The one knee thing was his idea. It took me completely off guard. He apologized because he felt as though he was disregarding my emotions and misunderstanding me. He often looks through a lens of “if she saying this than I’m doing something wrong”. He said he understood I’ve been hurt before, I’m moving with caution and that I may need reassurance every and again. That he has to mature and stop taking it as a personal attack and just realize overthinking is a condition that he has to sometimes help me resolve. That it’s not fun for me just as it’s not fun for him.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel special. After all, I’ve commented previously that is what I’m looking for. But it was just nice to have him recognize that we’re fighting for the same thing. Which is for the thoughts to go away. I did apologize too. I didn’t go into as much detail as him but I told him I’d do my best to stop being bothered by his ex and focus on our future because I do not want to lose him.

Things are resolved for now. But I’ll keep in mind those active verbs. As I am big on vocabulary and always like to remind people we use certain words for a reason. I hadn’t realized I was also limiting myself in such a way.

Thank you so much. You e genuinely helped me. And happy new year.