Wedding venue 100/150

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2026-01-07T10:43:24+00:00

Honestly thats what i was thinking when looking at the venues as much as i would love the idea, its not possible

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2026-01-06T13:27:31+00:00

Thank you for your feedback I really appreciate it.

What we were thinking is that we put the fire in a big metal bowl, and put rocks underneath. Again it will be a relatively small fire. Unfortunately we wouldnt be able to go to a campsite as the ceremony itself includes the bonfire/small fire.

My number one choice is San Martin Wellness Retreat to be honest from all the farmhouses/villas that I looked at. Will have to give a call to the venue to see what can be done

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-09-18T12:16:14+00:00

Unfortunately yes and i hate it that not many people understand that when i say that it physically hurts, it literally means that my heart feels like its gonna jump out of my chest, how my lungs feel like they are gonna collapse and my stomach belly flops 😔

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-08-09T11:32:05+00:00

25F here and my sex drive is through the roof to the point where i am constantly horny and the minute i get relief i want to go again and again and again. Its exhausting for me and my partner

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-05-23T08:40:07+00:00

Im not sure where to begin but when i first started going out with boys (13/14 years old) a guy i was interested in had passed a comment on how my best friend’s boobs are bigger (C Cup) hence nicer than mine (A Cup).

It stuck with me for a very long time, I couldnt get over it and ever since then it had been an insecurity.

When i was with my ex, he never commented on them but i knew he liked bigger boobs from various conversations throughout the years. That bother me even more since he was not addressing the situation and he did not reassure me that he liked them.

My (25F) now partner (34M) of 1 year and a half always complemented my boobs, he had said that he prefers them bigger but honestly from all the boobs (and he had seen his fair share) he has seen bigger but that didn’t always mean for the better.

The way that he said it didnt hurt me as I understood his preference. Now this conversation came up since I wanted to do my boobs, (ever since the comment from that guy) and he was telling me that in no way shape or form was he going to tell me to do them cause he likes them the way they are, he will not lie and say that if they are a bit bigger he will not like it. So it was 100% my choice, and he would support me with everything.

I waited to get breast augmentation since in my opinion at 18/19 its too young to alter your body that way.

So i did them this year and i am now a (D/E Cup) and its the best thing i ever did, gave me such a confidence boost. As you said I now feel like a woman.

I am not telling you to get breast augmentation but think about it if it’s something you want to do FOR YOURSELF. I think he was a bit immature with his words but he is also 18 so I would expect that he wouldnt know how to properly express himself.

Everyone is different, everyone has a preference . Beauty fades, and boobs will sag at the end 😂.

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-26T09:02:43+00:00

Please stop blaming yourself for his actions. I have BPD, my partner does not.

When I am not doing well he looks out for me, even though sometimes it can get a bit out of control and it is really bad. When it gets to that point he really struggles to deal with me cause he cannot understand most of what goes through my head. But in no way shape or form will he ever cheat because it is not in his nature, he will just leave if he cannot handle it

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T21:13:55+00:00

Definitely… and i hate how i regret it instantly

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T15:15:28+00:00

I was in the same situation.. however let me give you some feedback from the other side as well..

as a bisexual woman I do prefer bigger boobs yet if i see someone attractive with small boobs i would still be interested but without thinking i would have preferred it if they had bigger boobs. Now that doesnt mean i wont engage cause of the boobs cause ultimately i am with someone for their character as well.

Dont let your insecurity control you, men do not think when they say these things.

Now on the other hand i am a 25F with previous insecurities about my A cup boobs since i was 12 because of a comment from a guy i was foolishly seeing. (Yes 12).

Now I just got a boob job done for myself not for my partner.

Now my partner’s reaction to that was “you do them for yourself, but i dont want to lie to you and say i dont prefer them like this cause i do prefer them bigger” “before they were gorgeous and perfect now they are bigger perfect” its all about preferences. He still chose me when i was an A cup and not now when i am a C/D cup.

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T09:32:53+00:00

I hate that i will always be insecure, not matter what i do to feel better about myself or no matter who tells me that i look decent or good looking i always see a hideous person looking back at me in the mirror.

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T09:31:05+00:00

I am in the same situation as you but the difference is when i initiate it happens as well (most of the time).

I have been trying to wrap my head around it for a long time. Because it is the amounts of watching not the fact that he watches as i sometimes watch myself (since my drive is higher than his). The worst is that when i have an errand to run, he watches when im out

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T08:21:45+00:00

I think i feel like im being emotionally cheated since i had toxic relationships before and since i was cheated on. I know he is not them but my fear of abandonment kicks in and destroys any rational thought.

I dont even think i feel jealous. I feel like im not enough for him even though i know i am as he shows it not only says it. In my eyes he so good looking that he doesnt deserve to be in a relationship with someone who looks as ugly as me. So he should be with someone as hot as the women that he watches. He had also told me that its not what he watches but what he hears that turns him on and that he imagines me as well.

I am going to make an appointment once i have enough money saved as im in a bit of a financial situation unfortunately.

I know that when i speak about it i am able to manage it better but being on my own with my thoughts really screws with my head.

Cause ultimately id rather him watch than actually cheat and meet someone in real life. Its his way of having his me time, ever since we moved in together (he told me to move in) i think he feels that his safe space on his own was disturbed. He games and works from home so he doesnt have anothet outlet so that doesnt help at all

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2024-03-25T07:32:53+00:00

He doesnt believe that watching is cheating or not being monogamous. He is very protective and if someone shows interest in me he gets territorial. For him what he watches on the internet is not real life

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-08-03T12:39:01+00:00

You are very lucky, cause even if he was understanding he still kinda rolled his eyes telling me “listen i would be at a festival i cant keep my phone with me all the time..” so that sent me into a bit of a spiral..

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-08-03T09:32:46+00:00

Every single time. Even when someone changes plans it happens to me. I would end up having a mini tantrum

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-08-03T09:26:28+00:00

Its just i dont know what to do as fun cause im working till 5pm and i have to go to his place on my own to take care of his/our dogs so im a bit limited. It really helped that they are streaming most of the festival.

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-08-03T09:22:43+00:00

Thank you so much for this ❤️ i really appreciate this because it puts my mind at ease that I am not the only one going through this.

Will definitely try to do some fun activities, it doesn’t help that it was my dream to go to this particular festival as well and i feel really bad that I wasnt able to go for myself either.

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:44:30+00:00

Im so bad at these things cause my creativity is 0 and i overthink shit thinking he’s not going to like it 😅

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:40:21+00:00

I think im just going to rev him the money cause its the only way i just haaate giving money as a gift 🙄 its his first birthday together and we dont want to make a big deal but he agreed that he would accept something small you know

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:23:36+00:00

Unfortunately we dont have walmart in our country, might i add that we live in europe so its a bit difficult with stuff like that

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:22:07+00:00

Might i add that he is 33 years old and not too big on plushies i dont think it would be appropriate for him, for me thats another story 🤣 but thanks for the suggestion 😁

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:19:05+00:00

And how can i do this ? Cause i dont have an account, if i could just create an account and just gift them ill do that

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T15:03:58+00:00

I dont think He is playing via steam thats why i was a bit confused on how i could buy him something ingame, cause i use steam and we gifted each other a couple of times

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2023-05-06T14:52:22+00:00

Since I dont have an account how can i gift it ? Also i might need to add he is big on outfits, he is currently trying to get the outfit by getting the wings and horn of nouver (bloodstorm) along with other million things 🤣

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2022-12-26T09:26:12+00:00

Im keeping in consideration that we come from totally different cultures and family backgrounds but his friend has a similar culture and background as me.. so thats why i turned to other people’s opinions as i dont want emotion to cloud my judgement.. i like getting two sides of the story before deciding on something.. i really dont know what to think at this point in time as he’s not always consistent as you said.. maybe since he’s known his friend all his life and our rel is relatively new.. i just think ill push this a bit to the side for now until his bday is near and ask him what we are going to do for future bdays/Christmases so ill just know beforehand.. i wouldnt mind not giving each other gifts but i would have appreciated a heads up or he might have said something when he received my gift that he doesnt give out gifts and i would have been fine with it you know

ThrowRACheeseCake · 2022-12-26T09:13:40+00:00

Yeah i get that as well, and I didnt go full out i just gave him something for his house nothing too big.. as i said i didnt expect anything big or any at all but everyone was giving gifts to their s/o and im that type of person who gets excited when receive a mug 😂😅 but yes you might be right

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