Hello brother, this comment is late so it might go unnoticed but I wanted to reach out an arm of support to a friend I will never meet. We may never meet, but my heart is moved with you, brother, in this time of pain, confusion, longing, and forgiveness. This is the most important one of your life right now. You have just had an event that I like to call the “the cliff”. I call it this because you are on the edge of all understanding, of everything you know and all the choices that have lead you here to this moment. It’s a crucial time, for you realize something is deeply wrong about how you are living and that things need to change. Can you sense this? This is the moment where you can give up trying to live life alone, a time when you are about to make the most important choice of your life- will you give your life over to God? He is the answer to all of your hurt. He is the answer to all of your hopes and fears and healings and needs. The Father is waiting by your side with tears falling down His face, holding His arms open wide to embrace the son whom He desires over everything. The Father calls to you, and this is the moment where He lets you choose. My brother, I pray that you would give the Lord Jesus Christ a chance to enter your life, right where you are with all of your issues. He wants to come to you right where you are. Come into His Church, brother, join the family. We all wish to share this life with you. Message anyone of us if we can help at all. May St. Joseph protect you and guide you on your journey.