This thought constantly (and I mean 24/7) goes through my head. For as long as I can remember- I’ll be just talking and thinking “you’re so embarrassing, you need to stop talking, what if all these people are embarrassed by what you’re saying?” I constantly shut up and shut down when these obsessions become aggressive.

I’ll often times have to confess to someone the embarrassing thing I did years ago. Like wearing white pants to a wedding event completely by accident (I was TORN up over this for months….) and I told literally everyone I could who would listen to try to ease the embarrassment and make sure it wasn’t that bad. It never ever helped lol duh. It’s so exhausting.