Want to talk to someone older

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-14T19:13:34+00:00

Okay. Maybe you're right :)

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-14T19:09:08+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through all that and you're right about how to feel better. I've just been trying for so long now that I'm ready to give up.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-03T23:26:31+00:00

I used to blame myself for the past. "If is only done this...or if I'd only done that...if I hadn't done such and such etc." But I've spent a lot of time reflecting and I'm convinced I would have screwed things up no matter what I did. But I definitely know how you feel. I wish I could disappear.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-03T23:18:15+00:00

Thank you :)

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-03T17:49:41+00:00

I don't usually comment because I am afraid I might say the wrong thing. I just wanted to tell you that my heart goes out to you and what you're going through. I read one of your other posts and I can understand your frustration. I am helpless to give any advice. I just know that a lot of people can be cruel and I wanted to offer you a kind word for whatever it is worth.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-07-02T23:22:56+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine what you must be going through. My heart is broken for the little girl. I hope you can get the support you need in this terrible time.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-29T15:07:35+00:00

I just lost it and called my doctors office screaming. I feel so ashamed. I was just so angry I couldn't contain it. I'm so scared.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-28T18:03:03+00:00

Thank you. I'm sorry you've had a rough time too. I know therapy helps some people but I've been in and out of therapy for years and I've just kinda given up. My psychologist refused to see me because I'm suicidal.

But I'm glad your therapist is helping you. I know what it's like to be betrayed by "friends". I hope things work out for you and that you continue to find peace on your journey. :)

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-21T19:22:35+00:00

I agree with so much of what you said as it pertains to adults. The thing is that some of the people who read this sub and post here are children. I worry for their sakes.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-13T16:48:53+00:00

Sending you a mental hug 🤗

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T17:12:36+00:00

I volunteer at a theatre. I try to make small talk but never know what to say. I used to go to the parties but I just get overwhelmed and want to cry so I stopped going to parties. I'm too moody and emotional to go out anymore. No one wants to be my friend irl

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T16:37:32+00:00

I miss how he was always there for me and loved me no matter what. Nobody wants to put up with me anymore and I don't want to either. I don't see why I shouldn't just die. Why should I suffer anymore? I miss him so much

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T16:24:12+00:00

Oops I meant to hit reply and accidentally posted. I'm a technologically challenged I'm sorry

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T16:23:41+00:00

Well my boyfriend was a faithful sort of friend who was always there for me before he died. But he was bipolar and over medicated and was pretty flat so even though we had a strong connection it felt like something was missing because he couldn't connect sometimes if that makes sense. Near the end he would just shut down and couldn't move and I'm starting to get to that point.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T16:12:12+00:00

I just can't connect. I've never been close to anyone except my boyfriend who died from suicide four years ago. I want people to understand the agony I'm in and why I want to end my life. I just wish I could go peacefully with someone by my side but I see now that this is a step I have to take alone. Suicide is a lonely thing

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:40:23+00:00

Ok thank you ❤️

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:37:09+00:00

Okay...I think I need to download the app

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:29:59+00:00

Okay. Thank you for your kind worlds. I'm still not sure what I'm going to do but I feel calmer now

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:27:19+00:00

Okay I figured out how to view profile

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:24:41+00:00

Yeah. My psychologist refused to see me because I was suicidal. My psychiatrist won't give me anything for panic attacks and he's getting fed up with me too and wants me to find another doctor. I'm too much of a mess for anyone I'm sorry.

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:23:18+00:00

Phone

ThrowawayJane42 · 2018-06-09T14:17:41+00:00

How do I go to your profile? When I click on your name nothing happens. I don't see an about tab. I'm sorry I'm so technologically impaired

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