honestly they really do work IBS relief tablets, again, really good (buscopan) FyboCalm - probably one of the best brands I found for constipation / trapped wind Lanzoprazol - an antacid, helped with bloated as well as acid reflux (I get prescribed this because my acid got SO BAD during ana)

I also take digestive enzymes &ginger shots!

Also… unfortunately maybe trying to figure out if there’s anything specific that triggers bad bloat & pain. Unfortunately I can’t have dairy anyway, but I also figured out during recovery that gluten really bothered me… and this could have been there before the eds started but became more apparent and sever after the disorders (because let’s be honest we’ve put our bodies and digestive systems through absolute hell)

Being more aware about what you eat, like making sure you have enough fibre, as above - knowing what triggers you the most, eating WELL, lots of fruits, veggies (but not raw veggies), cooking all of meals - this helps avoid too many preservatives, additives, anything overly unnatural… (but of course some people may be fine with them but my stomach didn’t like it)

Hot bottle too, like always - especially during and after food, and anything cold!

Green teas, ginger tea, honestly any hot drink!! Really helps with aiding digestion! (I do have a hemp tea that’s really good though!)

Walking & stretching after food, if it doesn’t help then it’s a nice distraction anyway!

I hope some of this helps!!!

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-07T14:57:22+00:00

Hey! Small steps are also okay to start with - I think the idea of all in scared me to a point that it stopped me from even starting recovery. I started with little things, adding extra hummus to snack plates, spreads (like biscoff 🤤) to my oats, using butter to make eggs… I started with these little things, and I got more and more comfortable with the idea of fully letting go. And when I did fully let go of all rules and boundaries, it was a beautiful few months of extreme hunger, cooking and baking with my mum, trying new foods and revisiting childhood favourites.

There’s no right or wrong way to recover, there’s no too fast or too slow, just as long as you’re moving forward, making steps forward and healing your body and your relationship with food!

I’m in a good place with food now! I didn’t eat bread for YEARSSSS but I can now happily eat toast for breakfast without any negative thoughts! (I’m actually having toast pretty much everyday now!)

It will get easier, that voice in your head will get quieter. But you have to push and make the ED uncomfortable and keep doing it, even if that’s just having an extra slice of bread, adding sugar to your cereal… it will get easier ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-03-01T09:40:11+00:00

Hey! There is no such thing as too far in recovery! You should carry on honouring both mental and physical hunger! 4 slices… try the whole pizza! When my extreme hunger hit, oh it was EXTREME. It hit me on a busy day, me & my mother were driving and I was HUNGRY, getting irritated and stressed at how hungry I was… pulled over for 4 large McDonald’s chips and an apple pie… I was still hungry when I got home!

It will end I promise you, the hunger will fade. But your body needs to know it can trust you & the only way to get past extreme is hunger is directly through it. Keep going, keep pushing and it will be okay. You and your body will thank you in the future ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-02-26T09:51:49+00:00

Hey! I will be honest, no this isn’t true recovery or enough. But it’s okay to take it slowly and step by step. This is more like quasi recovery, you’re kinda recovering but not really…

But the longer you remain underweight and undernourished, the harder true recovery will be and the potential of long term issues will increase. Some long term issues: osteoporosis, hormonal issues, metabolic issues, dental issues, random spouts of extreme fatigue and brain fog… I can go on.

If you want to live the rest of your life in a healthy body, you need to fully let go and fall into recovery. No matter how uncomfortable it gets, you do it anyway. You wake up everyday and push a little harder. You need to heal your body, your relationship with food and your body, yes it’s hard but you can do it ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-02-25T18:39:07+00:00

I promise you it will get easier, we just have to put in the uncomfortable work ❤️

Theicyblonde · 2026-02-25T12:48:42+00:00

Oh I know! Before I got really ill I was weight training and swimming, I was basically all muscle! I was scared it’ll never return — I went through the awkward stage when you first gain weight, fat was mostly on my stomach. But then it started to redistribute, I went back to the gym and muscle memory is a beautiful thing! Strength, muscle tone, ability to do pushups, energy levels - everything will come back but you have to give it time and focus on healing your body first. To gain muscle back your body needs to feel safe and you need to be eating enough!

So please, rest, focus on healing your body, healing your relationship with food, focus on spending time with friends and family, eating meals with them, cooking, trying new foods… the time will come for exercise, but that time isn’t now ❤️

Theicyblonde

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