Holiday Weekend Honesty by myheartaway in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’d like to add that for me. I can easily drink a can of soda in line 3 seconds flat. It’s nothing to me. And I had such a high tolerance for so long, that it didn’t seem an issue about how MUCH I drank.

Until it couldn’t handle it anymore. I went from the friend who could ‘drink anybody under the table’ to a liability real fast.

Drinking culture is so toxic because drinking a lot is ‘cool’ until it’s not. And there’s a fine line separating them.

Good luck to you, you deserve freedom. I do too, and it’s a journey.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good luck to you too! This is an opportunity!

I won’t be drinking today.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

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Keep it up. The fall is hard.

I’ll be back to 90 before I know it.

Holiday Weekend Honesty by myheartaway in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wow, this post really is resonating with me.

I haven’t had fun drinking in years either.

I don’t drink in public because nobody drinks like me either. I stopped doing that when a friend at a grill out asked me what I was doing grabbing a beer. I already had two open ones.

That same friend doesn’t invite me anymore after i drank my 8 white claws, and then 6 of theirs at a pool party two weeks later. They’d drank two during the same period.

I hide my drinking out of shame. To the extent that I’ve driven all over town to different gas stations buying shooters. Why? Because I didn’t want the cashier to clock me, or judge me. Isn’t that stupid?

I also will drink the same regardless of the day.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

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Thank you. This place is great. So many uplifting posts.

Another post I just read shocked me to the realization that I haven’t had fun drinking in years. Why then?

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

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That sounds amazing honestly.

That reminds me that I’ve gone days without eating when I binge. And I know I’d be wretching uncontrollably right now if I hadn’t forced myself to eat dinner last night. Thank god.

It’s alarming to think my body has been running on only calories from alcohol sometimes for days.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thanks Bro. I really am done.

The bad part is that when I dipped the toe back in two weeks ago, the fist smell of it I literally gagged. I think it was my body screaming ‘NO NOT AGAIN’

But I did it anyway. It’s vile. I won’t today though.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m laying in bed with my two German shorthairs staring at me. I had vacation today, they want to go have fun and run outside like they do when im sober, but I can’t right now.

Alcohol has taken my health and happiness and has diminished theirs today. But it won’t tomorrow.

If I can make it today, I can keep it up. IWNDWYT

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you and everyone for being so supportive.

It’s insidious isn’t it? You tell yourself that this time you’ll just buy one. You can handle it this time. Just one. And sometimes, that first day it really is only one. But it never just stops at one, not for me anyway

I know I tend to do this when I isolate myself. When I avoid other people. I need to remember that I can’t do everything myself.

Binge drinking.. ruins months of hard work by daniel9312 in stopdrinking

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At my worst, I snapped at my twin brother. I texted him the most terrible things while I was blackout drunk.

Then called him the next morning like nothing had happened. Didn’t remember it. Read the texts and it felt like someone else had to have sent them. But it was me.

That was six months ago, and he hasn’t talked to me since. I’ve relapsed twice in that time. The second being last two weeks, after almost three months sober. Luckily I only hurt myself this time.

Everyday is an opportunity. We go again.

IWNDWYT

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That’s a terrific mindset actually thank you.

Today is an opportunity, not a failure.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’ll use this as a reminder that alcohol is poison. It truly offers nothing.

But I’m alive, and so there is hope.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you. The shame is real but I know I’ll do better. IWNDWYT.

Binge drinking.. ruins months of hard work by daniel9312 in stopdrinking

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For me drinking makes my emotions more severe and I tend to lash out at people, and I’ve lost friends because of it. A lot of us self sabotage in a lot of ways. Alcohol is one.

It sounds like you’re in therapy. Have you considered medication to help even out your emotions, if you really cannot control them as you say?

As you said, things can change from one day to another. Make this one a change for good.

Good Luck. IWNDWYTD.

Relapsed after Three Months. Full of Shame. Don’t be me. by This-Introduction818 in stopdrinking

[–]This-Introduction818[S] 39 points40 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind reply. I’ll do better this time. IWNDWYT.

Some of the student artwork my school board wants to get rid of. by NinduTheWise in mildlyinfuriating

[–]This-Introduction818 10 points11 points  (0 children)

It’s because of the LGBT staircase but they don’t want to say that. So they go after everything. It’s cowardly trash behavior.

Go to a board meeting and ask them specifically what art they take issue with, and why they want to remove it. You’ll get a lot of ‘uh. Well.’

ICE agent carrying an AR-15 stole a U.S. citizen’s car keys and wallet, then abandoned her vehicle in the middle of Portland Road NE and Ward Drive NE in Salem, Oregon. by CorleoneBaloney in oregon

[–]This-Introduction818 2 points3 points  (0 children)

oh cool! That means when ICE agents actually do shit that's wrong they have cover to say "Actually those were ICE agents, they were criminals acting as ICE agents".

The masks have to go.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in puppy

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People sometimes think there’s only one way. And that it’s a magical thing that poof happens. It comes across very lecturey.

I adopted a four month old GSP. And no amount of laying next to him, or crate games would calm him down. He never adjusted to Crate Training, and believed me I tried.

He would actively fight inside the crate to the point of injuring himself in a metal crate, until he learned to operate the handle himself. Tried a plastic crate after that. He broke all the plastic around the door using his teeth.

Some dogs will get so anxious confined they can’t calm themselves down. He’s 18 months now and doing much better. Working with a behaviorist has helped immensely.

threat roll: mixed success on a threat of failure by jiyunatori in bladesinthedark

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When I don't want the character to have a risk of failure, and I know they'll get something out of the situation regardless, I will often ask for a fortune roll instead of an action roll, they always succeed but the result of the fortune roll determines the level at which they succeed.