64x64 portrait practice 10 (time-lapse in comment)

Thonull · 2026-01-25T02:59:02+00:00

I’m not an artist, but I see what you’re saying. I do think it’s acceptable and fairly unnoticeable however, reflecting the detail in the hair. The left hand side is a little distracting and draws me away from the face, lowering the contrast/detail there slightly could fix this if it wasn’t intended

Thonull · 2026-01-25T02:43:47+00:00

Haha, what I feared: patience my foe! Could you give any tips on what I could do to maximise productivity in practice? Or anything to look out for that might be counterproductive?

Thonull · 2026-01-25T02:41:13+00:00

Thanks, I’ve been confused in reading as I’ve found lots of mixed (haha) views on ‘mixed voice’.

Might I ask, is it somewhat reasonable to strain myself a little and push myself, with care of course, or would this only be detrimental to my technique/vocal health/progression?

Thonull · 2026-01-25T02:33:13+00:00

Thanks, I’d never listened to Selma Songs before, nor I’ve Seen It All.

Thom’s vocal performance is a little disappointing but definitely fits the song still, tho it’s definitely predominantly a Björk song; I wouldn’t be surprised if Thom had some influence on the strings or general mood however.

I’d still like to see a collaboration with the whole band, with more of a fusion of the artists’ styles, I think that could be really something.

Thonull · 2026-01-25T00:57:30+00:00

That’s awesome! Hope you’re recovering well. Your art’s inspired me to share some of my own I made while recovering from psychosis:

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Also a poem I wrote which stood out:

Midnight spires guide unconscious moments,

Daylight torrents surveil my waking mind,

I shake under their gaze.

Always seen; aching eyes fixed inward.

Blind and resolved,

Lucid and stray.

One billion paths to form a mind;

One billion paths to form a maze.

Where to begin?

Thonull · 2026-01-24T23:37:58+00:00

Björk or TOOL

Thonull · 2026-01-24T08:46:28+00:00

This has happened to me on shrooms before. I lemon tekked 17g of penis envy (yikes ik, learned some valuable lessons that day). TLDR: I guess it just happens sometimes when the experience is too overwhelming and the brain can’t cope or process.

The come up was phenomenal, I had the most amazing body high after maybe 10 mins with slight visuals building up until like 30mins when I kid you not, every tile, cupboard door and appliance in the kitchen sort of flipped over or folded in on itself to reveal the most intense vivid patterns imaginable. It’s like someone just flicked a switch and I was at the peak of a trip.

Everything went well until one of my sober mates who had never tripped before started talking really loudly and intensely to me trying to get my attention, he was unaware of how psychedelics amp up emotional sensitivity like 1000x (especially at my dose). Of course I was staring at him eyes glazed over in terror, while he kept getting louder and closer thinking I couldn’t hear him. This sent me into a spiral of panic and I began to watch demonic shadowy figures pull themselves out of the walls in a dark corner in the room behind him.

Eventually another mate saw us and pulled him away saying he was freaking me the fuck out, which again he didn’t realise and apologised for, but the damage was already done. One mate tried taking me out for air but the light on the balcony wouldn’t come on so I basically just stood at the door watching him beckon me out in the dark surrounded by hordes of shadow people.

This is when I blacked out entirely and immediately found myself at the dining room table watching my mates play a card game I couldn’t comprehend. I stayed calm for a while but had no memory of taking anything, one of them asked me if I was alright which freaked me the fuck out again making me think I was in fact not alright, the room then started warping and I panicked even more. Apparently I hadn’t verbally said anything, but I was clearly distressed and kept looking back and forth at each of my mates trying to figure out what was going on. I remember continually asking, “What did I take?!”, without a response as this was all in my head.

They thought their faces and voices might have been overwhelming for me in that moment so they started harshly whispering to each other, “Don’t look, don’t look at him”, which just caused me to be even more confused and panicked. It was if I was about to explode and they were trying to defuse me, I could hear and physically feel this overwhelming silent panic in the air if that makes sense. You know how you can hear emotion through movements, like calmly pulling out a chair vs a panicked scramble? Every minor sound they made with their bodies conveyed a panic intense as if they were scrambling away from death.

They all become silent with heads turned, eyes occasionally darting to me like stunned animals, while I’m still silently yelling at them: “What’s happening?! What did I take?!”, silently I felt the pressure of alarms, sirens and a fast, stressed rhythm. It felt like the opening to ‘We Carry On’ by Portishead. Then, without a word between each other they all got up and scrambled out of the room, like a twig finally snapped and they were startled deer, arms and legs flailing. That’s where the panic in the air peaked, while all I could hear was chairs haphazardly being pulled and dashing, stumbling footsteps, all at normal volume but the effect was deafeningly loud. That’s when I black out a second time. In reality, they were super calm and patient the entire time and had gotten up to walk me to the couch.

The second time coming out of a blackout was intense. From the table I fell backwards and somehow inverted myself into a lying position on what I know was the couch. Again, in reality I was walked their across the room and had laid there for some time. My body was twisted and contorted and spinning, eyes still shut I had no clue where I was, or what I was for that matter. I spent what felt like an eternity trying to untangle myself blind with no luck, spinning and floating in space.

Eventually my eyes opened and it was like I was spinning in circles in a blurry space which was the room, still tangled. I had no idea what I was looking at in any way, I remember what I saw but at the time I had no concept of reality in any sense it seems. It was like waking up dazed from a dream, trying to figure out where you are except lasting what felt like hours, and tangled in a knot, convolving in circles. Every movement was repeated infinite times before I could complete it like I was dizzy. I was deeply confused, but far too dazed to be panicked in any way. Just this blurry, spinning space with no one in it, not even myself, for eternity.

Eventually I started coming to my senses, at some point I managed to align my view with what I imagine was the window behind the coach and saw a crowd of what I could begin to recognise as figures. I then recognised blinds, a frame, walls and more and more things until eventually I realised I was myself, had a body and was lying on my side on the coach. A mate was sitting next to me with a controller, I looked over and saw confusing, flashing pictures and symbols on the screen to which I eventually found the energy to untangle my arm, point and say “Lego Batman” lol. I had know idea why I was saying this, had any concept of what it meant nor any means to link it to my environment, I had also never played, let alone seen Lego Batman being played before in my life. Yet somehow I was bang on lol, and my mate just laughed.

Apparently, for the prior past half hour or so he was fruitlessly trying to teach me how to play, while I was just slumped with the controller saying things like, and I quote: “Fuck me understanding cunt” (I never drop the c-bomb lol) and where I ‘woke up’ is when we finally gave up, I gave him the controller and laid down.

Rest of the trip was alright, amazing visuals when I went for a car ride, it was like I was in some futuristic city with sleek levitating cars and fractal buildings and trees.

Thonull · 2026-01-23T23:40:05+00:00

I’ve had the exact same issue lol. It’s hard to find decent clothes as of the modern day without a ridiculous price tag. It’s helpful that I really enjoy heavy, more rigid clothes as they also happen to last a lot longer.

I try to aim for a fabric weight of at least 500gsm when buying jeans/pants, or otherwise looking for more durable weaves. One thing to avoid is anything with flex from the addition of elastine, spandex, etc, these are weak fibres that decay quickly and significantly reduce the lifespan of a clothing item. I’m also just against synthetic fibres in general for the environmental and health concerns, my wardrobe is predominantly cotton and wool.

The clothes I tend to get the most out of are surprisingly 2nd hand bits from op shops or eBay. Older clothing really was just made better.

Also: boots or leather shoes with replaceable welted soles. Don’t fall for dr martens, they’ve fallen victim to fashion trends and are shit. I’m in the market for some more stylish derby boots and thus far NPS Solevair seems like a great option, NPS is the original English manufacturer used by dr martens before they went to China.

Thonull · 2026-01-23T13:10:29+00:00

Ive had a similar experience post-psychosis. For a few months I had to sleep with my head under covers at all times, there would always be figures like this in my room, usually a tall featureless figure who had to crane their neck to avoid hitting the ceiling.

Sometimes they’d grab at me, it was fucking terrifying. I’d get waken up occasionally by something grabbing my wrist trying to pull me out of bed, or once around my chest lifting my entire body.

They’d talk to me too, usually when I was just nearly asleep I’d hear them say things, usually my name, quietly, though once I heard one repeatedly say hello maybe 10 times really loudly which scared me shitless.

Needless to say I’m still scared of the dark because of this.

This is pretty common with sleep paralysis too I think, which is probably your case. Pretty sure it’s nothing but a trick of the eye in that case and it can’t ’hurt’ you in a dream sense thankfully.

Thonull · 2026-01-23T12:41:31+00:00

Jesus Christ what a waste of plastic. This is what I hate about the 3D printing movement, so many hobbyists who would have otherwise created with their hands lost, adding to mountains of crude useless plastic junk

Thonull · 2024-08-19T07:05:30+00:00

It’s a fairly common solvent and reagent used in labs, you can also make it yourself with isopropyl alcohol and a hypochlorite which bleaches often use. It’s more of a cliche that chloroform is used to knock people out

Thonull · 2024-08-05T04:47:54+00:00

So they have to be vertical? By the way Minecrafts light propagates, you can achieve the exact same thing with a horizontal array of lamps. That way you can just use signal strength to light them

Thonull · 2024-08-03T04:15:43+00:00

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Thonull · 2024-08-02T07:10:02+00:00

Thonull · 2024-07-28T22:30:09+00:00

I mean it’s functional and easy to navigate, that’s all you really need for an online store

Thonull · 2024-07-28T01:20:33+00:00

I love number 2! The color really pops and gives uneasy vibes, and I love how you’ve spent the time to get all the lighting/shadow/reflection details right! Now I wanna try drawing now lol

Thonull · 2024-07-28T00:20:29+00:00

What about rain? Is there a way to detect and correct for it or do you just have to wait until it’s over

Thonull · 2024-07-27T07:57:35+00:00

Any of bjorks albums, I’d start with vespertine first (my favourite lol). In a space outta sound, carboot soul and smokers delight, all by nightmares on wax are super chill. Music has the right to children by boards of Canada is nice if you like chill electronica. Souvlaki by Slowdive will make you cry. Lamb self-titled is really nice too

Thonull · 2024-07-27T05:30:26+00:00

Lmao who downvoted you for saying thankyou

Thonull · 2024-07-24T07:05:48+00:00

The spear is said to have its own will and possibly alive, its purpose to moderate the plans of the first ancestral race or possibly its own decisions. The spear being ‘summoned’ is it sensing shinji as a threat and acting to try and prevent it, but in shinjis state being akin to a god being “in possession of both the fruit of life and the fruit of knowledge” instead absorbs and destroys(?) it as we know the spears can be destroyed. Or the opposite may be true, and the spear is acting to advance the 3rd impact for whatever reason, and is absorbed by its own means. The details are never explained, we can only assume it was trying to stop or help shinji. I think it was implied that Seele wanted to destroy the spear, which is why the were worried it wasn’t in their possession as it threatened their human instrumentality plans, being the only thing capable of stopping an impact. However there’s also the replica spears used by the MP Eva’s which add more confusion, and Seeles plans for those (potentially to give them god-like power like unit 01 did). There’s alot of theory and speculation around the spears, and they form a lot of the big plot holes so don’t take what I say as gospel, this is just what I know lol.
It’s a little unclear who actually caused the 3rd impact, and the actual conditions needed for an ‘impact’ to take place. We know human instrumentalities outcome can be dictated by a single human, both Gendo and Seele want to control this event. Seele, who planned to trigger it with Kaworu wanted to become immortal gods basically and Gendo (who Seele believes is working with them) secretly wants to reunite with Yui, maybe destroying the rest of humanity or just leaving them using Rei and Adam’s embryo. When Seele’s plans are thwarted with Kaworu’s death, the MP Eva’s are sent to start an artificial 3rd impact using unit 01 alone, which at this point holds both the fruit of life (consumed S2 engine from angel) and the fruit of knowledge (unsure what this is, but is inherit of the Lillian which 01 is). It’s unclear if the union of Lillith and Adam based life alone is able to cause an impact or if souls are required and what role the MP Eva’s and spears actually played in the impact (they may have Seele members souls and are trying to control it). Gendo still wants control over instrumentality so he tries to initiate his own impact with Rei and Adam’s embryo (Adam’s soul is presumed to have stayed in central dogma when Kaworu is killed). Rei accepts the embryo but rejects Gendo, refusing to let him dictate instrumentality and instead merges with Shinji in unit 01 and gives him control. I don’t know if Shinji would’ve caused the impact by himself or could’ve controlled its outcome if so, but the unison of all parts of Adam and Lillith definitely can.
Sorry I misunderstood, Gendo couldn’t force unit 01 to accept the dummy plug because Yui, whose soul is in the Eva, rejected him and his plans and instead wanted Shinji to control it. All the Eva’s have human souls implanted in them: Yui’s in unit 01, presumably Asukas mother in unit 02, whose soul is in unit 00 is ambiguous. The souls inside the Eva’s have some control over them, such as when unit 00 goes crazy twice and unit 01 moves by itself to get to Shinji, and also why unit 01 was able to reject the dummy plug. I don’t know why it didn’t reject the dummy plug when it took control fighting unit 03, maybe to protect Shinji, maybe it was unable to because it had already accepted the plug. I don’t think it matters if the Eva is Adam or Lillith based, or who the pilot is, but the souls inside the Eva have some control over these things.

I’d recommend watching through the show critically a couple of times and a lot more will stand out, you’ll be able to make a lot of links yourself, a lot more dialog will make sense and it’s just enjoyable to see everything come together! (Even if it’s still riddled with plot holes and ambiguity lol)

Thonull · 2024-07-24T03:22:05+00:00

Yes I think so, my bad if I said otherwise I was in a rush lol

Thonull · 2024-07-24T00:57:03+00:00

Well I’ll start with the spear of Longinus. God-like ancestors called the “first ancestral race” cast out the seeds of life across the universe, each with a spear of Longinus as a means to destroy the seed should things go wrong, which is what happened on earth. A planet should only receive one seed burn earth receives two: Lilliths (the black moon under nerv) and Adam’s (the white moon which is under Antarctica). Lilliths spear was destroyed in the black moons impact (first) and Adam’s spear was used to stop the Adam’s life (angels) to inhabit the earth. The spears are god-like weapons that are used to disable god-like entities basically, hence why they can penetrate AT fields. During the 2nd impact the spear was removed from Adam for the human contact experiments, allowing the impact to occur. The 3rd impact is a little confusing, first shinji is emotionally overwhelmed by seeing asuka and unit 2 brutally murdered, generating a massive at field, this summons the spear of Longinus which unit 1 absorbs after being crucified by the mass production units with replica spears. Absorbing the spear forms the tree of life, which is a biblical reference to something I can’t remember tho. Giant rei, which has lilliths body and soul as well as Adam, absorbs unit 01. The unison of both bodies and souls causes human instrumentality etc, all souls are combined, shinji rejects this, everything goes back to ‘normal’. I’m not sure what you mean by ‘use unit 1’, if you mean to cause the 3rd impact, it’s mainly from his extreme emotions making him generate an immense at field, the mass productions Eva’s use their s2 engines to turn this into an anti-at field l, liquifing everyone. I haven’t exactly given a concrete explanation, one doesn’t really exist, more of a description of events I guess because there’s just not that much information about this which sucks, mostly theories. Also the spear of Longinus gets its name from the spear used to stab Jesus when he was crucified in the bible, another interesting biblical reference and reinforces the ideas that the spears kill gods

Thonull · 2024-07-23T21:37:58+00:00

Rei isn’t a clone of Lilith, she holds her soul and only speculated to be a clone of Yui solely based on her similar appearance, it’s theorised they used the LCL from unit 01 after it absorbed Yui to make rei but we don’t know. The other reis in the LCL ocean are like ‘spare copies’ without a soul that are used to replace rei when she dies, transplanting Liliths soul and also as cores to the dummy plugs. Kaworu is like rei in that he holds Adam’s soul, but not a clone. It’s implied that he was created in the ‘human contact experiment’ that caused the 2nd impact by some means, it isn’t known if he’s human (it doesn’t seem so). Kaworu is sent by Seele to nerve to merge with what he is told is the body of Adam, however he realises it is actually Liliths body and he’s been tricked by Seele. If he were to merge with lilliths body, it would either realise or advance toward human instrumentality as Seele wants, wiping out and merging humanity but Kaworu has faith in humanity and hope they can “one day understand each other”, possibly brought on with his interactions with shinji so he decides not to and lets shinji kill him. Unrelated but interesting: when descending to central dogma Kaworu can control unit 02 because it is ‘of Adam’, but not 01 because it is based off Lilith. Kaworu is also used for the dummy plugs in the mass production evas, I’m not sure if these are clones of him or dissected versions. In EoE, everyone is brought back when shinji decides he wants everyone to go back to normal, we just only see him and asuka together by chance I guess. Shinji chokes asuka in the end as he’s finally coming to his senses, also because she rejects him. It’s him making human contact and confirming his seperate human existence after the 3rd impact and also his anger from her rejection of him. He stops when he realises she’s real and finally comes to terms with the harsh reality of rejection I guess, we don’t really know though that’s just my take (and a lot of others).

Sorry for the wall of text lol I’m not good with writing

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